I've been fighting to keep this relationship coming to a hault
Fearing an impending chaos too much for my already fracturing psyche
But all I'm finding at our end is unexpected calming silence
Peace I haven't known since knowing you
Was our love ever real
Or are my feelings just a byproduct
Of you sociopathic mimicry
To function out in the light
There is one way lately you can always find me
Curled up in confusion,
Reeling either things just happened
Or anticipating what is next
I never thought I'd ever come so close to death
I could taste it twice
It's like the scent at the base of your neck
Absent of anything just like the part in your eyes that should sparkle
If there was ever love in your heart for me
Or anyone like you claim
It's really amazing your potential
The amazing things, beyond your wants and needs
Like love or whatever you could dream
But sadly, like my recent ramblings
Just an incomplete collection of painful venom unnecessarily
I sit up these nights too late
Every light on, all very bright
I'm scared for myself
I've been gaslight by each significant love in my life expottentially
I can't trust any word to be true and genuine
Even a truth like my name so unquestionable
Would I believe you or spiral in uncertainty if you told me my name was Mitchell Rodney
I always wished people came with warning signs
Turns out I just couldn't process what I was looking at
Any man surviving to the midlife point without any significant relations
That's everything I needed to know to stay away
I obnoxiously promote that through my time with you,
I've learned the life I lived was a least half a lie
My pretty pictures I sold only partially accurate.
At least I learned and accept I'm just like you
An Incomplete Collection of Painful Venom Unnecessarily
