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On the couch of my best friends house  I question my life until now  Why am I here and who am I with I’m basically pre selling damaged goods I don’t know how But I’ve weathered the storm Here I stand face to face I’m still here despite it all.  I  愛  I  And what if it’ll I  愛  I  I’m still worth it I  愛  I  I’d love a chance I  愛  I  Fuck a last dance  Believing my friends are my friends It’s bitter when that’s not true dear But why should I disassociate When you truly hold me dear what’s to fear  What is love, babe But a lie we sell so  That we can seem simple No matter I’m not the one  I  愛  I  And what if it I  愛  I  I’m still worth it I  愛  I  I’d love a chance I  愛  I  Fuck a last dance  What I could do If I cared enough  Loved enough  Was enough  Enough Am I Am I enough An I enough for love I  愛  I...

  I don’t know what to say anymore Every word rumbles in my brain.  What is this who are we  Why can’t I be  Me  Thats all I want to be Me I just don’t understand  Me So give me time to see Me It’s a joke how I choked Trying to be coupled  I wanted to be everything  To someone that doesn’t exist  What about love above and below The best and the worst  The son and moon What is real The truth  I don’t know what to say anymore  This comprehension is numbing  In the light and the dark  Why can’t I be  Me  Thats all I want to be Me I just don’t understand  Me So give me time to see Me I’d hold you close again  Emoting is funny  When you have detached from everything.  Dear, just what is this pretext  Who are we right here right now but pure  Nothing all that I love and what  Is this pain My life  What is this feeling I have  I’m numb to everything beyond me  For B...

  Queer As Fuck I once wanted to settle into the background But life said that wasn’t meant for me All I wanted was to feel comfort and be safe Is it fare that who am I am determines that  It’s careless to be Free and open To love myself And everything that comes I don’t care any more If you don’t know by now I’m queer as fuck I don’t know how to be Any way but this  I’m not sorry if this disrupts your day to day  I live for myself because no one else will try To be the man unafraid of love With a man in every way I’d ever dare to  Bare myself for without a hesitation  It’s my truth my time And it’s alright  That I’m “this way” Because none of its wrong  I don’t care any more If you don’t know by now I’m queer as fuck I don’t know how to be Any way but this  I’m not sorry if this disrupts your day to day  I don’t care, don’t care anymore About how you feel about me Because I’m better off Without hatred and bigotry    So I live...

  White Noise In the static I find myself In the white noise  Being nothing  In nothing  Is where I am Who am I  Beyond silent  Just no one  I’ve nothing to say But I have to speak As a colonizer  Im sorry  I wasn’t the one But there you are  And here I stand  It’s all wrong  Am I wrong  My friend? It’s the truth At the end I wish it Wasn’t so But it is So why lie Don’t try It’s enough.  In the static I find myself In the white noise  Being nothing  In nothing  Is where I am Who am I  Beyond silent  Just no one  Find a space too close  And just find comfort Of being the Villain I live with  The shame of it all I can’t show it But here we are  It’s not right  What is love And hate At the start  I want more What is lust Without love Pure desire In the night  It’s the best For us It’s enough  In the static I find myself In the white noise  Being nothin...

Take I’m socially awkward  Trying to figure life out I surrender to myself Because I’m not enough  I give myself up freely I’ll be yours as long as you’ll be mine I need validation from you  But about me  I’ll give until I almost break Bending under the weight Like a bamboo stalk All you can do is Take take take  竹 Take all of me  Feel all of me  Have all of me  Let me wait to see But I’m not this forward  What is this stuff all about  I don’t understand self  As I’m lonely it’s rough  And what is all this really  I try to calm down and I’ll be fine  I share way too much that is true  Yet about me I’ll give until I almost break Bending under the weight Like a bamboo stalk All you can do is Take take take  竹 Take all of me  Feel all of me  Have all of me  Let me wait to see I don’t want to be alone Take me in Take me however And anyway  Let me live And take me  Away Okay? I’ll give un...

  Touch me come close Make me feel something  I’m so tired of feeling  Empty craving anything  I forgot what it feels like  To be touched  To be intimate Just like everyone else does  All I want to do is feel And not be numb I’m not dumb Is this wrong.  Give me feeling  Make me feel alive  As I want to be here  Without all the loveless fear  I’m just trying to live life  To be with you  And inside of you  A lustful desire but All I want to do is feel And not be numb I’m not dumb Is this wrong.  Put your hand on my thigh Let my eyes rise  Don’t play cute When you’re smart  Playing it cute  When now all  All I want to do is feel And not be numb I’m not dumb Is this wrong.  I’m just trying to live life  To be with you  And inside of you  A lustful desire but I forgot what it feels like  To be touched  To be intimate Just like everyone else does 

  All I’ll Ever Be You don’t know nor can you understand My pain, it’s full of bitterness and shame  I want to say I love you too But I can’t when you won’t  love me true  Here I am full of confusion  Nothings changed since 1999 Where do I lay my head down Who can I trust and why should I Ever believe the words you say.  In the eclipse that is a revelation In my nightmares and in my dreams I am me and that’s all I’ll ever be In the fantasy versus reality  Despite the terrors in my mind  I am me and that’s all I’ll ever be.  I’ll be more than you can comprehend.  Your brain is to small to absorb all this  I want to become one with you It doesn’t matter when we play fools.  I’m conflicted with emotions  I know I was born in 84 Beyond that I don’t know much  Like why should you be here right now Since you’re toxic to me baby  In the eclipse that is a revelation In my nightmares and in my dreams I am me and that’s al...

  Behind the Shadows Be your best Don’t fuck it up Was all I ever was told But like life Cosmically laughed And I did everything wrong  I tried To live right  Not to screw up And stand up right  But you don’t You don’t  Know.   What’s behind the shadows  The truth in the lies  Joy that lead to tears And how it burns how it hurts  Walk the line Just don’t stumble  I won’t be saved on my face  Luckily  I got chances More than I ever deserved  I want To say that I’m sorry for My everything  But you don’t You don’t  Know.   What’s behind the shadows  The truth in the lies  Joy that lead to tears And how it burns how it hurts  One day In another time  I’ll shed this skin And let the world in But I can’t do it today  I’d hurt more than I’d heal Myself, the truth isn’t worth that  This isn’t show and tell You can always guess All you want  But you don’t You don’t  K...