"How Do I Say It"

I miss the taste of your kiss

The touch of your hand

The smell of your skin

You have me addicted to you

My time with you is too short

I can’t get enough

You’re all I could want

Why does this feeling feel so right

Words can’t express

I want you to understand how I feel

How do I say how I feel

I must confess

This feeling I feel for you is real

How do I say how I feel

Te quiero, ai shiteru, je t’aime

Ti amo, iche liebe dich, I love you

But how do I say it…

When you smile at me I smile

You laugh and I laugh

I don’t understand

How you could make me feel this way

And you send me flying high

I could touch the sky

I’m lost in your eyes

It’s a feeling I can’t deny

Words can’t express

I want you to understand how I feel

How do I say how I feel

I must confess

This feeling I feel for you is real

How do I say how I feel

Te quiero, ai shiteru, je t’aime

Ti amo, iche liebe dich, I love you

But how do I say it…

"Unfaithfulness"

You made me feel guilty

Filled me with regret

When every feeling that I had

Should have been yours instead

I didn’t know your cruelty

Wish I could forget

How could you make me feel so bad

You had me so misled

I could forgive you for just about anything

The cheating and heartache

But I won’t forgive you for unfaithfulness

I could forgive you for just about anything

The torture and heartbreak

But I won’t forgive you for unfaithfulness

I won’t deny my mistake

You told everyone

But I never did take that step

You fucked him in our bed

What was to be a break

Not to say we’re done

Could just have been our worst misstep

With what’s inside my head

I could forgive you for just about anything

The cheating and heartache

But I won’t forgive you for unfaithfulness

I could forgive you for just about anything

The torture and heartbreak

But I won’t forgive you for unfaithfulness

Unless I have a change of heart

We’re over, we’re done, we’re finished

Unless I decide to restart

We’re over, we’re done, we’re finished

"Break Your Heart"

How can I explain?
Why I shut you out
I will always have feelings for you
And regrets for not staying

You weren’t the only
My heart was yearning
It wasn’t fair to love another
When your love was mine only

I had to break your heart
I didn’t deserve it, I hadn’t earned it
I had to break your heart
I didn’t understand, and now it’s too late

We moved so fast
Was it meant to be?
I was scared to give it some more time
Second guessing everything

My heart overflowed
I couldn’t say no
To anyone who ever loved me
My heart wasn’t yours alone

I had to break your heart
I didn’t deserve it, I hadn’t earned it
I had to break your heart
I didn’t understand, and now it’s too late

"Starting Over"

Here I am
Back at the place
I never thought I’d be
How can I
Begin to say
Why I came back to this

Now I find myself starting over
Rebuilding bridges I had burnt
I did say once that this was over
But you deserve another turn

I could not
Say how I felt
To you or anyone
I’m sorry
I left you then
But we are stronger now

Now I find myself starting over
Rebuilding bridges I had burnt
I did say once that this was over
But you deserve another turn

I had to go away
Break your heart
Make you realize
Make me realize
What was missing
How to improve

You said once
That you love me
I took that for granted
I said once
That I missed you
And here we are again

Now I find myself starting over
Rebuilding bridges I had burnt
I did say once that this was over
But you deserve another turn

"Catastrophe"

I find myself in this situation
It didn’t happen by mistake
I thought I was playing a game
And now I’m in too deep

I never meant to get involved
But sometimes my heart goes off alone
My brain can’t construct rhyme or reason
How unfortunate for you that now there’s two

This could all end in catastrophe
If you found out about us
This could all end in catastrophe
If you knew what we’re doing
This could all end in catastrophe
If you saw things through my eyes

I find myself talking to you late at night
Scream fighting over phone calls
I keep saying it’s not like that
Why can’t I let you go

I never meant to drag you in
Why am I so afraid of this change
I used to live spontaneously
I think that changed back when I first met you

This could all end in catastrophe
If you found out about us
This could all end in catastrophe
If you knew what we’re doing
This could all end in catastrophe
If you saw things through my eyes

This could all end in catastrophe
It would be okay if some things would…

"My Story"

Things started out happy
Moving quickly ever changing
I reached a point where I wish I could stop time
But no man ever can
As life kept on moving
It changed directions without me
The others then started to get in your way
Tarnishing everything

This is my story
My side of the story
Different to the one you’re telling everyone
Maybe the truth will meet somewhere in between
Each side of the story
This is my story

Completely unaware
We had set the end in motion
When one on one intimacy went away
Never to come again
The distance in my heart
Became distance across the land
The unwritten test you failed which crippled me
Leaving nothing the same

This is my story
My side of the story
Different to the one you’re telling everyone
Maybe the truth will meet somewhere in between
Each side of the story
This is my story

My heart was then alone
That’s when a stranger came to me
Unlocking everything I had kept inside
Releasing us from this
I must apologize
I forgot to communicate
We could have saved everything we had created
If I had learned to speak

This is my story
My side of the story
Different to the one you’re telling everyone
Maybe the truth will meet somewhere in between
Each side of the story
This is my story

"So Far..."

I’ve spent my life drifting aimlessly
I never had to worry about danger
I was always safe
I made sure there was a safety net
I would have never thought to fly without lines
I was never brave
I always kept someone close to me
I never ventured out in the darkness alone
Just one step behind
It was always easier this way
to go through my life always watching your back
So you could fall first

So far I’ve taken care of you
Seen you succeed instead of me
So far I’ve never been alone
Always had someone by my side
So far I’ve always had a hand
To make sure I never went wrong

Maybe I need to be alone

I have always taken your advice
Even if my mind told me that you were wrong
So you could be blamed
One day I thought I’d go on my own
But I only replaced you with some one else
I can’t be alone

So far I’ve taken care of you
Seen you succeed instead of me
So far I’ve never been alone
Always had someone by my side
So far I’ve always had a hand
To make sure I never went wrong

Maybe I need to be alone

"Hurts"

I never asked for this
I always thought I was happy
What started with a kiss
Has grown into a need
You’re all I’m thinking of
Every hour of every day
I have fallen in love
And I can’t get enough

The love I have for you
Hurts so bad
The ache I feel for you
Hurts so bad
The need I have for you
Hurts so bad
The pain I feel for you
Hurts so bad

You’ve broken down my wall
Leaving me vulnerable to you
All I can do is fall
For you more and more and
More I fall in this pain
I torture myself everyday
I’ll never feel the same
My hearts been ripped open

The love I have for you
Hurts so bad
The ache I feel for you
Hurts so bad
The need I have for you
Hurts so bad
The pain I feel for you
Hurts so bad

And in the wake of this emotional awakening
As Saturn returns for the first time
I step into eternity

The love I have for you
Hurts so bad
The ache I feel for you
Hurts so bad
The need I have for you
Hurts so bad
The pain I feel for you
Hurts so bad

"Rodney (Reality)"

Everyone thinks that I’m quiet

Inoffensive and naïve

But inside of me’s a riot

That you won’t believe

You thought I’d just play it safe

And coast along unnoticed

But inside of me’s a lion

Ready to be free

Rodney’s hiding in between the lines

Of my simple reality

You should have seen all the warning signs

In my simple reality

He’s a monster that’s fighting his cage

Of my simple reality

Now it’s time for him to take this stage

From my simple reality

Once you find him just beware

He will knock you off your feet

So just hold on to your prayer

You’ll need it in your defeat

I’m tired of holding myself back

It’s coming out hard and fast

You should have known there was more

Than little quiet Mitchell

Rodney’s hiding in between the lines

Of my simple reality

You should have seen all the warning signs

In my simple reality

He’s a monster that’s fighting his cage

Of my simple reality

Now it’s time for him to take this stage

From my simple reality

"Cut The Strings"

I’m ready to cut the strings

And be free

If you’re not sure you want to

Be with me

I won’t sit around and wait for you

To make up your mind

Don’t keep me hanging on to a hope

I don’t have the time

These eight years was fun but if you’re done

Let’s just walk away

Call it done and let the sun come up

On a brand new day

I’m ready to cut the strings

And be free

If you’re not sure you want to

Be with me

So I guess I’m just not fun enough

For you anymore

I gave you everything I have to give

And you still want more

But it’s clear you don’t want it from me

I won’t hold you up

Don’t let me be the one in your way

I’ll just give you up

I’m ready to cut the strings

And be free

If you’re not sure you want to

Be with me

I’ll take my freedom and enjoy it

One day you’ll miss me

I’ll be gone like you already are

One day you will see…

"Separation"

Here we are at a crossroads

We’ve grown apart

And numb to our feelings

We can’t admit where we stand

We’ve had our fun

But is this were we’re done

Take a break

Understand

Our feelings

Figure out

What I want

For myself

I’m tired of pretending

I’m tired of the in between

What’s beyond the separation?

I’m ready enough to move on

But I love you enough to hold on

I just won’t fear separation

You’re all that I’ve ever know

But I’m not scared

You taught me to be brave

Can you just make up your mind?

I’m still waiting

When will this waiting end

Take a break

Think it through

Don’t react

Figure out

What you want

For yourself

I’m tired of pretending

I’m tired of the in between

What’s beyond the separation?

I’m ready enough to move on

But I love you enough to hold on

I just won’t fear separation

"When Will"

A kiss an embrace

You made my heart race

Your touch and I’m hooked

I hope you just looked

I crave you I need you

I won’t deny this feeling

You’re the one I’m needing

When will I learn to let go

When will I ever move on

You and I weren’t meant to be

But I keep thinking we were

Denial on trial

You’re now in a file

You just make me feel

You have me heart sealed

I desire your sin

I can’t resist this feeling

You’re the one I’m wanting

When will I learn to let go

When will I ever move on

You and I weren’t meant to be

But I keep thinking we were

Don’t ignore me

Just console me

I need you to understand me

Don’t ignore me

Just console me

I need you to understand me

"My World Ended"

You came to me

Said it’s over and you want out

And wanted to know how to divide our things

I can’t process

The words that you just said to me

It tears me apart as I’m falling blindly

Into the unknown

I’m scared; I don’t know what’s on the other side

I only know what I know

And now that’s gone away

When you said you wanted to leave

My world ended

When you said you didn’t love me

My world ended

I can’t help for regretting every mistake

But I can’t erase my history

When you said you wanted to leave

My world ended

You broke my heart

What did I do to deserve this

Your decision opens opportunities

I never thought

This new door would open for me

But I fear all that is on the other side

It’s my forever

But now I have a choice to choose it for me

I only knew what I knew

And now you’ve set me free

When you said you wanted to leave

My world ended

When you said you didn’t love me

My world ended

I can’t help for regretting every mistake

But I can’t erase my history

When you said you wanted to leave

My world ended

I’m a person who craves excess this is dangerous

To do what I’ve always know is right or let you walk away

I don’t know what to do when my world ended

When you said you wanted to leave

My world ended

When you said you didn’t love me

My world ended

I can’t help for regretting every mistake

But I can’t erase my history

When you said you wanted to leave

My world ended

"I Believed In..."

When will I start thinking with my head

Instead of what’s inside of my pants

I found myself in a strangers bed

I think the last time was my last chance

So what’s wrong with me

Why do I keep doing this

I believed in monogamy

But I make myself a liar

And nobody likes a liar

I guess they all hate me

I couldn’t help myself my mistake

But what’s a mistake with no regret

I will not love my life as a fake

So there it is I’ll have no regret

Do I make you see

I just can’t go on like this

I believed in monogamy

But I make myself a liar

And nobody likes a liar

I guess they all hate me

I believe in sacred things

But I’ve forsaken everything

I guess I’ll give up everything

I don’t understand me

So what’s wrong with me

Why do I keep doing this

I believed… I believed…

But I lost my faith

Do I make you see

I just can’t go on like this

I believed… I believed…

But I lost my faith

I believed in monogamy

But I make myself a liar

And nobody likes a liar

I guess they all hate me

I believe in sacred things

But I’ve forsaken everything

I guess I’ll give up everything

I don’t understand me

I believed in a forever

We were us in the here and now

But you couldn’t figure out how

To promise you to me

I believed… I believed

But I lost my faith

You couldn’t fulfill me

Make me feel like I was the one

I needed to be the one

I still need to be the one

"Sister"

You are all I’ve ever known

And I love you just the same

I don’t know If I’ve ever known

Anything greater anything better

I can’t think of a time

That I didn’t know you

You were my childhood

Every early memory

And now we’re grown we are

Growing further apart

Here in adulthood

I just don’t know who you are

Can we duplicate

That time

I still consider you

My best friend

You are all I’ve ever known

And I love you just the same

I don’t’ know if I’ve ever known

Anything greater anything better

Where did it all go wrong

When did we drift apart

You were the sister

I never had and now

I long to know you now

And we’ve missed so much time

Just to make it up

Would be gratifying

Can we return to

That time

I still consider you

My best friend

You are all I’ve ever known

And I love you just the same

I don’t’ know if I’ve ever known

Anything greater anything better

Please be mine, my sister

Please be mine, understand

I need you, my sister

I need you, understand…

"Sin"

Is there something wrong with me?

I should be happy… I know I’m happy

I don’t want for anything

But it’s not enough

I felt your touch and I want more

Why do I feel like this?

I love the thrill

I like the chase

But I hate feeling like this

It’s a sin to want you

I’ve been committed but I want more

He isn’t giving me what I need

Won’t you give me more?

I can’t escape the feeling

That I felt with you… when you touched me then

I just can’t help this feeling

It’s just human nature

To crave more after just one touch

So what’s wrong with me now?

I want a thrill

I need your chase

But I hate feeling like this

It’s a sin to want you

I’ve been committed but I want more

He isn’t giving me what I need

Won’t you give me more?

"Peep Hole"

I watch them kissing

Delicately sensually

He reaches into her blouse

Her head tilts in forced pleasure

Then something goes awry

Is that fear that’s in her eyes

Who is she, who is he?

I don’t know; should I care?

I keep watching through the peep hole

Watching a train wreck in slow motion

I watch him hit her

Brutally and senselessly

He strikes again and then

She reaches down for her bag

When he goes in again

Her bullet then finds his head

Who is she, who was he?

I don’t know; should I call?

I keep watching through the peep hole

Watching a train wreck in slow motion

As he falls she cries

Relentlessly with relief

Was he a John that went bad,

an abusive lover gone?

As she picks up her phone

Will there be guilt in her voice?

Why did she, who was he?

Should I care?  Watch the show!

I keep watching through the peep hole

Watching a train wreck in slow motion

"On The Dance Floor"

I met you somewhere else

You were cute but I wasn’t impressed

Even a few drinks couldn’t change

You were just okay

But then you started dancing

I found myself with you

Moving to the music

But then we started dancing

I felt your skin touch mine

Holding me too close

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Like a melody it felt like ecstasy

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Oh baby you had me wanting more

Now you’re stuck in my head

You won’t leave so now am I obsessed

I’m thinking what would have happened

If you didn’t leave

But you did get my number

You want to dance again

Moving to the music

And now we’ve started talking

I want your touch again

Holding me too close

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Like a melody it felt like ecstasy

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Oh baby you had me wanting more

"Without Reciprocation"

I was the one that you turned to

When the world had you down

You needed a shoulder to cry on

And now that it’s all said and done

You abandoned me

I defended your case for days

When no one believed you

You took everything I gave to you

And when it came to helping me

You abandoned me

I should have known

I would give you everything

Without reciprocation

It was easy

To take everything I gave

Without reciprocation

It was when you were down and out

I was there with a hand

To help dig you out of depression

It was just the right thing to do

You don’t feel the same

I took a chance here helping you

I felt that it was right

I just knew you’d be there for me

But in hindsight I can now say

You don’t feel the same

I should have known

I would give you everything

Without reciprocation

It was easy

To take everything I gave

Without reciprocation

I guess I didn’t know you well enough

To believe you’d take and take

And not be there for me when I was down

I should have listened to someone who knew you

I was warned and now I’m scorned

So shame on me for being so naive

I should have known

I would give you everything

Without reciprocation

It was easy

To take everything I gave

Without reciprocation

"This House"

I came home

To an empty house

Without you here

It doesn’t feel the same

Here I am

In an empty space

All by myself

Why aren’t you here with me

I find myself looking for you

Reaching for your pillow

Looking for your face

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I need you

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I’m lonely

Lonely nights

Are all that I face

The silence grows

Without your TV shows

I try to

fill this empty void

here in my heart

that just won’t be the same

I find myself looking for love

Needing that emotion

It just won’t replace

I find myself looking for you

Reaching for your pillow

Looking for your face

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I need you

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I’m lonely

"Electric Forest"

The monster in my mind, won't let me go
It has let me be defined, just let me go
It tells me all these lies that I believe
Catching me by surprise, when I don't see

I’m charged up in an electric forest

Lost without direction

But to excited to care

I should trust you but I can’t

I’m sorry, I’m sorry

I made up all these lies, to destruct me

And to destroy us too, I was blind

I followed the insanity for what

Only chaos that will make me insane

I’m charged up in an electric forest

Excited by the spark

With no map to set me free

I should trust you my mistake

I’m sorry, I’m sorry

I made my mistake

Now I’ll follow you blindly

Don’t lead me wrong, don’t lead me wrong…

"Your Response To My Infidelity"

I’m looking for a little therapy

So my heart will get over you

Maybe throwing out your things

Will make me forget the pain

I’ve been receiving lots of empathy

But no one knows this shade of blue

So much for these wedding rings

Now I’ll never feel the same

Cleaning the house you left behind

Doesn’t make me miss you any less

You’re gone, you’re gone

You’re gone, you’re gone

I should be moving on but I’m not

Your smell still lingers in our room

There’s nothing I can do here

To erase these memories

So you killed my heart with just one shot

A broken heart left to consume

Tears cried since you disappeared

Nothing left but memories

Cleaning the house you left behind

Doesn’t make me miss you less

You’re gone, you’re gone

You’re gone, you’re gone

"Puzzle Piece"

I don’t connect with my family

I came along a little too late

I don’t connect with your friends

I guess we just don’t relate

Am I better off alone, better off dead

As I wonder through life by myself

I question everything

Why don’t I fit in

Why don’t I belong

Why don’t I connect

With anyone

It’s only you who will see me through

But I feel it’s something you regret

You always have more fun without me

I guess we just don’t relate

I just feel like I’m hollow, like I’m dead

As I wonder through life by myself

I question everything

Why don’t I fit in

Why don’t I belong

Why don’t I connect

With anyone

Where’s the puzzle I belong to

Or am I a miss-matched piece

Why don’t I enjoy life

Why don’t I feel it

Why don’t I connect

With anyone

"Coward"

Should I be scared, be afraid

Of someone I only know by name

You say he’s a friend from way back when

But you only speak to him when I’m away

Is it my fear, of theft

That someone will just steal you away

That has me now on the verge of tears

Or my guilty conscience from my past mistakes

I’m a coward, I’m afraid

To confront you with my fears

I’m a coward, I’m afraid

To tell you about my tears

If he’s nothing, just a friend

Then don’t be afraid to speak his name

I’m not insecure enough to scream

With rage unless there’s something else you won’t say

I’ve told you once, told you twice

Your honest is all that I need

So why do I feel I need to find

The things that you always say are never there

I’m a coward, I’m afraid

To confront you with my fears

I’m a coward, I’m afraid

To tell you about my tears

You just say no, don’t worry

It’s all in my head I’m just crazy

I want to believe you to trust you

Why won’t I listen I should just believe you

"Dumb Fool"

Just because you don’t tell me

Doesn’t mean I don’t know

I’m not too blind not to see

The things you think I shouldn’t know

You won’t break my heart like that

I won’t be a victim

I won’t be your fall back on

I won’t sit at home while you don’t

I’m not as dumb as you think I am

Don’t play me for the fool you’ll make yourself

You think you’re slick, but you’re not

You’re a slimy lying cheat

Leave me here with love to rot

While you’re trying to be discrete

My heart won't break for you now

It's too numb to care so

Feel free to fuck around
When you come back I will be gone

I’m not as dumb as you think I am

Don’t play me for the fool you’ll make yourself

What do you tell everyone?

Who am I in your world?

Why do you play like we’re done?

I refuse to be your dumb fool

I’m not as dumb as you think I am

Don’t play me for the fool you’ll make yourself

"That Call"

I light a cigarette
I watch it burn to the end
I feel no different than before
What am I asking for?

I'm pushing... pushing...

I ache for understanding

but the words won't come out

I can't write these words...

there's so much I want to say with this

but I can't concentrate

I keep waiting for that call

To have a chance to say the things

I can’t find the words to explain

I keep waiting for that call

My phone sits there and never rings

The feeling makes me go insane

I take shots for the burn

I drink until there’s no more

Now I just feel worse than before

What am I looking for?

I’m begging… begging…

For you to just make that call

Put me on the spot and

Make me speak my mind

There’s so much I need to say to you

But I can’t formulate

I keep waiting for that call

To have a chance to say the things

I can’t find the words to explain

I keep waiting for that call

My phone sits there and never rings

The feeling makes me go insane

There are so many letters unsent

Make that call so I have to explain

"Fire"

I itch, I burn

I can’t escape, it’s my turn

I want to make this all explode

You give, I take

I won’t give in, it’s my chance

To set the world off to burn

I wanna set the world on fire

I wanna watch it burn

Give in, give in

Set this world on fire

Give in, give in

Set this world on fire

Take care, relax

I like danger, but it’s okay

I’ll do it with precaution

I want, I need

I need a thrill, excitement

If need be I’ll do it myself

I wanna set the world on fire

I wanna watch it burn

Give in, give in

Set this world on fire

Give in, give in

Set this world on fire

"Addiction"

I’m asking for your attention

I don’t care

If it’s from you or anyone else

I just need it

I just want it

Give it to me now

I’m looking for comprehension

I don’t dare

Ask if you would want anyone else

I just need it

I just want it

Give it to me now

Give me stimulation

Give me pleasure

Give me attention

I’m addicted to myself

I need it want it can’t stand it

Give it up

I’m an attention whore listen up

Just look at me

Listen to me

Give it to me now

Give me stimulation

Give me pleasure

Give me attention

I’m addicted to myself

"Gravity"

I’m riding on a high

Feeling like I’m on top

And here it comes

Bringing me down to earth

You keep pulling me down like gravity

I could face anything

Feeling so empowered

And then it breaks

As I just crash and burn

You keep pulling me down like gravity

Can’t you see, if you’re up then I’m down

You’re the ying, I’m the yang in this game

You’re the one, who keeps me on the ground

And I know, with you I’m just the same

I keep making headway

In this eternal climb

And then I fall

To start over again

You keep pulling me down like gravity

I’m reaching for the sky

I keep all my goals high

And then I see

That they’re all out of reach

You keep pulling me down like gravity

Can’t you see, if you’re up then I’m down

You’re the ying, I’m the yang in this game

You’re the one, who keeps me on the ground

And I know, with you I’m just the same

Pull me down, pull me down

It’s the only way I’ll keep perspective

Pull me down, pull me down

Without you’d I’d just float away

Pull me down, pull me down

Your negativity is subjective

Pull me down, pull me down

Without you’d I would lose my way

Just keep pulling me down like gravity

Acceptance

I’m looking for your approval

I’m waiting to hear the truth

Something to set me straight

To let me know what is right

I’m begging for your approval

I need to be accepted

To feel like I belong

I need to feel acceptance

I sit here, begging

I ache for understanding

I don’t want to be alone

I don’t want to feel alone

I need to, touch you

I can’t shake this emotion

I can’t stand to be alone
I can’t stand to feel alone

I look to you for your approval

I look to you for your love

I look to you for your approval

I look to you for emotion

I’m looking for your approval

I’m waiting to hear the truth

Something to set me straight

To let me know what is right

I’m begging for your approval

I need to be accepted

To feel like I belong

I need to feel acceptance

I’m need emotion

I can’t escape I need truth

little self-indulgence

won’t be enough for me now

I need to hear some approval

I just need to feel your love

to hear you accept me

I need to hear you love me

I’m looking for your approval

I’m waiting to hear the truth

Something to set me straight

To let me know what is right

I’m begging for your approval

I need to be accepted

To feel like I belong

I need to feel acceptance

"Censored"

I need to get something off my chest

My heart and soul are under distress

This is building up inside my heart

I don’t know where I should start

I’m sorry but I won’t be polite

I have to say what I feel is right

I so don’t care how it makes you feel

I’m sick and tired of your deal

I’m not here to be censored

I’m gonna say what I want say what I feel

I don’t need your approval to say what I want to say

I won’t be censored
I won’t be silenced
I won’t be censored

I won’t be silenced

I’ve prioritized me life for you

Now I think it’s time that we were through

You never could do the same for me

I guess I finally see

Was it just too much for me to ask

I finally see this couldn’t last

I’ve over playing these games with you

It’s not longer about you

I’m not here to be censored

I’m gonna say what I want to say what I feel

I don’t need your approval to say what I want to say

I won’t be censored

I won’t be silenced

I won’t be censored…

You trash you’re a waste, you think everyone should kiss your ass

You narcissistic psychopathic deviant

I’ve lost my patience for you

You’ve fucked me over for the last time I’m sick of being played

You’ve tried to hold my tongue afraid you’d hear the truth

I’ve lost my patience for you

…I won’t be silenced

I’m not here to be censored

I’m gonna say what I want to say what I feel

I don’t need your approval to say what I want to say

I’m not here to be censored

I’m gonna say what I want to say what I feel

I’m not here to be censored

I’m not here to be censored

I won’t be censored

I won’t be censored

I won’t be

I won’t

"Things I Never Had (Hikaru)"

An illusion, disillusion

A dream that was never mine

I gave everything up for you

And what did I loose, what did I gain

A fantasy, reality

Everyone wants what I have

I’d give it all up just so I

Can have what they have, I’d take the trade

The choices I thought I made

You made them for me

I’m longing for things I never had

I gave up my youth for dreams

That were never mine

I’m longing for things I never had

A partnership, unorthodox

You were always there for me

But not in the natural way

Do you regret it, it’s too late now

You wanted it, and I gave it

The life I live was all for you

I’d give it all up just so I

Can start all over, to get it right

The choices I thought I made

You made them for me

I’m longing for things I never had

I gave up a life I should

Have had all along

I’m longing for things I never had

I made everyone happy

I put a smile on my face so they think I’m happy too

I’ve played this game for so long

I‘ve started to believe that this lie has become my truth

The choices I thought I made

You made them for me

I’m longing for things I never had

I gave up my youth for dreams

That were never mine

I’m longing for things I never had

I gave up a life I should

Have had all along

I’m longing for things I never had

"Spoiled"

Arrogant Ignorant Deviant Sycophant

I’m tired of keeping the peace

With your mind games causing war

When you’re not at the center of it all

My world becomes a hell

I can’t help your mother lied

And your father gave you up

You’ve let your heart get twisted with hate

It’s tough, it’s life, suck it up

You’re a 20 something

Spoiled brat

White trash

If it didn’t come for free

You’d be living on the street

You’re such a hypocrite

Spoiled brat

White trash

You’re keep preaching love and peace

But your heart is rotting out

Arrogant Ignorant Deviant Sycophant

I’ve held my tongue for too long

Everyone said to just be nice

After everything that I’ve done for you

You still insult me like this

I was a dumb defending you

Why bother with saving face

When you still take for granted everything

You never deserved such grace

You’re a 20 something

Spoiled brat

White trash

If it didn’t come for free

You’d be living on the street

You’re such a hypocrite

Spoiled brat

White trash

You keep preaching love and peace

But your heart is rotting out

Arrogant Ignorant Deviant Sycophant

Don’t pretend you have my back

With a knife firm in your hand