A Throw Away

 A Throw Away

Just like the first gift you open

That you disregard and discard

So forgotten it was nearly included

In the wrapping remnants left on the floor

I find myself curdling in fetal position

On the same floor waiting to be thrown away 

Get a way, find a way, fade away

Live away, know a way, go away 

Stay away, far away, thrown away

Feeling so inconsequential

Even the refuse crew

Didn’t notice me when

I’m right here 

Just like a flower blooming just 

Before the first autumnal freeze

You don’t notice, much less appreciate it

Even though it’s right there in front of you 

It’s wasting away having wasted so much time 

A waste of potential gone and thrown away 

Get a way, find a way, fade away

Live away, know a way, go away 

Stay away, far away, thrown away

Feeling so inconsequential

Even my whole world now 

Didn’t notice me when

I’m right here 

Just like always

I’m right here

Bound to be

Thrown away. 

Anywhere But Home

 Anywhere But Home

“Please wear my jacket” I ask you in the rain

I have no clue about you apart from here and now

You exsude risk with enough abandon that a

Helmet won’t save me from my thoughts 

I feel your pull taking a hold 

Ripping me from all I know 

You can take me away so that we can

R r r ride into the dawn

No matter where when I am with you  

Don’t fear this feeling growing now just

R r r ride with my heart

Into the unknown without a care 

Tell me where exactly are you from? 

Is the open road what you call home? 

I’d like a life like that for my own…

Please take me anywhere but home!

Baby I can let go of what i know 

Live a life full before it’s gone

Experience it all but not alone 

Please just take me anywhere but home

We’re leaving the city

Thinking what I’m leaving

Failed romances, a dead end job

Gloomy weather, no direction 

Even without bad memories

It’s time that I go 

I can see you’re the way I make my great escape 

Let’s only pack just the necessities and

R r r ride out of this town

And throw restraint and fear to the wind

I don’t even want to know I will just

R r r ride to something new

With you by my side nothing matters 

Baby I can let go of what i know 

Life a live full before it’s gone

Experience it all but not alone 

Please take me anywhere but home

Take me anywhere 

Please take me anywhere

Gotta take me anywhere

Take me anywhere but home. 

Even if I journey directionlessly from now on 

I’ll ride fearlessly towards the future with you

Baby I can let go of what i know 

Live a life full before it’s gone

Experience it all but not alone 

Please just take me anywhere but home

Take me anywhere

Please take me anywhere

Gotta take me anywhere

Take me anywhere but home. 

Demure Rage

You woke up a beast in me

That I thought I killed off before

And now that it’s enraged, wide awake

You don’t know if you should go or stay

To run far away or shelter in place 

I’m willing to let anyone get away with murder

Until you some how find a way to take it too far

And now it’s crazy how my passiveness 

Is replaced by anger worse than torment eternal 

Ya really should run

Faster than sound

Far from the range 

Of my demure rage

Ya really should go

And not be found 

Far from the range 

Of my demure rage. 

I don’t know what i could do

With all this chaos erupting

No one’s safe and no one understands 

When this destructive side came to be

But in my eyes they see it’s frightening 

I’ve turned my cheek so many times now all I know is numb. 

But somewhere deep in my forgiving nature is a 

Piece of me that wants no apologies 

Only revenge that’s nothing but irrational

Ya really should run

Faster than sound

Far from the range 

Of my demure rage

Ya really should go

And not be found 

Far from the range 

Of my demure rage. 

The Abyss

 The Abyss

Just who am I anymore

A wasted opportunity 

Rusting remains in the rain

My basic needs forgotten

All I ever wanted from anyone 

Was to receive and feel their love

But now all I ever pray for is a

Sweet release into the abyss. 

Where light fades into dark

Where this becomes nothing 

Where sound echoes silent 

The abyss beacons me away from you

Despite my melancholy 

I know this isn’t usual

No chemical imbalance

Can explain you draining me

Somehow you always say and do things wrong

Making me ask what’s wrong with me 

I know the truth but it doesn't stop me

From jumping into the abyss

Where dreams awaken gone

Where we are you and I

Where love hates what it is

The abyss tries to shelter me from pain

Because you lack the ability to find

Happiness in any real way

You somehow manage to drain any joy

When just the thought of you approaching me

When I hear your name, or I see your face 

I retreat into the abyss

Where nothing is abound

Where substance is null

Where truth contains no proof

The abyss comforts and envelopes me

Where dreams awaken gone

Where we are you and I

Where love hates what it is

The abyss tries to shelter me from pain

Where light fades into dark

Where this becomes nothing 

Where sound echoes silent 

The abyss beacons me away from you