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After all this time I don’t need to find anyone I’m trying to find me After years of searching I’ve realized  I’ll always crave more than anyone can give me Now that I have this knowledge What will I do with my life.  Maybe someone out there is worthy But I doubt it There could be someone I could marry  But I doubt it All the guys before could be bad luck But I doubt it Maybe my love life isn’t in a rut  But I doubt it I gave love faith That it’s truth one day would find me But now I don’t believe.  That “the one” could exist for anyone  From now on I won’t forsake myself for that lie I would rather die alone What will I do with my life  Maybe someone out there is worthy But I doubt it There could be someone I could marry  But I doubt it All the guys before could be bad luck But I doubt it Maybe my love life isn’t in a rut  But I doubt it Everything you’re told about lov...

You spent so many years trying to get in my pants And soon after I did finally let you in I found out you were a huge waste of time Let me tell you the story about a man Who coveted what wasn’t his Always in my inbox when I was with someone else I shamefully entertained his dalliances Because I didn’t know better then  He claims to be a religious man I hope he prays for forgiveness For all the wrongs he gave me I’m sure I’m not the only one  You were quick to place your bet And as a fool I let you sit  At the table that could make you able  You set me up so you’re set  Enough to feed your needy get I gave you permission to be able.  You didn’t belong here  You never did I was a fool to let you in.  After all those years and recent months I caught feelings  Then you said that you couldn’t do the same for me No wonder at your age your still alone  I should have known from the sta...

I’m here at the precipice Should I take a nose dive Or slowly scale myself down I’m cautiously waiting for your next move I’m waiting for evidence This choice could be my life Or could be my final sound  I’m still anticipating your next move  At this point in my life I Dance the dance  I follow your every move but I won’t proceed Unless you make the next move I’ll give you the option to envelop But I’ve been burnt too many times to let you in  Unless you make the next move. You present a good option Without saying a word  I question my own thoughts now.  I’m cautiously waiting for your next move So what is your opinion On lusting and then on love  And does it make you ask how.  I’m still anticipating your next move At this point in my life I Dance the dance  I follow your every move but I won’t proceed Unless you make the next move I’ll give you the option to envelop But I...

I’m building an empire For myself to enjoy And if my success can inspire You can bask in my joy No ones going to do it for me I’ve got to make it on my own No more waiting on a prince to rescue me I’ve always been here all on my own Time to buck up and let you see I’m not trapped in my past I’m finally free I’m building an empire For no one else but me With no room there for a liar Where it’s all about me. I’m setting out on an unknown journey I will conquer and dominate My own destiny. It’s in the here and now I take it The thing that I always gave up My life is mine to make great as I see fit And You’re not involve to fuck it up If I fail I’ll have to own it But I won’t, I don’t even need any kind of luck I’m building an empire Only because I can And if it sets the world on fire Its a fire that I’ll flame

I live in an insular world Alone with my thoughts and feelings But what I feel can’t be owned There has to be more out there like me\ I’m trying to seek things that just don’t exist I’m beyond my feelings at this point. I wish I could emote my feelings beyond a high school level But with hormones I think that’s sadly were peaked. Or maybe we all still live on that excessive hormonal level Or I wish we did or maybe I still do. I’m still begging for some feeling I don’t know exists anymore. My vocabulary lacks The words that can express how I feel You have no idea what goes on in my head And maybe soon I will go insane I wish I could emote my feelings beyond a high school level But with hormones I think that’s sadly were peaked. Or maybe we all still live on that excessive hormonal level Or I wish we did or maybe I still do. I’m hyper emotional Or either your emotionally dead I don’t have the time, energy or want to find out ...

I want more than this life I’m living can give Even despite all that I want to live. There has to be something more out there Than this mediocrity I’ve found so fair. I won’t settle. Won’t give up Even if every choice is a failure I’ll take it to peruse my happiness. I’m ready to rewrite my destiny Rejecting risk of apathy To my own life. This seems right. I’m ready to rewrite my destiny Not giving up on fantasy And all my dreams. This seems right. I’m trying to break free of the trappings of All of my past mistakes and misplaced love I’m still haunted by that hurt and pain But there has to be something out there to gain I won’t let go. Or give in To the negativity in my life. I’ll be positive and still not think twice I’m ready to rewrite my destiny And I don’t need your empathy. My will is strong. I’ll be alright. I’m ready to rewrite my destiny All I want now is ecstasy. Love is my drug. It’s in sight. To the all the men in my life The failures, chea...