Start to Rot

At times when I write

I frustrate myself

As in my mind 

I’m writing the same things

I would at 14

Have I not evolved?

Or do we not evolve from hormonal rage

Basic human emotions that never change

Carnal, emotional, spiritual 

Is that were we start to rot

To dissolve to become complacent 

Or we just get better at composing better words together. 

When I’m with my thoughts

I can hate myself 

I’ll try to say

How I feel but I can’t 

It’s always the same

Things I can’t explain. 

Maybe things that are now shouldn’t be explained 

Who I am and what I feel is what it is 

Honest, at the point that, we are just here 

Is that were we start to rot

To dissolve to become complacent 

At this point I die a little more and more every day 

Dissolve into oblivion

As flesh turns to dust

I’m still trying to figure out

How to put these words together 

Now I’m questioning everything is this the beginning of the end

Is that were we start to rot

To dissolve to become complacent 

I don’t know anymore

Does anyone know