Tuesday, November 12, 2024

Crystal Sanctuary





I sit here numb

Disoriented from the destruction

You unleashed at our loves refuge 

I don’t know what to say 

Or do

That could get you right now

To open you’re eyes and believe


How many times can you shatter

Our crystal sanctuary 

Until nothing is left to salvage


Toying with emotions

Suffocating love and hope

With fallacious rage and fear


How much longer can I support 

Our crystal sanctuary’s

Until nothing can be recognized 


I lay here dumb

Processing the pain I’m subjected to

All I have to stand solid on

Is the paranoia

Not love

That you give me instead

So why do I keep trying for?


How many times can you shatter

Our crystal sanctuary 

Until nothing is left to salvage


Toying with emotions

Suffocating love and hope

With fallacious rage and fear


How much longer can I support 

Our crystal sanctuary’s

Until nothing can be recognized 


Don’t be shocked

When you come to your senses

That your loving sanctuary 

Where you terrorized me

Isn’t there and you’re alone 

Dealing with the consequences 

That you’ve kept waiting 



Saturday, November 9, 2024

wasting my time loving

 



Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do


It could be a whisper from your past

Or when something you’re suppressing 

Rises up into view

I’m never looking for it

I can’t even avoid its truth

That I’ll never be enough

I can’t measure up

To what you’ve had before

Or what you’re craving more of 


Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do


At first when we were shiny brand new 

You could never get enough of

Whatever I could have

But now you’re bored at our best 

I’m left craving what I can’t earn 

So when I see apathy

Staring back at me

Being grand or just there

Of course I’d think “what’s the use”


Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do


Don’t misunderstand me as I know

You love me with all you have to

I just know I can’t know

The intensity for those

That came before oh those old flames

So warm even now Im less

a match in the wind

Trying to breathe and shine 

And not fade into your night 


Random things always remind me

I’m wasting my time

Loving you like I do