Coming Of Age

Give me a moment

I need a breath to process

All the bull shit happening around me

It’s so hard to focus

With this I should vent

The horrors should I digress. 

We seem happy but we could never be. 

The boys and girls 

Every color

Being happy

Being friends

Where did it end

Coming of age

Dumbing of minds

Breaking the hearts

Of those who need it most.  

Let me be with myself

So I can understand this 

The bullshit that has now surrounded us 

It’s so hard to focus 

I don’t understand 

Despite my best efforts to

All this hatred and everyone thats lost

Non binary 

And binary. 

Being happy 

With our friends 

When did it end

Coming of age

Dumbing of minds

Breaking the hearts

Of those who need it most.  

Now everyone 

Is now someone 

If I can dream it 

Surely it can exist 

Coming of age

Dumbing of minds

Breaking the hearts

Of those who need it most.  

Drip Drip, Nothing

This feeling is liquid

It ebbs and flows

To somewhere no one knows 

It’s all but a trickle 

Despite some feeling 

That is still reeling. 

You come and go

Like the chance of a 

Summer thunderstorm

Rain falls

Sins should wash away

But the truth remains

Cascades

Things you should say 

Despite the refrains

And drip drip....   

Nothing 

Fuck your stupid Cupid 

He’s far sighted 

And I am enlightened. 

I won’t be secluded

But I won’t waste

A chance for some good taste 

I’m here and now

Like the chance of a

Summer thunderstorm 

Rain falls

Sins should wash away

But the truth remains

Cascades

Things you should say 

Despite the refrains

And drip drip....   

Nothing 

Silence 

The cicadas start to sing (and)

I’m here and now

Just the once

Wedding bells start to ring (but)

You come and go 

Rain falls

Sins should wash away

But the truth remains

Cascades

Things you should say 

Despite the refrains

And drip drip....   

Nothing 

Toxicity

I’m done with all of you

And your toxicity

Trying to encourage negativity 

Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa

I’m moving on

Goodbye 

It’s a bitter twisted reality

That we lived for a time

You and I

But it’s over 

We lived in a blissful wrong fantasy

But it was all a lie. 

You and I 

Lived forever. 

Now and then and here and now

It is what it is, it is what it was

I’m done with all of you

And your toxicity

Trying to encourage negativity 

Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa

I’m moving on

Goodbye 

Im closer to sane and closer to me 

But memories remain. 

You and I

But it’s over. 

Now and then and here and now

It is what it is, it is what it was

I’m done with all of you

And your toxicity

Trying to encourage negativity 

Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa

I’m moving on

Goodbye 

Despite the love hate and regret that can be

We will say in refrain 

You and I 

But it’s over. 

Now and then and here and now

It is what it is, it is what it was

I’m done with all of you

And your toxicity

Trying to encourage negativity 

Fuck you c’est la vie konichiwa

I’m moving on

Goodbye 

Eternity

Every day I rise

Is a day I won’t

Every sunrise

Is a sunset

Everything that is now

One day will be gone

Despite ever morning

Night always comes 

The here and now

Ebbs and flows 

We are simple creatures

With advance thinking 

What’s just and true

I can choose

What I want to do now

Despite description 

Here we all are

Individuals

Free to be free to see

Eternity. 

Every day I rise

Is a day I won’t

Every sunrise

Is a sunset

Everything that is now

One day will be gone

Despite ever morning

Night always comes 

Pieces remain 

Of my soul. 

It still reaches out

Looking for some love

Is it too late 

For myself 

Overwhelmed with doubt 

Just what can’t i prove 

Hello again 

I called you a friend

Is you mind open to see

Eternity.

Every day I rise

Is a day I won’t

Every sunrise

Is a sunset

Everything that is now

One day will be gone

Despite ever morning

Night always comes 

It comes and goes a million times

These words have flowed

From my pen

From my lips

Yet they remain

A story told with perfect rhymes 

The truth be told 

Despite sin

From my lips. 

Eternity.     

Every day I rise

Is a day I won’t

Every sunrise

Is a sunset

Everything that is now

One day will be gone

Despite ever morning

Night always comes 

The Only One (Damage)

I’m ready to crack it open

Shatter it all close your eyes 

This is going to hurt 

For all involved 

You’re a bitter relic of truth

despite your reality

It’s a lie

Like all those you told me.  

Damage damage damage 

When you look at me

And you think of me

I’m the only...

Only one who would deal with you

Here I am to break you.  

Despite you 

In spite of you.  

I’m stealing dealing in a hope In

You despite all of these lies. 

Do you feel it yet

The anguish here 

Damage damage damage

When you look at me

And you think of me

I’m the only...

Only one who would deal with you

Damage damage damage 

Feel it

All of it

This isn’t a pardon

Despite what we will become now

Living in truth that despises lies.

So what else is my worth. 

Anyone that cares right now.

When you look at me

And you think of me

I’m the only...

Only one who would deal with you

Not Going Anywhere

Hear me now 

I scream it loud 

Here I am

And I’m

Not going anywhere

Despite you 

And your false illusions

That you sold everyone

I’ll win them all over

You told fantastic lies

Ill spend a lifetime overcoming. 

But I will

Because if you forgot, I’m always right. 

When it comes to you.  

Called you damaged

Claimed you saved

Cared way too much 

Carried you

To the grave

To the choir

To the judge...

And jury. 

Hear me now 

I scream it loud 

Here I am

And I’m

Not going anywhere

13 years 

But here we are talking

About past transgressions 

Like any one cares. 

It’s  a shame we don’t care 

Despite your attempts of eternity 

I will be

Your one antithesis,  fooling fools. 

When it comes to you.  

Called you damaged

Claimed you saved

Cared way too much 

Carried you

To the grave

To the choir

To the judge...

And jury. 

Hear me now 

I scream it loud 

Here I am

And I’m

Not going anywhere

For Us...

You accept this

I reject it

I’m not here yet to bicker

But here we are

You and I

Talking about love

It won’t last

The last man couldn’t

Why should you 

Prove me wrong

For us.  Whoever we are

Despite me being worst 

Not you but now

I shall burn the world down 

For us.   Whoever We are. 

Between these words

And you and I 

I will burn the world down

But here we are

All of us

Preaching of love

The last cast

The one who Wouldn’t. 

Bound by one

Who would never. 

For us.  Whoever we are

Despite me being worst 

Not you but now

I shall burn the world down 

For us.   Whoever We are. 

You’re a dream

A fantasy

Could be reality

You’re a scream

My intimacy 

Could be reality 

What a blast

The one who shouldn’t 

Accept it

Despite it all. 

It’s love

Despite it all

It’s love.  

Pacifist

It’s love

Bitterness

It’s love

For us 

It’s love

And it is 

It’s love

Feeling Unending Tears

The feeling of doom

The unending shame

The tears I cry and I don’t know why

Good bye

Twisted bitterness along with this

Emptiness. 

I don’t know why I feel this way

Maligned alignment. Along with this 

Bitterness 

I don’t want accept I feel this way. 

Back up and rewind 

Is there someone out there who knows the old me

Someone who can defend my jaded heart. 

If now one can it’s okay

This battle is mine 

And I’ve tried all I can 

The feeling of doom

The unending shame

The tears I cry and I don’t know why

Good bye

Absolute emptiness calls out so 

Embrace it 

This is who and what I am

Dissolute with hope and with a chance

To believe it

You could be more than your name 

But yet I’m cursed still 

Can’t my positivity break everything. 

Someone who can defend my humanity. 

If no one can it’s alright

I’m am by myself 

And I’ve done all I can 

The feeling of doom

The unending shame

The tears I cry and I don’t know why

Good bye

Empty Heart

Empty Heart 

Empty heart

An empty home

The echo is always 

Solitude

No one left

No one to end

The echo is always 

Solitude. 

You’d call it silence 

But my mind makes enough noise

In these private moments it screams 

Makes me question everything basic to existence. 

I wish reverence 

But my head makes enough lies

In these moments alone it seems 

My life will be a short and fatal experience. 

Despite the wake

The funeral

And grieving. 

I’ll be in a personal hell, solitude. 

Empty heart

An empty home

The echo is always 

Solitude

No one left

No one to end

The echo is always 

Solitude. 

You call it Monday 

Yet it’s a day of mourning 

Who was I to you and am I now

If I was truly dead now what could you ever say. 

Just a past birthday 

That you all saw receding. 

As the day withdrew and then was gone. 

I’m fragile and your flippancy shows me every day. 

You don’t care

Condolence 

And your shame

Is why I am where I am now, solitude. 

Empty heart

An empty home

The echo is always 

Solitude

No one left

No one to end

The echo is always 

Solitude. 

The echoes I hear

Are your prayers for forgiveness

Your wishes you had done better 

They serve you no favors

The echoes I hear

Are your dumb questions for what is my choice 

Your ignorance in all of this 

Empty heart

An empty home

The echo is always 

Solitude

No one left

No one to end

The echo is always 

Solitude. 

Crime

Crime

I grew up with bigots

In my back yard

Luckily only gay

Or I would torch them if I was a witch

They called us fagots 

On my way home 

Luckily for them

I wasn’t a homicidal rapist. 

Judgmental sociopaths 

I’m not one of you. 

From all of the bullshit

Despite everything you worship. 

Here we are you are 

My love if a crime 

A life as a crime

My truth is a crime

All this time

A crime 

But no, you’re wrong here

On many things

What they say

Could make you burn eternally

Can I still be clear

Of false verbiage 

I’m not bitter but

I am a raging homosexual 

Psychotic derelicts

I’m not one of you.  

From all of the bullshit

Despite everything you worship. 

Here we are you are 

My love if a crime 

A life as a crime

My truth is a crime

All this time

A crime 

In what my soul is right  

In spite of your blessed worship

Impure we are and

My love if a crime 

A life as a crime

My truth is a crime

All this time

A crime 

At Peace With Everything

How soon is soon

To give up on love

How old is old

To give love the shove. 

I could ruin your marriage.  

But you’re both whores beneath me. 

Bitter and jaded and still wanting things

I don’t have.     I’m refraining from

Living in my own misery

Despite the past

That had a present

I’m at peace with everything

Living in my own misery 

Things that won’t last

He has his present

I’m at peace with everything. 

What is this now

Letting go of anger 

I won’t allow 

This to go on forever. 

We had something sacred but

We fucked it up both of us 

We could point out failures 

Yet, I’m ready to release

Living in my own misery

Despite the past

That had a present

I’m at peace with everything

Living in my own misery 

Things that won’t last

He has his present

I’m at peace with everything. 

You lived your sin

I’ve confessed mine

And despite it all

I’m alright. 

You could have been lovely 

But I’m better off alone

I’m toxic I see now

Only with toxic partners. 

Living in my own misery

Despite the past

That had a present

I’m at peace with everything

Living in my own misery 

Things that won’t last

He has his present

I’m at peace with everything.