Foolish

I heard a song and it reminds me of you

Those memories are the remnants of a fool

Yet who’s the fool

You or me

I walked away and you gave up 

Here I am and there you are

Looking at each other like fools

It’s silly to ignore you

That would be foolish

Memories ever-changing

How would you be remembered 

A fool or hero

The truth is ever present. 

So the truth is wild but it’s always the truth 

A young dumb sycophant stands here unashamed 

Yet who’s the fool

You or me

We surrendered to nothingness 

You’re no better or worse than I 

But the universe still calls us fools 

It’s silly to ignore you

That would be foolish

Memories ever-changing

How would you be remembered 

A fool or hero

The truth is ever present

I’m Better

You led me to believe you loved me

And I would be worse off without you

The lies, the lies, the lies 

You made me question my own self worth 

And I felt so insignificant 

I cried, I cried, I cried

You have no place left in my life

It’s time to say goodbye to you

And the poison that is you 

I’m better

I’m better off

I’m better off without

I’m better off without you 

Yet you shattered my self confidence 

Left me afraid to be who I am

But why, but why, but why

Why did I let you toxify me

Everything about me that was true 

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You have no place left in my life

It’s time to say goodbye to you

And the poison that is you 

It’s time to

It’s time to say

It’s time to say goodbye

It’s time to say goodbye now 

I’m better

I’m better off

I’m better off without

I’m better off without you 

You were good once but not anymore 

No matter how you feel this is me

Living, living, living 

Here I am

Here I am now

Here I am now despite 

Here I am now despite you 

It’s time to

It’s time to say

It’s time to say goodbye

It’s time to say goodbye now 

I’m better

I’m better off

I’m better off without

I’m better off without you 

I’ll Never Be

This itch hurts

To do things I never can

It vibrates down to my bones

I’ll always be alone but I have more to give 

High hopes and aspirations 

I gave it everything I could

I hope it’s enough 

I’ll never be royalty, President,

A doctor or a father 

I’ll be nothing more than your son

I hope I can still make y’all proud

You don’t know

The struggle inside my mind

Always dealing with this pain

I’m more than this emptiness yet here we are now

Dreaming of more simple things 

But I’m aware of all this 

Isn’t good enough

I’ll never be royalty, President,

A doctor or a father 

I’ll be nothing more than your son

I hope I can still make y’all proud

Trying to be the perfect son is bullshit

You either are or you aren’t

Yet in your parents eyes you’re the best they could manage 

High hopes and aspirations 

I gave it everything I could

I hope it’s enough 

I’ll never be royalty, President,

A doctor or a father 

I’ll be nothing more than your son

I hope I can still make y’all proud

Start to Rot

At times when I write

I frustrate myself

As in my mind 

I’m writing the same things

I would at 14

Have I not evolved?

Or do we not evolve from hormonal rage

Basic human emotions that never change

Carnal, emotional, spiritual 

Is that were we start to rot

To dissolve to become complacent 

Or we just get better at composing better words together. 

When I’m with my thoughts

I can hate myself 

I’ll try to say

How I feel but I can’t 

It’s always the same

Things I can’t explain. 

Maybe things that are now shouldn’t be explained 

Who I am and what I feel is what it is 

Honest, at the point that, we are just here 

Is that were we start to rot

To dissolve to become complacent 

At this point I die a little more and more every day 

Dissolve into oblivion

As flesh turns to dust

I’m still trying to figure out

How to put these words together 

Now I’m questioning everything is this the beginning of the end

Is that were we start to rot

To dissolve to become complacent 

I don’t know anymore

Does anyone know 

Questions

I loved you once 

If just for a moment in time

That feeling could have been a lie

I don’t know anymore 

Were you the one

We’ll never know cause you flaked out

It’s okay I don’t resent you 

But I still question things 

How much space do you give someone until they drift away

How much pressure do you put on someone until they break 

How much love do you give someone until they can break your heart 

How much power do you give someone until they can control. 

Questions no one can answer 

Until its too late

Questions...

Questions no one can answer

Until it’s too late

Questions 

I’m better off

Without you and your bullshit now

We aren’t wasting each other’s time

But I’d want to reclaim 

All that I lost 

My pride, soul, and financially 

Things you stole I’ll never reclaim 

But I still question why. 

I wasted 8 years on your ass

For no reason but yours

Why did I subject to you when 

When you don’t care about me

Who were you then to make me fall in love

Then you broke my heart

How much power do you give someone

Until they can control 

Questions no one can answer 

Until its too late

Questions...

Questions no one can answer

Until it’s too late

Questions 

Things never asked

Things never said

At the end of the day

I’m looking dumb

With questions. 

A Proclamation of Feelings

Try as we might

We will never be

Whatever we want us to be

What I want is:

A man to be my equal

Worthy of a husband

Someone to build me up

When I’m feeling down

To make my world feel whole

When it’s empty otherwise 

What about you?

Someone to make you feel safe

Or just less lonely now

A passing thought for you

And gone with a flash 

It only matters here

With your feelings and nothing else 

This isn’t a song much less a love song

More a proclamation of feelings

Mine are on point

How about my assumptions of yours. 

I’d beg for it

A duet with you 

But you’re too detached to act now 

What I want is:

Honestly above all else 

And no more evasion 

What’s wrong with that with you?

Since you’re the damage

That I’ve been dealing with 

Buck up, face down your faults with me

This isn’t a song much less a love song

More a proclamation of feelings

Mine are on point

How about my assumptions of yours. 

I assume what you want and need

But I’m reading your actions 

And they say many things

Like how you care only for yourself

I can’t help but believe it’s true. 

Prove me wrong if you can

This isn’t a song much less a love song

More a proclamation of feelings

Mine are on point

How about my assumptions of yours?

I had a dream with you in it

You told me everything

For better or worse you told me 

Bless Your Heart

Say a prayer

Say it twice 

Make it count

If you feel better 

Wash it away

All your sins

It won’t work

Despite what its worth 

Bless your heart

And your god

Because you’re going to be

Left alone and damaged 

Yet if you knew me I’d warn you

How at the end of time you’d feel solitude 

Loneliness 

Emptiness 

Christian lies

I accept them 

You’re better than

All of the lies 

Take a chance 

Give it all your worth. 

Bless your heart

And your god

Because you’re going to be

Left alone and damaged 

Yet if you knew me I’d warn you

How at the end of time you’d feel solitude 

Bless... you’re going to be

Better than me

Despite your god

And religion 

I’m better off

Despite you 

And your divinity 

And that okay. 

Bless your heart

And your god

Because you’re going to be

Left alone and damaged 

Yet if you knew me I’d warn you

How at the end of time you’d feel solitude 

Chime

I’m trying to block out the noise

And the light pollution 

To find out if you’re worth my time

In a time where nothing but everything matters. 

I’ve lost more important things

Than a moment in time

Could you be mine 

Despite a rhyme

Could we be fine

In the daytime 

Listen and hear the chime

Of the bells of a union

A crux of someone’s prime 

Hear the bells of a union 

I’m trying to block out the noise 

Of these false fairytales 

Is love worth believing in now

In a time where nothing but everything matters. 

So what could be more that this 

Surely not just a kiss

Could you be mine 

Despite a rhyme

Could we be fine

In the daytime 

Listen and hear the chime

Of the bells of a union

A crux of someone’s prime 

Hear the bells of a union 

Bing, ring, ding, dong 

Hear the bells

Bing, ring, ding, dong

Hear the bells

I’m more worthy of your time 

Than a few silly rhymes 

Listen and hear the chime

Of the bells of a union

A crux of someone’s prime 

Hear the bells of a union