Cement

Moving forward and crashing into cement. 

Praying to a lord falling into the cement. 

Believing in love and finding the cement      

I gave it all and I’m here on the cement. 

A block 

An obstacle

Nothing a metaphorical jack hammer won’t fix

A pause

An illusion

That dreamers have when they want something better than this stitch 

Finding my feet

With every step

On the cement. 

Moving forward and crashing into cement. 

Praying to a lord falling into the cement. 

Believing in love and finding the cement      

I gave it all and I’m here on the cement. 

I’m stuck. 

With this idea 

Everything thing that you ever sold me is bullshit so

Hold on

These lies told

Are unforgiven and never forgotten  in these days

Moving forward and crashing into cement. 

Praying to a lord falling into the cement. 

Believing in love and finding the cement      

I gave it all and I’m here on the cement.

That’s What It’s Like When....

Worlds fall apart

Nothing remains the same

Memories fade away

Something becomes nothing. 

That’s what it’s like when I lost you

I’ve wanted to take my life a million times

Until time took yours

Watching the waves of tears and grief

I’d never want to willing inflict

There I was lost and barely a man

Wishing I had asked so many questions when I was able not like now

Yet here we are, I’m alive and you’re dead

Worlds fall apart

Nothing remains the same

Memories fade away

Something becomes nothing. 

That’s what it’s like when I lost you

And now a distance grows deep in our blood

Your family fades

Into corners of their own lives 

Until we’re strangers and ignore our past

Here I was trying to make you proud 

I wasn’t close but I was working on

Being the best me I could be

Yet here we are, still trying to make you proud

Worlds fall apart

Nothing remains the same

Memories fade away

Something becomes nothing. 

That’s what it’s like when I lost you

There’s a bitterness

When a son doesn’t hear his father say

He’s proud of him

When it’s not his fault 

Dementia took you before death could

What’s left for him

Worlds fall apart

Nothing remains the same

Memories fade away

Something becomes nothing. 

That’s what it’s like when I lost you

Nothing Else Matters

Nothing else matters

Than you and I

When the time is right

We will bathe in the light

Of truth, it’s only you. 

Until then, I’ll struggle 

To find you, the one 

Let me sing a song of hope

Let me say a prayer to you

That one day this fantasy

Will be true

Let me hope for better days

Let me wish belief in you 

That one day this fantasy

Will be true

What is this

Who are we 

An illusion 

That I would give anything for. 

Nothing else matters

Than you and I

When the time is right

We will bathe in the light

Of truth, it’s only you. 

Only then, I’ll find peace

Just with you, my love

Let me ask where are you now 

Let me know that you would be mine

That one day this fantasy

Will be mine

Let me become one with you

Let me understand what is you

That one day this fantasy 

Will be mine 

What’s the truth

In the lies 

An illusion

That I would give anything for

Nothing else matters

Than you and I

When the time is right

We will bathe in the light

Of truth, it’s only you. 

Only then, I’ll find peace

Just with you, my love

But who are are you

I do not know 

A fantasy I keep alive

In my head but

Nothing else matters

Than you and I

When the time is right

We will bathe in the light

Of truth, it’s only you. 

Only then, I’ll find peace

Just with you, my love

Drops

Drops

Beautiful ideas

Of happily ever after

But you’re a villain

Who only cares for yourself

So now what’s for real

Fading memories of laugher 

So you’re a villain 

I’m waking up, nothing left 

These lies

Drop in my life

Like they should be here

I say goodbye 

The truth is

We can still be happy every day

But then it comes

The pain drops

Here it is 

You’re a lie in every thing you say. 

And then it comes

The pain drops. 

And then we adjust

To the bullshit we got handed 

It is what it is

Screw the obligatory 

Why should I be first

I’m not someone who just landed 

You should Forget these fantasies 

These words 

Drop from my mouth

Just Like they should have 

I say hello 

The truth is

We can still be happy every day

But then it comes

The pain drops

Here it is 

You’re a lie in every thing you say. 

And then it comes

The pain drops. 

No matter how good it is

Yesterday and today

I’m waiting for bad news to drop

It always does

Everyone says

Don’t get your hope up. 

The truth is

We can still be happy every day

But then it comes

The pain drops

Here it is 

You’re a lie in every thing you say. 

And then it comes

The pain drops. 

Want Love

I want love

I’ve been abused and misused  

And I still want love

But do I want it from you

Are you worthy 

Are you worth my time

I don’t know and right now

I don’t care

It’s up to you now

To prove your worth 

I’m worn out from this shit

Don’t you dare

To feign the idea 

Of love

I see through it all

The lies and fantasies

Where do we cut it off

I want love

I’ve been abused and misused  

And I still want love

But do I want it from you

So i deserve 

Love from someone new

Just between me and you 

Fuck it all

Nothing is with it

Love is a lie

And so is our fate now

Don’t you dare 

To dream an idea

Of love

I see through it all

The lies and fantasies

Where do we cut it off

Toxicity. In the air

Rancid, love affairs 

Falling out of love

I want love

I’ve been abused and misused  

And I still want love

But do I want it from you 

I Won’t Give Up

I’m screaming for help

But you’re just scrolling through

I’m sorry my dilemma 

Isn’t worthy of your attention

How many ways can I say

Help me

Save me

Forgive me

Am I worthy

I’d rather die

Than to hear your response

Emotionally 

I’m at the bottom

Trying to climb up

Spiritually 

I’ve nothing to give 

But I won’t give up 

This is a warning

Have I cried wolf too much?

Every day is a chance to

Say goodbye if you’d just ever care

I’m curious what else to say 

Love me

Want me

Need me

What is worthy 

Inside your eyes

Why’m I still unworthy

Emotionally 

I’m at the bottom

Trying to climb up

Spiritually 

I’ve nothing to give 

But I won’t give up 

Checking myself 

And finding myself

I’m not unworthy

Facing myself

And loving myself

I’m not unworthy. 

Emotionally 

I’m at the bottom

Trying to climb up

Spiritually 

I’ve nothing to give 

But I won’t give up