what is Love?

What are you doing 

I’m uncomfortable 

This is unfamiliar 

You’re being more than kind

Is this affection

Attempts at romance

I’m so confused

I don’t feel it’s wrong...

What is this feeling

And These butterflies

My stuttering words

Is this what is Love?

What is, what is, what is

Love

What did you just do now

I want to be ready. 

But I’m not so steady

To accept all this

I know rejection

But is this my chance 

To live in love

I don’t feel it’s wrong...

What is this feeling

My heart skips a beat

Am I worthy of this 

Is this what is Love?

What is, what is, what is

Love

I’m afraid

But slide close

Let yourself in

Become one 

With me

I was one 

Far too long 

So intertwine 

To be one 

What is this feeling

And These butterflies

My stuttering words

Is this what is Love?

What is this feeling

My heart skips a beat

Am I worthy of this 

Is this what is Love?

What is, what is, what is

Love

Is this what is Love?

The Future Is Universal

 

The future is universal

Little boy

Why are you scared

I understand

But this will come to pass

And you will be better off

Little girl

Why are you crying 

It’s a damn lie

What you dream isn’t it

And you’re better off

We remember and forget

The pain of the past 

It comes and goes like a ghost

Some things will not last 

Despite what they say.

In the here and now

The future is universal

Despite how I feel.  

Little child

Just who are you

All that matters

Is you find who you are 

And you’re better off 

Gentle one

A man or woman

Just live your truth

All that matters is you 

And you’re better now 

We were once and future lives

Despite these facts that 

Are left to be a phantom 

Some things are the past. 

Despite what they say.

In the here and now

The future is universal

Despite how I feel.  

You don’t know

Why we are here

It’s just a chance 

We make sense of all this 

And we’re better off

Despite what they say.

In the here and now

The future is universal

Despite how I feel.  

Enamored

 We met in a bathroom

And there was a spark

How am I to feel about this.  

You loved my Cute undies 

Then Went to nice vein

How am I do feel about this. 

Did you like seeing me there

In underwear you’d never seen before 

Is that why you keep trying to come back for more?

How does it feel to be so enamored. 

You put your two lips on

My sex organ so

How am I to feel about this. 

And you still toy with me

Yet I play the game

How am I to feel about this. 

You enjoy this fantasy 

A missed chance dangling his piece for you

Or am I now just a forgotten chance to score ?

How does it feel to be so enamored. 

There was a time

In 1999

You could have been mine

You’re loved up and I’m damaged

Maybe in another life , another time

How do I look in your dreams

Was I everything you wet dreamed of

Am I the one you would reject everything for 

How does it feel to be so enamored. 

Carry With Me

 

What y’all don’t know about me

You see me as sweet and kind

But I have an acid tongue

And a bitter heart

I’m not afraid to rip you apart.

I’m kind and gentle to a point

And then I’m ready to say

Fuck you

And the world 

Every choice that you ever made

I carry with me now

Fuck that

And before

You question things that I said

I carry with me now

Look inside

Realize

Not fantasize 

Your memories are lies

With a broken nose and heart

I became a jaded bitch 

Immune to fools sympathy 

And all of their lies

I won’t be another clowns fool now

Once upon a time I could care

But not anymore because 

Fuck this

Kindness shit 

You killed that love when you lost me

I carry with me now

Fuck me

For that kiss

That’s something you will never see 

I carry with me now

Look inside

Realize

Not fantasize 

Your memories are lies

Despite all of my tries

I can not rise

Recognize 

What’s inside. 

There was a time when I loved you

Not now or ever again 

Fuck it

You’re a waste

Not worthy of anything else 

I carry with me now 

Fuck lies

Your many

Attempts to manipulate me

I carry with me now 

Look inside

Realize

Not fantasize 

Your memories are lies

Despite all of my tries

I can not rise

Recognize 

What’s inside. 

I’m Listening

 Despite the white noise

The static

And all the background noise

I hear you

Despite the distraction

The lie

And all the deflection

I hear you. 

Tell me friend 

What’s your truth

How’ve you be hurt

And what can I do

I’m listening

Despite rhetoric. 

Foolishness 

Words they will soon regret 

Ignorance 

And a moment of peace. 

A lie

It could be reflection. 

I see you

Tell me foe

What’s the truth

Why you still hurt 

And what can I do

I’m listening. 

Despite all your lies

Craziness 

Words they’d soon forget

Ignorance 

Can I just release it all

The lie 

Despite all my rejection 

I see you. 

But who are we

(Black white latin asian and African)

But everything. 

I’m here to be everything to the great

So who are we

(Gay bi Homo trans undecided)

But everything. 

I’m here to everything to the great 

In spite of your white lies

Colonist 

Ideas that we’d forget. 

Here we are. 

I’m listening

(Silence)

Shine Shine Shine

You weren’t here

You didn’t see

The light in the sky

But I did

Am I worthy of something

In the light I shine 

In the lies I shine 

I’m here to shine despite you. 

What you fear

Is coming near 

Me rebuking you

And I did 

So I’m taking this victory

In the light I shine 

In the lies I shine 

I’m here to shine despite you. 

You’re dumb.   

A dog laying out of his bed

I’m better than you 

I’m so sorry

You are simple 

Your ignorance is self evident. 

So I did

Call you out on foolish yourself

In the light I shine 

In the lies I shine 

I’m here to shine despite you. 

Enjoy Oxygen

 

I’d write a song

Maybe another time 

You’re not worth it. 

You’re unworthy 

This experience is bullshit

A reflection of my failures

As a man

I couldn’t just say no

But here we are face to face 

I’d murder you if it weren’t a crime. 

But it is so I won’t

Enjoy oxygen 

A bitterness grows

As hate for you flows. 

You have no idea

How I dream of ruining you. 

I’m the good guy

Despite what lies you’ve heard

When you say why

I tune you out

I’m tired of being the villain 

When none of this is my fault but still

With my ego

A raised nose will get hit 

But here we are face to face 

I’d murder you if it weren’t a crime. 

But it is so I won’t

Enjoy oxygen 

You don’t  deserve kindness

Despite tenderness. 

I would see you dead 

Such a fitting end just for you 

But here we are face to face 

I’d murder you if it weren’t a crime. 

But it is so I won’t

Enjoy oxygen 

Breathe, breathe

In my head

You’re already dead

Breathe, breathe 

As for me

You’ve just lost your head.