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Give me a moment I need a breath to process All the bull shit happening around me It’s so hard to focus With this I should vent The horrors should I digress.  We seem happy but we could never be.  The boys and girls  Every color Being happy Being friends Where did it end Coming of age Dumbing of minds Breaking the hearts Of those who need it most.   Let me be with myself So I can understand this  The bullshit that has now surrounded us  It’s so hard to focus  I don’t understand  Despite my best efforts to All this hatred and everyone thats lost Non binary  And binary.  Being happy  With our friends  When did it end Coming of age Dumbing of minds Breaking the hearts Of those who need it most.   Now everyone  Is now someone  If I can dream it  Surely it can exist  Coming of age Dumbing of minds Breaking...

This feeling is liquid It ebbs and flows To somewhere no one knows  It’s all but a trickle  Despite some feeling  That is still reeling.  You come and go Like the chance of a  Summer thunderstorm Rain falls Sins should wash away But the truth remains Cascades Things you should say  Despite the refrains And drip drip....    Nothing  Fuck your stupid Cupid  He’s far sighted  And I am enlightened.  I won’t be secluded But I won’t waste A chance for some good taste  I’m here and now Like the chance of a Summer thunderstorm  Rain falls Sins should wash away But the truth remains Cascades Things you should say  Despite the refrains And drip drip....    Nothing  Silence  The cicadas start to sing (and) I’m here and now Just the once Wedding bells start to ring (but) You come and go  Rain falls...

I’m done with all of you And your toxicity Trying to encourage negativity  Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa I’m moving on Goodbye  It’s a bitter twisted reality That we lived for a time You and I But it’s over  We lived in a blissful wrong fantasy But it was all a lie.  You and I  Lived forever.  Now and then and here and now It is what it is, it is what it was I’m done with all of you And your toxicity Trying to encourage negativity  Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa I’m moving on Goodbye  Im closer to sane and closer to me  But memories remain.  You and I But it’s over.  Now and then and here and now It is what it is, it is what it was I’m done with all of you And your toxicity Trying to encourage negativity  Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa I’m moving on Goodbye  Despite the love hate and regret that can be We will say in refrain...

Every day I rise Is a day I won’t Every sunrise Is a sunset Everything that is now One day will be gone Despite ever morning Night always comes  The here and now Ebbs and flows  We are simple creatures With advance thinking  What’s just and true I can choose What I want to do now Despite description  Here we all are Individuals Free to be free to see Eternity.  Every day I rise Is a day I won’t Every sunrise Is a sunset Everything that is now One day will be gone Despite ever morning Night always comes  Pieces remain  Of my soul.  It still reaches out Looking for some love Is it too late  For myself  Overwhelmed with doubt  Just what can’t i prove  Hello again  I called you a friend Is you mind open to see Eternity. Every day I rise Is a day I won’t Every sunrise Is a sunset Everything that is now One day will be gone ...

I’m ready to crack it open Shatter it all close your eyes  This is going to hurt  For all involved  You’re a bitter relic of truth despite your reality It’s a lie Like all those you told me.   Damage damage damage  When you look at me And you think of me I’m the only... Only one who would deal with you Here I am to break you.   Despite you  In spite of you.   I’m stealing dealing in a hope In You despite all of these lies.  Do you feel it yet The anguish here  Damage damage damage When you look at me And you think of me I’m the only... Only one who would deal with you Damage damage damage  Feel it All of it This isn’t a pardon Despite what we will become now Living in truth that despises lies. So what else is my worth.  Anyone that cares right now. When you look at me And you think of me I’m the only... Only one who wo...

Hear me now  I scream it loud  Here I am And I’m Not going anywhere Despite you  And your false illusions That you sold everyone I’ll win them all over You told fantastic lies Ill spend a lifetime overcoming.  But I will Because if you forgot, I’m always right.  When it comes to you.   Called you damaged Claimed you saved Cared way too much  Carried you To the grave To the choir To the judge... And jury.  Hear me now  I scream it loud  Here I am And I’m Not going anywhere 13 years  But here we are talking About past transgressions  Like any one cares.  It’s    a shame we don’t care  Despite your attempts of eternity  I will be Your one antithesis,    fooling fools.  When it comes to you.   Called you damaged Claimed you saved Cared way too much  Carried you To the grave ...

You accept this I reject it I’m not here yet to bicker But here we are You and I Talking about love It won’t last The last man couldn’t Why should you  Prove me wrong For us.    Whoever we are Despite me being worst  Not you but now I shall burn the world down  For us.     Whoever We are.  Between these words And you and I  I will burn the world down But here we are All of us Preaching of love The last cast The one who Wouldn’t.  Bound by one Who would never.  For us.    Whoever we are Despite me being worst  Not you but now I shall burn the world down  For us.     Whoever We are.  You’re a dream A fantasy Could be reality You’re a scream My intimacy  Could be reality  What a blast The one who shouldn’t  Accept it Despite it all.  It’s love Despite it all It’s love....

The feeling of doom The unending shame The tears I cry and I don’t know why Good bye Twisted bitterness along with this Emptiness.  I don’t know why I feel this way Maligned alignment. Along with this  Bitterness  I don’t want accept I feel this way.  Back up and rewind  Is there someone out there who knows the old me Someone who can defend my jaded heart.  If now one can it’s okay This battle is mine  And I’ve tried all I can  The feeling of doom The unending shame The tears I cry and I don’t know why Good bye Absolute emptiness calls out so  Embrace it  This is who and what I am Dissolute with hope and with a chance To believe it You could be more than your name  But yet I’m cursed still  Can’t my positivity break everything.  Someone who can defend my humanity.  If no one can it’s alright I’m am by myself  And I’ve done all I can...

Empty Heart  Empty heart An empty home The echo is always  Solitude No one left No one to end The echo is always  Solitude.  You’d call it silence  But my mind makes enough noise In these private moments it screams  Makes me question everything basic to existence.  I wish reverence  But my head makes enough lies In these moments alone it seems  My life will be a short and fatal experience.  Despite the wake The funeral And grieving.  I’ll be in a personal hell, solitude.  Empty heart An empty home The echo is always  Solitude No one left No one to end The echo is always  Solitude.  You call it Monday  Yet it’s a day of mourning  Who was I to you and am I now If I was truly dead now what could you ever say.  Just a past birthday  That you all saw receding.  As the day withdrew and then was gone.  I’m fr...

Crime I grew up with bigots In my back yard Luckily only gay Or I would torch them if I was a witch They called us fagots  On my way home  Luckily for them I wasn’t a homicidal rapist.  Judgmental sociopaths  I’m not one of you.  From all of the bullshit Despite everything you worship.  Here we are you are  My love if a crime  A life as a crime My truth is a crime All this time A crime  But no, you’re wrong here On many things What they say Could make you burn eternally Can I still be clear Of false verbiage  I’m not bitter but I am a raging homosexual  Psychotic derelicts I’m not one of you.   From all of the bullshit Despite everything you worship.  Here we are you are  My love if a crime  A life as a crime My truth is a crime All this time A crime  In what my soul is right   In spite of your bless...

How soon is soon To give up on love How old is old To give love the shove.  I could ruin your marriage.   But you’re both whores beneath me.  Bitter and jaded and still wanting things I don’t have.       I’m refraining from Living in my own misery Despite the past That had a present I’m at peace with everything Living in my own misery  Things that won’t last He has his present I’m at peace with everything.  What is this now Letting go of anger  I won’t allow  This to go on forever.  We had something sacred but We fucked it up both of us  We could point out failures  Yet, I’m ready to release Living in my own misery Despite the past That had a present I’m at peace with everything Living in my own misery  Things that won’t last He has his present I’m at peace with everything.  You lived your sin I’ve confessed mine And despi...