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Kuso no Genso. 糞の幻想

  Shit Illusions   It was gone and here it is again Everything we knew it would be The good bad and ugly Shared its face and I see it Kuso < 糞 > It rises  Bitterness and lies So Fuck It comes Once upon your lies  A prince, a king and a commoner All share the same fate A Dad, a mom and their first offspring All share the same fate Death The final The eternal Goodbye What was then is no longer now And here we are pretending  That our truth and honesty Will find a mirror and see Genso    < 幻想 > They are Full of the bullshit God damn This is  Goodbye And fuck all of this shit A prince, a king and a commoner All share the same fate A Dad, a mom and their first offspring All share the same fate You don’t know He doesn’t, she doesn’t  They don’t know I don’t, they don’t  A prince, a king and a commoner All share the same fate A Dad, a mom and their first offspring All share the same fate

Good to Cry

  Sometimes it’s good to cry For the past that happened And the future yet to come  Sometimes it’s good to cry  About things in the past  And what could be tomorrow.  Have you ever mourned A loved one Laying in an urn or casket It burns your soul Way Beyond recognition.  He was the grounding In my elastic life Then gone done Goodbye  We cry because we weren’t worthy And he’s dust In his wanted resting place.  Sometimes it’s good to cry For the past that happened And the future yet to come  Sometimes it’s good to cry  About things in the past  And what could be tomorrow.  What is emotion.  Is it done? Can I ask someone who’s greater  What is your goal  Emotional destruction.  She’s my very soul The wind within my sail Once I cry Goodbye Only she is worthy of this  Now she’s gone I don’t know what to do now Sometimes it’s good to cry For the past that happened And the future yet to come  Sometimes it...

Warning Signs

Where did I go wrong  Where did I go right When did I make a move that was right Where did I mistake love Where did I give up When did I make a move that was right Yield  Watch your move It could crash  Who was that  Stop And observe  A whiplash Who was that  Here and then and you’re gone A phantom a fantasy A liar to my truth The signs all say Caution caution  Hashtags warning signs  Where did I go wrong  Where did I go right When did I make a move that was right Where did I mistake love Where did I give up When did I make a move that was right Merge Into me  Despite sight  You are mine Left Is the exit  If you want In this time Once upon a time but They are    lies we tell ourselves  Just like we all do so My soul still says  Caution caution Hashtag    warning signs Where did I go wrong  Where did I go right When did I make a move that was right Where did I mistake love Where did I give up W...

Being

You’re only 21 just once and then you’re 35 And you question what did you do with your life  It’s not enough to be me now  You’re full of lies and fantasies  You can dance dance drop a beat  But you’re still here  Being ignorant Taking a ride without a cover. Right now... All I want is to be... Being  You find yourself and realized that was a grave mistake  Then regret each step that you ever make  Ignore the sweat that’s on my brow Dreaming of our intimacies.  I can still be... be... someone  To hold you dear Being so loving  Accepting you without no other  Right now... All I want is to be... Being  In this moment  Despite the noise I just want to be...   being (with you) In the silence So here we are I just want to be.... Being (with you) Right now... All I want is to be... Being 

SEASON (weathering changes)

In this season The leaves fall The many colors How beauty disintegrates Yet here we are You and I  Weathering changes We don’t yet know.  There’s no sound No birds singing The sky is pink Is that snow? In this season It all dies The ice forms and cracks Below the unfortunates Yet here we are You and I Weathering changes We don’t yet know In the thaw now What is that I see This greenery Is that rain? In this season All is born Becoming the things We could only ever dream  Yet here we are You and I Weathering changes We don’t yet know Daylight is gone One day we could be  More than basic themes  The art behind what it seems

In The Here And Now

  In this space  No one else exists  Just me and my self Nothing else matters.  I’ve lived for you Gave up everything  That was foolish I’ve loved just you While I was so wrong  But now I see In the here and now We are all solitary  There’s no you No me or us It’s only me  In the here and now In this space  No one else exists  Just me and my self Nothing else matters.  You lied to me About everything I was childish You played a game Now that moments gone And now I see In the here and now.  I am here empty handed I’m alone No one else here And I’m okay In the here and now In this space  No one else exists  Just me and my self Nothing else matters.  You were just another pawn In what is the chessboard of life At the moment you meant something  Then we awoke in the Dawn  A lingering dream of your strife And then all your words mean nothing In the here and now Love, It’s all momentary  It’s a lie We al...

5 Steps

  You walk around like you know what we’re talking about You’ve no idea as it’s so much higher than you  Foolish foolish foolishness.  I tried to be your friend But you drag up fantasy.  We were friends But never again  You tried so hard To ruin my life But I’m not dumb I’m 5 steps ahead of a sociopath Maybe it takes one to know one Or the spawn of one to pretend  You slide in my DMs like you should be there now You don’t have any idea how wrong this all is.  Empty empty emptiness  I was once your best friend  But you still live in a dream We were friends But never again  You tried so hard To ruin my life But I’m not dumb I’m 5 steps ahead of a sociopath Maybe it takes one to know one Or the spawn of one to pretend  Walk on by I don’t see your face  Your pain and regret isn’t mine  I refuse  We were friends But never again  You tried so hard To ruin my life But I’m not dumb I’m 5 steps ahead of a sociopath Maybe ...

Asshole/21

  I’m not the asshole they say I am Nor the asshole you’d expect with my ex I am an asshole but of my own light  The lovely asshole you’ve never met.  I’m here Radiating In the light  Of the past I fear Imagining  In your mind  Will not find The truth.    What’s the truth? We’ve come and gone so long Just rest stops in this journey  What’s this, mistaken kiss So is it right or is it wrong  Where does this become funny.  I’m not young or dumb or full of.... Not am I twenty one  I’m woke to things I wasn’t when... I was just twenty one I’m not the asshole they say I am Nor the asshole you’d expect with my ex I am an asshole but of my own light  The lovely asshole you’ve never met.  I’m now Illustrious  All despite  Righteousness  They bow To all of us But despite Your emptiness.  This point,    what’s the point? Why do we play these games  When we know each other’s self Right now, wher...

Monochrome

  What is brightness In the darkness A rainbow that doesn’t know What it’s worth.  And neither did I When I fell in love with you But now I see...... In a world of vibrant color You’re monochrome  With tastes of varied flavor  Monochrome  With a choice of so many tones You’re monochrome  And I’m numb to what has gone Monochrome  He doesn’t know She will not show A universe looking on For a truth And neither did I When I fell In love with you  But now I see...... In a world of vibrant color You’re monochrome  With tastes of varied flavor  Monochrome  With a choice of so many tones You’re monochrome  And I’m numb to what has gone Monochrome  This ignorance  That emptiness  A child will always love all It’s simple Until he learns Despite his yearns Hatred his parents still bare And triple  You say you’re color blind Correct sir, if it ain’t white it ain’t right, ain’t that what you said.   You’d take ...

Oh DJ

I want to touch you  But I’m timid No matter how much you’re pulsing.  I could one day be A lover  But I’m scared of myself right now Despite reality I want fantasy You and I  And nothing else.  I’m dreaming.    You and I could be A fantasy DJ play the songs  That make me want to bump and grind With someone who won’t ever be mine.  I want to kiss you  But I’m afraid You’ll reject me yet you’re coming.  I could be your life Forever  You won’t open yourself up these days  Despite my candid lust What can I just trust.  Than my heart Twisted beat I’m living You and I could be  A reality.   DJ play the songs  That make me want to bump and grind With someone who won’t ever be mine.  Oh DJ You don’t know This song is about you And how I lust for you Am I wrong  Oh DJ DJ play the songs  That make me want to bump and grind With someone who won’t ever be mine.