Crystal Sanctuary

I sit here numb

Disoriented from the destruction

You unleashed at our loves refuge 

I don’t know what to say 

Or do

That could get you right now

To open you’re eyes and believe

How many times can you shatter

Our crystal sanctuary 

Until nothing is left to salvage

Toying with emotions

Suffocating love and hope

With fallacious rage and fear

How much longer can I support 

Our crystal sanctuary’s

Until nothing can be recognized 

I lay here dumb

Processing the pain I’m subjected to

All I have to stand solid on

Is the paranoia

Not love

That you give me instead

So why do I keep trying for?

How many times can you shatter

Our crystal sanctuary 

Until nothing is left to salvage

Toying with emotions

Suffocating love and hope

With fallacious rage and fear

How much longer can I support 

Our crystal sanctuary’s

Until nothing can be recognized 

Don’t be shocked

When you come to your senses

That your loving sanctuary 

Where you terrorized me

Isn’t there and you’re alone 

Dealing with the consequences 

That you’ve kept waiting 

wasting my time loving

 

Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do

It could be a whisper from your past

Or when something you’re suppressing 

Rises up into view

I’m never looking for it

I can’t even avoid its truth

That I’ll never be enough

I can’t measure up

To what you’ve had before

Or what you’re craving more of 

Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do

At first when we were shiny brand new 

You could never get enough of

Whatever I could have

But now you’re bored at our best 

I’m left craving what I can’t earn 

So when I see apathy

Staring back at me

Being grand or just there

Of course I’d think “what’s the use”

Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do

Don’t misunderstand me as I know

You love me with all you have to

I just know I can’t know

The intensity for those

That came before oh those old flames

So warm even now Im less

a match in the wind

Trying to breathe and shine 

And not fade into your night 

Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do

Spark of Lightning

 

Accidental Rendezvouses

By fate put us together 

We unknowingly avoided each other before

And once in each others sights 

Everything that we had to come 

Was unavoidable 

No matter how rough. 

Words and melodies

Don’t convey

That feeling i first felt with you. 

But some chords and rhymes 

Illustrate 

The emptiness that now remains

That first spark with you was lightning 

Beautiful, felt forever, gone in a flash

And just like lightning that feeling

So intense Can’t be felt again won’t strike twice

The echos of thunder fled

And left us deaf and blind to

Our words for each other to love, to grow, learn and heal 

Then gazes turned into glares

My lover has become the enemy sleeping with me 

Stacking up the pain 

That first spark with you was lightning

Beautiful, felt forever, gone in a flash

And just like lightning that feeling

So intense Can’t be felt again won’t strike twice

That spark of lightning 

That connection with you 

That spark of lightning 

That once paralyzed me

That spark of lightning 

That won’t come round again 

That spark of lightning 

Just might have ruined me 

I’m

 I’m

You say I’m missing out on a life time of fun

But I’m practicing restraint so I don’t loose control 

It’s not that I don’t want let loose and get down

I’m just trying to my flighty mind on the ground 

Say I’m selfish say I’m so insane

Call me naive call me out my name

Say what you want 

I’m just the only one I’ve ever known

To be responsible for me

You’re quick to ridicule me and fill me with doubt 

How I’m failing everyone especially myself 

You don’t understand what seems simple to you 

Requires me to evolve quickly to get by

I’m always trying to keep it together 

No one else is doing it for me 

I’m always just about to fall apart

And no one’s there to save me

Say I’m selfish say I’m so insane

Call me naive call me out my name

Say what you want 

I’m just the only one I’ve ever known

To be responsible for me

As Crazy As

 As Crazy As

No matter how you can spin it

I’m going in circles regardless

What’s up, who’s that… coming round 

I’m down. 

Until you say I misheard it

Either way I’m feeling worthless

No way, I say… yet you say

Go play 

Do you enjoy driving me as crazy as you?

Wearing out every emotion until I’m numb

Dumb for ever getting crazy for you as you 

Are doing all you can to make me run go run

As crazy as you say I am to you

Little by little you take a way

Pieces insignificant 

Until I start missing them all

Since you came around 

I’m losing myself and you 

Love blaming me for doing it

To you I’m confused I do the same to you?

When together we’re dangerous

Then it was anyone against us

Not now, they’re safe… but not me

Crazy?

Surely not but this isn’t sound 

The bruises from the aftermath 

On you, on me… you don’t see 

What hurts. 

Do you enjoy driving me as crazy as you?

Wearing out every emotion until I’m numb

Dumb for ever getting crazy for you as you 

Are doing all you can to make me run go run

As crazy as you say I am to you

(Little by little you take away pieces)

(Insignificant until I start missing them)

(All since you came around I’m losing myself)

(And you love blaming me for doing it to you)

(I’m confused I do the same to you?)