"That Call"

I light a cigarette
I watch it burn to the end
I feel no different than before
What am I asking for?

I'm pushing... pushing...

I ache for understanding

but the words won't come out

I can't write these words...

there's so much I want to say with this

but I can't concentrate

I keep waiting for that call

To have a chance to say the things

I can’t find the words to explain

I keep waiting for that call

My phone sits there and never rings

The feeling makes me go insane

I take shots for the burn

I drink until there’s no more

Now I just feel worse than before

What am I looking for?

I’m begging… begging…

For you to just make that call

Put me on the spot and

Make me speak my mind

There’s so much I need to say to you

But I can’t formulate

I keep waiting for that call

To have a chance to say the things

I can’t find the words to explain

I keep waiting for that call

My phone sits there and never rings

The feeling makes me go insane

There are so many letters unsent

Make that call so I have to explain