Release Me

Synchronized rhythms
Bring me home
Should give me peace
But I’m not at ease
I’m seeking release
Music should bring calm

Give me more
But I’m alone
Begging someone please

Release me
Give me a melody to please me
Make me feel at peace
Release me
I just need a song to please me
Make me feel at ease

Harmonizing voices
Make me calm
It’s what it is
What does that mean
What do I say now
So nothing makes sense

I want more
But It’s bullshit
Here’s my final plea

Release me
Give me a melody to please me
Make me feel at peace
Release me
I just need a song to please me
Make me feel at ease

I’m scanning my collection of obscurities.
And nothing is filling this void.
Love takes over me and the silence vibrates through me
If I can find it I’ll be sure to make it

Release me
Give me a melody to please me
Make me feel at peace
Release me
I just need a song to please me
Make me feel at ease

Every Single Thing

I’ve done everything I can
The rest is up to you
So don’t fuck it up.
Can’t do much from where I am.
I’m depending on you
Just don’t screw it up

There are many of us out here
Cheering you on.
Despite your mental illness
We are doing every little thing we can.

Everything
Every single little thing
Everything we can
Everything
Everything that there is
Every single thing.

You may push us all away
And yet we’re all still here
So don’t fuck it up
Still despite it all please stay
Don’t run from all you fear
You’re more than enough

Don’t listen to all of the noise
That’s all it is
Despite the walls you throw up
There are still people who want to break them down

Everything
Every single little thing
Everything we can
Everything
Everything that there is
Every single thing.

You feel so alone in the universe
Broken beaten and berated.
No one understands more than me
I don’t want to see you go
But you’ve got to do everything you need to do, you know the problem and at this point it’s up to you
Do you know understand the extent of this everything?

Everything
Every single little thing
Everything we can
Everything
Everything that there is
Every single thing.

I, Me, Myself

I sometimes have too many words to say

And It all becomes a huge jumbled up mess 

I get tongue tied in every way 

I get tripped up on my words and feelings

Wishing I could Express with a little less 

You reaction to me has me reeling 

I, I, I, nothing to do with you

Me, me, me, alone with my feelings 

Caught up in things I wish I could explain

You too self absorbed for me to give you reason

So, I, I, I will take care

Of me, me, me forever. 

So I may have been born into this world 

With so much support to my left and my right 

But when I die sadly it won’t unfurl

I’ve always gave more for others than me

I reject all of it and bathe in the light 

So Shift the rhythm and then skip the rhyme 

I, I, I, nothing to do with you

Me, me, me, alone with my feelings 

Caught up in things I wish I could explain

You too self absorbed for me to give you reason

So, I, I, I will take care

Of me, me, me forever. 

At the end of the day

It’s all about myself

Me and I, I, I...

No matter what you say

It’s all about myself

Me and I, I, I

nothing to do with you

Me, me, me, alone with my feelings 

Caught up in things I wish I could explain

You too self absorbed for me to give you reason

So, I, I, I will take care

Of me, me, me forever. 

Can You Handle This

Here it is

Here is my truth

Are you braced to hear it all

And I say

I’m not afraid

But your ego may just still be

These are my reasons why

Can you handle this?

One...

You fault me for not contributing to your small circle but you never invited me in

You claim to be a southern belle but I was raised to never show up unannounced as a southern gentleman. 

I’m sorry you bit off more than you can chew but I can only help if you asked. 

Hashtag I was raised to respect privacy

Can you handle this?

Does it hurt just a little

To hear the truth. 

Two...

I don’t know where to begin with you.  You say you’re my friend but do you even care.  I’m not one to pick up the phone but if I did would you even answer.  You’re too busy with your life and that’s okay, but don’t make promises you could never keep.   It’s unbecoming. 

Can you handle this?

Does it hurt just a little

To hear the truth. 

Three

You were my true first love. I gave you everything.  EVERYTHING!  I was 19 and you were thirty.  I put you on my bank account because you couldn’t get one on your own.  Yet I listened to you bad financial advice.  8 years I wasted and after years of you cheating on me the moment the thought it entered my mind you broke it off.  And I hear you’re an equal tool to my replacement. Poor him but he was warned. 

Can you handle this?

Does it hurt just a little

To hear the truth. 

Four 

Your brought me into the world in your golden years.   You had little left fatherly to give me.  You had succumbed to your age.   You gave me life and not much else.   I was a burden you had to bare.   You had little patience for me yet I still regard you with high respect, for my siblings and nothing else.  I hope your eternal memory remembers how you made me bleed when you beat me. 

Can you handle this?

Does it hurt just a little

To hear the truth. 

Five

You first saw me at my worst.  In a drug den literally fighting for my life.   Yet you held me close to that fire gasping for air.   You seemed to have your head enough above water to rescue me.   Yet you drug me further into the abyss.  Do you know how much those few months wounded me.  You could have liberated me but the ghost of you still haunts me. 

Can you handle this?

Does it hurt just a little

To hear the truth. 

Switching gears, maybe it’s me...

Six

Im self destructive. Always wanting more from people who could never give it.  Always hoping someone will give me a hand when I have two of my own.   If I could hear my own truth.  It may hurt a little. But with all you’ve all put me through I could handle it. 

Can I handle this

Maybe every problem is mine

These are my reasons why.