electric forest

Once we were cool We didn’t care, we were in love Now I’m hearing you aren’t the same When I’m not around I read your face I know you well, I feel it too You’re playing games with my head Cause you know I know What are you hiding What don’t you want me to know What are you hiding Is it time for me to go I’m tired of trying to figure you out Freaking out when you’re avoiding me What are you hiding What don’t you want me to know Once we were fine I got over it, I learned to deal You got sloppy and it went wrong We’re back in this game You shut me out The resentment, and the fear grows I find myself wondering are you Worth it any more What are you hiding What don’t you want me to know What are you hiding Is it time for me to go I’m tired of trying to figure you out Freaking out when you’re avoiding me What are you hiding What don’t you want me to know

You came to me And I told you too much I thought you were a friend I didn’t see what you had planned You held me close And made me believe lies Destructed everything I knew so you could have your way Shame on you For playing on my insecurities You knew every word to say To make me feel the way you wanted me to Shame on me For telling you my insecurities I gave you every tool you’d need To break me down and take advantage of me I had someone Who loved me despite my faults You used that against me Turning my fears against that love So shame on you And I guess so shame on me I let you in and you Committed the crime against my heart Shame on you For playing on my insecurities You knew every word to say To make me feel the way you wanted me to Shame on me For telling you my insecurities I gave you every tool you’d need To break me down and take advantage of me Your selfish plan You only cared for yourself You didn’t care about anyone else I hope you enjoy your time alone I walked awa...

So this is loneliness Sitting here in the dark Why am I playing this part? So this is loneliness Don’t you know I’m lonely? Can’t you hear me, I’m lonely Sitting here with my computer And an empty bottle of Russian gasoline My feelings roll over me like thunder More intense with every thought Would anyone miss me if I were gone Or would time pass by and carry on My thoughts become my own worst enemy When I’m alone they need to be a friend So this is loneliness Sitting here in the dark Why am I playing this part? So this is loneliness Don’t you know I’m lonely? Can’t you hear me, I’m lonely Those words you said to me that day Still burn every thought that’s in my head If your intention then was to hurt me You don’t know how much you’ve won I sit alone with my thoughts every night They’re still there when I turn on the light Nobody could ever say anything That could take this feeling away from me So this is loneliness Sitting here in the dark Why am I playing this part? So this is ...

When you’re sad and lonely I’ll see the first tear fall And when you call for help I’ll be the first to hear it And when you’re getting colder I’ll be there to keep you warm As long as you hold me When I’m there like you And I will prove my love for you Honest and always true And I’ll do whatever it takes To make you see the truth I’ll run anywhere for you I’ll go anywhere for you When you’re lost and weary I’ll walk along with you And when you slip and fall I’ll give you a hand to hold I will throw down a life line As long as you love me When I’m there like you And I can prove my love for you Honest and always true And I’ll do whatever it takes To make you see the truth I’ll run anywhere for you I’ll go anywhere for you To a far away land The farthest place away To the bottom of the ocean Or near the sky I’ll follow you anywhere That you life may take you You only need to confirm That you love me too I’ll run anywhere for you I’ll go anywhere ...

You didn’t think before you spoke Opened your mouth to find your foot Whatever you wanted to achieve Has now backfired back in your face So you expected me to choke Turn to run and then flee on foot I guess you’re really that naive But I’m ready now just in case I didn’t want to start this fight But when I’ve been attacked We’ll start this war I shouldn’t have defended you But I did now you’re fighting me Now you see I’m not here alone So I guess we’ve caught you off guard This isn’t what you’d want for you Even now you’re too blind to see Everything you have will be gone Leaving you without a regard I didn’t want to start this fight But when I’ve been attacked We’ll start this war You’re wanna fight with me in sight But when I’ve been attacked We’ll start this war I took you in when you were weak Gave you everything without thought Now you’re after me for a crime I did my time without a cry You have something to say so speak You’re game is up...

I thought we had an understanding Trust and honesty Guess I had the misunderstanding Can we still have our little secrets? We have been to hell and back again Equally guilty And now I feel the same way again Did you understand our mistakes? Why do you feel you have to lie to me? I’ve known you long enough to see the signs Why do you feel you have to lie to me? No one knows but I read between the lines Don’t lie to me, don’t lie to me Don’t lie to me, don’t lie to me You say it’s the one thing you won’t deal With is a liar So is that thing just a one way deal Where was I when that was agreed? I’ve committed my own crimes to you Feeling this way But I’ve learned my lesson and promised you I wouldn’t go that path again! Why do you feel you have to lie to me? You know I’m not blissfully unaware Why do you feel you have to lie to me? Is what I’m asking for really that rare? Do you believe what you don’t say won’t hurt me? Did you think that deleting your history undoes your crime? Y...

I use to post my lyrics and poems on Facebook, but since certain people are highly annoyed by me sharing these...and I quote "Stop writing pity party letters ....stop posting whiney ass shit." Writing has always been therapeutic for me, and has often help me stop saying things to people that could ruin peoples lives, so people should be grateful I use this outlet instead of taking things out on them. When I write, it starts from a personal experience, but as the process develops it moves from autobiographical to biographical.    The emotion that sparks the creativity only begins the process and I have to draw from the stories and experiences of others to finish the process. I chose to title this blog "electric forest" because I wanted to represent the part of all of us that is organic and the part of us that is synthetic.  We ourselves are from nature but many of our influences are man made or man inflicted.  With that theory all of my words come from my own ...