You’re Always To Blame

Another drink 

Another sip

Where did I go wrong

I let the wine blind me

Inebriated mislead intentions. 

Is it my fault

My bad choices

That led me here

Or is it you

Your bad choices

That led us here 

At the end of the day

I’ll review everything 

And you’re always are to blame

Another truth

Another lie 

What did I do wrong

Did I let love blind me

Foolish delusions of what could be Love 

Is it my fault 

Our bad choices 

That left me here

 Or is it you

Your bad choices

That led us here. 

At the end of the day

I’ll review everything 

And you’re always are to blame

How does it feel

To be you.  

The inflictor of pain

You’ve hurt me more than you’ll ever know. 

It’s sad the one who inspired this will never know it

As he’s dead to me.  

Eight years of wasted time 

There are other things 

I could say but

Why beat you down

I’ve said enough 

You know that it’s

You, always you

At the end of the day

I’ll review everything 

And you’re always are to blame

Intended or

Not you tried to

Ruin me but

I still survive

Despite you and

Yet I still thrive. 

What Happened

I sit back and watch the news

I shouldn’t be surprised by any of this

But the alerts make me bristle

Is this chaos real life?

Why don’t you believe

An accuser

Do you relate with 

The one accused

Maybe you can’t see it in black and white

Because you only accept the white

Maybe you can’t understand right from wrong 

When did humanity go wrong 

What happened to compassion 

What happened to decorum 

What happened to so called peace

What happened to all of this

What point in this do we lose 

At what point did Hope take aim for us and miss

I tremble and fear a missile

Tweets that could end my life 

This is more than you

Are you’re blind

If you are wrong

You’re in a bind 

Maybe you can’t see it in black and white

Because you only accept the white

Maybe you can’t understand right from wrong 

When did humanity go wrong 

What happened to understanding 

What happened to being kind

What happened to peace and love 

What happened to happiness

Maybe you can’t see it in black and white

Because you only accept the white

Maybe you can’t understand right from wrong 

When did humanity go wrong 

Who? What? Why? How?

When did humanity go wrong?

Wasted Time

Shedding my skin

And every trace of you

If the scent of you lingered 

It has been discarded. 

I’m a bitter individual 

Because of you, all of you 

But I’m trying to be better

Yet I’m trying to be better

Collectively you haven’t a clue 

You just couldn’t have, could you

You are one of many mistakes 

And I’m done with all the regrets 

Finding myself despite of you

You are bringing nothing to me

Than wasted time

Stop wasting my time

No matter whatever you do 

Despite all of your lies I see

You wasted time

Stop that wasting my time. 

Stop stringing me along for nothing 

So just stop being selfish. 

What exactly are you getting 

From me and yet without giving 

This is all about you 

Do you know it?

Your aloofness annoys me

Finding myself despite of you

You are bringing nothing to me

Than wasted time

Stop wasting my time

No matter whatever you do 

Despite all of your lies I see

You wasted time

Stop that wasting my time

How I Feel

Conversation fails me

Face to face I don’t have enough to say

But give me pen and paper

And it all falls out. 

The “how could you”’s

The beautiful allegory

Expressions of my heart 

Self expressions 

The solid truth of my story

Why I’m hear for a start 

Put me in a room with you and words fail me

I can better say with this barrier

It doesn’t change how I feel, for you

I put my best foot forward so you can see

So now let these truths be forever more 

It doesn’t change how I feel, for you

I look at you and smile

If you knew the thunderstorm in my head

So give me pen and paper

To work it all out 

Insecurities 

They’re all tied to my fantasies

Everything out of reach

Insecurities 

All these missed opportunities 

A lesson the universe has yet left to teach 

It’s just verbiage uttered by a simple man

Yet my mouth cannot move to do the deed

So do you know how I feel, for you 

No matter how you feel this how I am 

I asking take my hand and take the lead

So do you know how I feel l, for you

Early days, missed opportunities 

The regret of that first kiss 

Mistakes, all the things we could change 

Is it too late to remiss 

Put me in a room with you and words fail me

I can better say with this barrier

It doesn’t change how I feel, for you

I put my best foot forward so you can see

So now let these truths be forever more 

It doesn’t change how I feel, for you

It’s just verbiage uttered by a simple man

Yet my mouth cannot move to do the deed

So do you know how I feel, for you 

No matter how you feel this how I am 

I asking take my hand and take the lead

So do you know how I feel l, for you

Better Than Your Today

Bitter, toxic, you’re wasted 

For anything that could mean anything 

Burnt, scorned, and then you’re deflated 

How does it feel to be demasculated. 

I find that people like you

Hate theirselves more than anyone else.

So check yourself before you talk trash about anyone else. 

Despite It all

Despite all of you

Tomorrow will be better

Than your today...  it will be okay

Reject, evil, bless your heart

How does it feel to be oh so hated 

You’re ignored, so then do you lash out 

Because you’re continually rejected 

People like you see nothing 

Wrong with theirselves, it’s everyone else

Check yourself before you say something rash, this is about yourself. 

Despite It all

Despite all of you

Tomorrow will be better

Than your today...  it will be okay

Are you okay with it all

Why you’re so jaded. 

You have to be jaded

To fall into this hateful trap. 

I could almost forgive you.

But almost is never good enough 

You need to stand up and then accept

That you’ve been wrong about this 

Despite It all

Despite all of you

Tomorrow will be better

Than your today...  it will be okay

When you come clean

And accept reality 

Everything will be okay. 

Seeking Peace

I’m seeking peace

In spite of me

Can someone release me from me

I’m a danger to myself

My own worse enemy

Self destructive tendencies 

I fight to keep at bay

Fault belongs to no one else

Negative energy

Unrealistic fantasies 

From everything I say...

To myself, I lie to myself

Such a shame I can’t be true

To myself, I lie to myself. 

I’m seeking peace

In spite of me

Can someone release me from me

I’m seeking peace

Only for me

Can someone release me from me 

I’m drowning in this falsehood

Always reaching out for help

There’s no hero there for me

When no one knows my need

Everyone thinks that I’m good

But I’m damaged by a pelt 

To my soul that you can’t see

Stories I’ll only read

Of myself, I tell of myself

Such a shame I won’t be true

To myself, I lie to myself. 

I’m seeking peace

In spite of me

Can someone release me from me

I’m seeking peace

Only for me

Can someone release me from me 

I’m seeking peace

Just to save me

Can someone release me from me

For myself, some peace for myself 

I just want it to be true. 

For myself, I lie to myself 

I’m seeking peace

In spite of me

Can someone release me from me

I’m seeking peace

Only for me

Can someone release me from me 

I’m seeking peace

Just to save me

Can someone release me from me

I’m seeking peace

Because of me 

Can someone release me from me

Someone save me

From myself

Release me

From me

“You” Are a Myth

I’m sick and tired of giving everything to “you”

From now own my choices will be in my best interest. 

Fuck “you” and what “you” stand for I’m ready to go

From now own my choices will be in my best interest. 

You... oh you

Weren’t worth my time

Yet I gave you all of it. 

Such a waste of my time 

Love...  this love. 

Faded away

Wilted without attention. 

So what have you to say 

Questions

You won’t respond to

Answers 

You refuse to say

I’m sick and tired of giving everything to “you”

From now own my choices will be in my best interest. 

Fuck “you” and what “you” stand for I’m ready to go

From now own my choices will be in my best interest. 

“You” are a myth

Something I’ll no longer risk

Kiss it off and say goodbye 

Us... yes us

What are we now

Rather us be nothing 

Than a fantasy lie 

Me... whoa me 

I’ll be okay

I was raised to be strong 

With tools to carry on

Tell me

The truth of all this

I’m here 

For no one but me. 

I’m sick and tired of giving everything to “you”

From now own my choices will be in my best interest. 

Fuck “you” and what “you” stand for I’m ready to go

From now own my choices will be in my best interest. 

I Want To Believe

I’m a pessimist at heart

I’m scared of the ending before it starts 

The past has always repeated 

Constant trends that I want to end 

Give me something more than this 

A happy ending that starts with a kiss 

Am I’m dreaming of fairytales 

And too jaded to believe them

Years and years of wanting 

I still want to believe 

In love

I want to believe 

In love 

I’m still waiting for some hope

Something else here that could still help me cope 

With a love yet to be fulfilled 

Emotions that I still endure

Fantasy I’ve never know 

I’m still waiting for someone that could show

Me that I could yet still be wrong 

That all my dreams are not yet gone

Years and years of wanting 

I still want to believe 

In love

I want to believe 

In love 

With every breeze I want to believe 

Give me a future I want to see

Years and years of wanting 

I still want to believe 

In love

I want to believe 

In love

The Only One Out There For Me

Do you have any clue

Any insight

In what makes me

No of course you don’t 

You could never know

Why I do what I do 

See my light 

See just what I see

It’s okay you won’t 

I would never show

And I’d never tell

Never sell out

My emotions for anyone anymore 

I’m guarded to a fault 

Accepted what I was taught 

I’m the only one out there for me

I’m so scared from the past

Don’t think anything could last 

I’m the only one out there for me 

The truth is I’m broken

Accepted 

It’s my story

I try to let go

But that is so hard 

A love that’s unspoken

Rejected 

Lack of glory

It’s all that I know

I’ve said way too much. 

And I’d never tell

Never sell out

My emotions for anyone anymore 

I’m guarded to a fault 

Accepted what I was taught 

I’m the only one out there for me

I’m so scared from the past

Don’t think anything could last 

I’m the only one out there for me 

A glimpse behind the curtain

A look inside my psyche

I’m scared you know that much

Am I damaged beyond repair? 

I’m guarded to a fault 

Accepted what I was taught 

I’m the only one out there for me

I’m so scared from the past

Don’t think anything could last 

I’m the only one out there for me