All Night

 

It’s messy

Not knowing to stop

Engaging in toxicity

Just another addiction

I can’t beat it

With it beating me down

We’ve been at it so long

There are no victors

We’re both victims yet

Who’s to blame 

When neither of us can walk away

You scream I cry

We bleed over black eyes 

And then we fuck all night

It’s insane 

To anyone but us

Maybe even us in the calm

It hurts so much we want more

What we ran from

Has to be worse but how?

Do you know what went wrong

Before we ever started

Before we both met damaged

Why we do this

So willingly

You scream I cry

We bleed over black eyes 

And then we fuck all night

Over and over all night

Again and again we fight

Over and over all night

Again and again we fight 

You scream I cry

We bleed over black eyes 

And then we fuck all night

Over and over all night

Again and again we fight

Over and over all night

Again and again we fight 

Won’t it (stop) want it (stop)

Won’t it (stop) want it (stop)

A Dream Has Died Tonight

 A Dream Has Died Tonight

I went against everyone’s advice 

And fell in love

Specifically with you 

I didn’t care if they knew better 

I just want it 

And only if with you 

As much as I didn’t want to say it

I might deny it later still

The joy I’ve been manifesting 

Won’t happen with you 

No matter how much i will it

There’s no proper goodbye here

No story book redemption

I have to cut it off 

One day I hope you admit 

You know why a dream has died tonight 

I ignored everyone and my gut

Never stopping 

Believing in you but 

You never could prove them wrong could you 

So defiant 

Despite what you told me 

I cry putting it in black and white now 

I could break saying it out loud 

My love for you still fooling me

That you still want this 

A lie I’ll die denying why

There’s no proper goodbye here

No story book redemption

I have to cut it off 

One day I hope you admit 

You know why a dream has died tonight 

Governments and God promoting men

Couldn’t stop me from trying still

Yet you fail to admit to me

Your wreckless and careless tongue 

Is what sealed it up for me and why 

There’s no proper goodbye here

No story book redemption

I have to cut it off 

One day I hope you admit 

You know why a dream has died tonight 

You’ll be bitter you’ll lash out 

Shifting focus from your pain

I wish I could hold you one last time 

And say I’m sorry but I can’t 

So say what you want 

And do what you will

You know why a dream has died tonight 

SPACES (falling fading)

 SPACES (falling fading)

You came at me as if your egos more relevant as if your egos self-importance could be more inflated 

And now with everything said and done, I’m pushed out from my own damn narrative if it was ever even mine to start

So here I am all alone, unable to breathe much less stand up in the spaces you left behind

Did your need to be heard always have to supersede mine

I’m falling fading, falling fading, falling fading into (ahhhh)

For someone who survived similar life events, I think you’d handle a fragile mind a bit more delicately

Maybe that’s why it hurts so much as you know the near future’s savage, every part of me damaged, yet you’re audacious

So what’s the use? It’s over it’s no use if there’s no room to be in the space that you left behind.

Did your deficiency always have to supersede mine?

I’m falling fading, falling fading, falling fading into (ahhhh)

Was it a contest with you the victor and the prize is my eulogy

I’m falling fading, falling fading, falling fading into (ahhhh)