electric forest

The monster in my mind, won't let me go It has let me be defined, just let me go It tells me all these lies that I believe Catching me by surprise, when I don't see I’m charged up in an electric forest Lost without direction But to excited to care I should trust you but I can’t I’m sorry, I’m sorry I made up all these lies, to destruct me And to destroy us too, I was blind I followed the insanity for what Only chaos that will make me insane I’m charged up in an electric forest Excited by the spark With no map to set me free I should trust you my mistake I’m sorry, I’m sorry I made my mistake Now I’ll follow you blindly Don’t lead me wrong, don’t lead me wrong…

I’m looking for a little therapy So my heart will get over you Maybe throwing out your things Will make me forget the pain I’ve been receiving lots of empathy But no one knows this shade of blue So much for these wedding rings Now I’ll never feel the same Cleaning the house you left behind Doesn’t make me miss you any less You’re gone, you’re gone You’re gone, you’re gone I should be moving on but I’m not Your smell still lingers in our room There’s nothing I can do here To erase these memories So you killed my heart with just one shot A broken heart left to consume Tears cried since you disappeared Nothing left but memories Cleaning the house you left behind Doesn’t make me miss you less You’re gone, you’re gone You’re gone, you’re gone

I don’t connect with my family I came along a little too late I don’t connect with your friends I guess we just don’t relate Am I better off alone, better off dead As I wonder through life by myself I question everything Why don’t I fit in Why don’t I belong Why don’t I connect With anyone It’s only you who will see me through But I feel it’s something you regret You always have more fun without me I guess we just don’t relate I just feel like I’m hollow, like I’m dead As I wonder through life by myself I question everything Why don’t I fit in Why don’t I belong Why don’t I connect With anyone Where’s the puzzle I belong to Or am I a miss-matched piece Why don’t I enjoy life Why don’t I feel it Why don’t I connect With anyone

Should I be scared, be afraid Of someone I only know by name You say he’s a friend from way back when But you only speak to him when I’m away Is it my fear, of theft That someone will just steal you away That has me now on the verge of tears Or my guilty conscience from my past mistakes I’m a coward, I’m afraid To confront you with my fears I’m a coward, I’m afraid To tell you about my tears If he’s nothing, just a friend Then don’t be afraid to speak his name I’m not insecure enough to scream With rage unless there’s something else you won’t say I’ve told you once, told you twice Your honest is all that I need So why do I feel I need to find The things that you always say are never there I’m a coward, I’m afraid To confront you with my fears I’m a coward, I’m afraid To tell you about my tears You just say no, don’t worry It’s all in my head I’m just crazy I want to believe you to trust you Why won’t I listen I should just believe you

Just because you don’t tell me Doesn’t mean I don’t know I’m not too blind not to see The things you think I shouldn’t know You won’t break my heart like that I won’t be a victim I won’t be your fall back on I won’t sit at home while you don’t I’m not as dumb as you think I am Don’t play me for the fool you’ll make yourself You think you’re slick, but you’re not You’re a slimy lying cheat Leave me here with love to rot While you’re trying to be discrete My heart won't break for you now It's too numb to care so Feel free to fuck around When you come back I will be gone I’m not as dumb as you think I am Don’t play me for the fool you’ll make yourself What do you tell everyone? Who am I in your world? Why do you play like we’re done? I refuse to be your dumb fool I’m not as dumb as you think I am Don’t play me for the fool you’ll make yourself