"Hiding"

Once we were cool

We didn’t care, we were in love

Now I’m hearing you aren’t the same

When I’m not around

I read your face

I know you well, I feel it too

You’re playing games with my head

Cause you know I know

What are you hiding

What don’t you want me to know

What are you hiding

Is it time for me to go

I’m tired of trying to figure you out

Freaking out when you’re avoiding me

What are you hiding

What don’t you want me to know

Once we were fine

I got over it, I learned to deal

You got sloppy and it went wrong

We’re back in this game

You shut me out

The resentment, and the fear grows

I find myself wondering are you

Worth it any more

What are you hiding

What don’t you want me to know

What are you hiding

Is it time for me to go

I’m tired of trying to figure you out

Freaking out when you’re avoiding me

What are you hiding

What don’t you want me to know

"Insecurities"

You came to me

And I told you too much

I thought you were a friend

I didn’t see what you had planned

You held me close

And made me believe lies

Destructed everything

I knew so you could have your way

Shame on you

For playing on my insecurities

You knew every word to say

To make me feel the way you wanted me to

Shame on me

For telling you my insecurities

I gave you every tool you’d need

To break me down and take advantage of me

I had someone

Who loved me despite my faults

You used that against me

Turning my fears against that love

So shame on you

And I guess so shame on me

I let you in and you

Committed the crime against my heart

Shame on you

For playing on my insecurities

You knew every word to say

To make me feel the way you wanted me to

Shame on me

For telling you my insecurities

I gave you every tool you’d need

To break me down and take advantage of me

Your selfish plan

You only cared for yourself

You didn’t care about anyone else

I hope you enjoy your time alone

I walked away

Seeing the truth finally

Now I’m here trying to repair mistakes

Regretting you and your selfish game

"Loneliness"

So this is loneliness

Sitting here in the dark

Why am I playing this part?

So this is loneliness

Don’t you know I’m lonely?

Can’t you hear me, I’m lonely

Sitting here with my computer

And an empty bottle of Russian gasoline

My feelings roll over me like thunder

More intense with every thought

Would anyone miss me if I were gone

Or would time pass by and carry on

My thoughts become my own worst enemy

When I’m alone they need to be a friend

So this is loneliness

Sitting here in the dark

Why am I playing this part?

So this is loneliness

Don’t you know I’m lonely?

Can’t you hear me, I’m lonely

Those words you said to me that day

Still burn every thought that’s in my head

If your intention then was to hurt me

You don’t know how much you’ve won

I sit alone with my thoughts every night

They’re still there when I turn on the light

Nobody could ever say anything

That could take this feeling away from me

So this is loneliness

Sitting here in the dark

Why am I playing this part?

So this is loneliness

Don’t you know I’m lonely?

Can’t you hear me, I’m lonely

I'm calling out

Screaming inside my head

Someone notice me struggling

I'm drowning within myself

I'm calling out

The waves wash over me

Would you notice me laying there

Or walk by not seeing me

"Anywhere For You"

When you’re sad and lonely

I’ll see the first tear fall

And when you call for help

I’ll be the first to hear it

And when you’re getting colder

I’ll be there to keep you warm

As long as you hold me

When I’m there like you

And I will prove my love for you

Honest and always true

And I’ll do whatever it takes

To make you see the truth

I’ll run anywhere for you

I’ll go anywhere for you

When you’re lost and weary

I’ll walk along with you

And when you slip and fall

I’ll give you a hand to hold

I will throw down a life line

As long as you love me

When I’m there like you

And I can prove my love for you

Honest and always true

And I’ll do whatever it takes

To make you see the truth

I’ll run anywhere for you

I’ll go anywhere for you

To a far away land

The farthest place away

To the bottom of the ocean

Or near the sky

I’ll follow you anywhere

That you life may take you

You only need to confirm

That you love me too

I’ll run anywhere for you

I’ll go anywhere for you

Just let me go with you

"Start This War"

You didn’t think before you spoke

Opened your mouth to find your foot

Whatever you wanted to achieve

Has now backfired back in your face

So you expected me to choke

Turn to run and then flee on foot

I guess you’re really that naive

But I’m ready now just in case

I didn’t want to start this fight

But when I’ve been attacked

We’ll start this war

I shouldn’t have defended you

But I did now you’re fighting me

Now you see I’m not here alone

So I guess we’ve caught you off guard

This isn’t what you’d want for you

Even now you’re too blind to see

Everything you have will be gone

Leaving you without a regard

I didn’t want to start this fight

But when I’ve been attacked

We’ll start this war

You’re wanna fight with me in sight

But when I’ve been attacked

We’ll start this war

I took you in when you were weak

Gave you everything without thought

Now you’re after me for a crime

I did my time without a cry

You have something to say so speak

You’re game is up and you’ve been caught

Running your mouth all of the time

But to my face you’d rather die

I didn’t want to start this fight

But when I’ve been attacked

We’ll start this war

You’re wanna fight with me in sight

But when I’ve been attacked

We’ll start this war

We’ll disregard stupidity

But when I’ve been attacked

We’ll start this war

"Don't Lie To Me"

I thought we had an understanding

Trust and honesty

Guess I had the misunderstanding

Can we still have our little secrets?

We have been to hell and back again

Equally guilty

And now I feel the same way again

Did you understand our mistakes?

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?
I’ve known you long enough to see the signs

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?

No one knows but I read between the lines

Don’t lie to me, don’t lie to me

Don’t lie to me, don’t lie to me

You say it’s the one thing you won’t deal

With is a liar

So is that thing just a one way deal

Where was I when that was agreed?

I’ve committed my own crimes to you

Feeling this way

But I’ve learned my lesson and promised you

I wouldn’t go that path again!

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?

You know I’m not blissfully unaware

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?

Is what I’m asking for really that rare?

Do you believe what you don’t say won’t hurt me?

Did you think that deleting your history undoes your crime?

You’re wrong for that, can’t take it back

Just tell the truth, don’t lie to me

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?
I’ve known you long enough to see the signs

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?

No one knows but I read between the lines

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?

You know I’m not blissfully unaware

Why do you feel you have to lie to me?

Is what I’m asking for really that rare?

Don’t lie to me, don’t lie to me

Don’t lie to me, don’t lie to me

Introduction

I use to post my lyrics and poems on Facebook, but since certain people are highly annoyed by me sharing these...and I quote "Stop writing pity party letters ....stop posting whiney ass shit."

Writing has always been therapeutic for me, and has often help me stop saying things to people that could ruin peoples lives, so people should be grateful I use this outlet instead of taking things out on them.

When I write, it starts from a personal experience, but as the process develops it moves from autobiographical to biographical.    The emotion that sparks the creativity only begins the process and I have to draw from the stories and experiences of others to finish the process.

I chose to title this blog "electric forest" because I wanted to represent the part of all of us that is organic and the part of us that is synthetic.  We ourselves are from nature but many of our influences are man made or man inflicted.  With that theory all of my words come from my own "electric forest."

I end this introduction with this statement:  "If you don't want to read this stuff, then don't, then you'll have nothing to complain about!"