Devour

The things you don’t know

You’ll never see

They’re killing me

I’ll jump off a bridge

Just to be free

The things you don’t know

You’ll never see

They’re killing me 

The pain, the anxiety 

The thing you can’t understand

The darkness eating me inside out

The lies, what they said was true

Illusions, is what you told me 

You don’t understand what’s eating me

Devouring

It’s devouring

It’s devouring me

It’s devouring me and

It’s devouring me and you

So just what is pure

What’s bullshit?

It’s killing me

I’ll end all of it

To release me

Of the right and wrong 

I regret that 

I let them in

The lies, the realizations

The confusion while you

Put it together and understand 

The pain, while still loving you. 

Fantasies,  that won’t come true here

No one knows what is torturing me

Devouring

It’s devouring

It’s devouring me

It’s devouring me and

It’s devouring me and you

Alive

Eating me alive

Sucking

My soul from me

Taking

Me from myself

Lying

While I do the same

Devouring

It’s devouring

It’s devouring me

It’s devouring me and

It’s devouring me and you

Unworthy

I want love

But I’m unworthy

My last experiences have told me

On the matter

But I want it

I desire

I need it

Days and days of solitude

Enjoying nothing but myself

It’s wonderful 

Continually my refuge

I found steel peace with just myself 

Oh how blissful. 

I’m happy but incomplete

Can anyone complete the feat 

Of closing the circle and completing me?

I want love

But I’m unworthy

My last experiences have told me

On the matter

But I want it

I desire

I need it

Dreams and dreams of fantasy

Waking up hoping it was real 

Not so forgetful

My goal I can’t ever see

Emotions I will never feel

It’s so painful. 

I’m alive but seeking more

Wide eyed but still empty inside 

Can anyone fill me with what I’m missing ?

I want love

But I’m unworthy

My last experiences have told me

On the matter

But I want it

I desire

I need it

Unworthy.    That’s what I tell me

Incomplete.   That’s how I feel now

And worn out, is how they left me. 

I need to rest, I’m tired

I’ve given so much of myself 

Cant appreciate? I’ll reevaluate! 

I want love

But I’m unworthy

My last experiences have told me

On the matter

But I want it

I desire

I need it

Don’t Get In My Way

I tossed your Tiffany engagement ring

Somewhere in Delaware

As if I cared. 

I was running away

I had nothing to say 

You weren’t right for me

I still had the world to see

Stop, yield.  

Don’t merge in my lane 

I’m waiting for the signal to change

Don’t get in my way

So much wasted time

I’ve ran out of words to rhyme

You’re no good for me

And I’m better off... without you

You thought in the beginning you’d blind me

But my eyes adjusted 

To what was true. 

I was finding myself

Without anything left

You captured my past 

Thinking i would never last 

No, don’t,

You’re not worth my time 

I’m waiting for a chance to rise now

Don’t get in my way

So much wasted time

I’ve ran out of words to rhyme

You’re no good for me

And I’m better off... without you

Continual disappointments

In the name of “love”

But I’m a stubborn Taurus

Don’t get in my way

So much wasted time 

I forget to question why

I struggle with it

Why I’m better off...  without you

A Moment of Clarity

I see the truth

For what it is

I wasn’t good enough yet I still am

You lied on everything 

A perfect husband

A good lover

You never lived up 

To any of those promises. 

These moments of truth we said

Foolish dreams that I chased too long for you 

The truth and the lies

It’s neither here or there 

Now I’m aware of it  

A moment of clarity

Even if it doesn’t make sense right now. 

The truth and the lies

Behind your fantasy

I’m finally awake. 

I know the truth

And here it is

No one is ever good enough still I

Try and try and try

Notice me see me realize

I’m good enough

I refuse to believe it now

The old lies that held my self esteem down 

For better or worse

You words do not matter

Now that I know they’re fake 

A moment of clarity

Even if it doesn’t make sense right now. 

The truth and the lies

Behind your fantasy

I’m finally awake.