Not That Anyone Here Cares

I hit my head against the hardest thing

That I’ve ever come across

Its You

And I learned so much about you and I

Despite all your charms my loss 

Is you. 

You’re not here

You’re not there

You’ve never been any where

I’m not yours

I never was 

Not that any one here cares. 

New steps

New lives 

Leaving the past

So one could last

New steps

New lives

Leaving the right past

So one could last 

I was unaware of Deceit

Until I let you in and

Found you

I was a fool naive to assholes

But then I showed up and I

Found you. 

I’m not here

I’m not there 

I’ve never been anywhere

You weren’t mine

You never were. 

Not that anyone here cares

New steps

New lives 

Leaving the past

So one could last

New steps

New lives

Leaving the right past

So one could last 

We weren’t here

We weren’t there

We’ve never been anywhere 

We shared time

Just an affair

Not that anyone here cares.  

New steps

New lives 

Leaving the past

So one could last

New steps

New lives

Leaving the right past

So one could last 

Never Be Back Again

Say this and say that 

I’m in circles

An eternal repeat 

It goes on and on 

Round and round

Lies with lies

I’m breaking the cycle 

Just because we were

Doesn’t mean that we are

You’re gone

And I’m fine

You’ll never be back again

You’ve shown 

That it’s time 

You’ll never be back again. 

You were Prince Charming

And delusion

Meant to haunt my future

It’s done here and now 

Facts and acts

This and that

I’m breaking the cycle

Pretending you care

Doesn’t mean you were fair

It’s done

Your love crime

You’ll never be back again 

I’ve grown

It’s a sign 

You’ll never be back again 

Nobody’s perfect

But you were wrong for me

So I did reject 

The idea we could be 

Right and wrong

Love or lust

I’m breaking the cycle 

You’re gone

And I’m fine

You’ll never be back again

You’ve shown 

That it’s time 

You’ll never be back again. 

It’s done

Your love crime

You’ll never be back again 

I’ve grown

It’s a sign 

You’ll never be back again 

This Wolf Will Slay

I’m done with bullshit.

And perceived idiocies

I’ve never been a sheep but

This wolf will slay.  

Prey on the weak

Attack the strong

This is wild

Just like our world

Reality

It’s tragic and honest

Despite our best wishes

A Fantasy

A lie but would be best 

But I’m caught here restless 

Crazy lazy simple fool 

You sit there with no excuse

So why do you do what you do 

When you should just refuse.  

You played me far too long 

Believing in fantasies. 

And I was once asleep but 

This wolf will slay

Prey on the weak

Attack the strong

This is wild

Just like our world

And Honestly

Did you think I’d be kind

When you had tortured me. 

So truthfully. 

Inside of my own mind 

Despite your lies I can see

An Ignorant sycophant. 

Looking in the mirror now

Is it you or my arrogance 

More than I would allow 

I let you be too strong 

Now we will face realities 

I wont be that weak but 

This wolf will slay. 

Prey on the weak

Attack the strong

This is wild

Just like our world

Lips

Lips to kiss

Lips to feel

Lips that want to explore you. 

I’m not in love

This is lust

I just want you feel you

Against me

Could you be that something more

Than a spark in the night

We shall see shouldn’t we

You’re something special

But a fly by night stranger

You want in but I’m secure

Locked and loaded

For anyone else that can break my heart 

But here you are with...

Lips to kiss

Lips to feel

Lips that want to explore you. 

I rise above 

In self trust

What do I want to do 

That’s for me

This idea was here before 

Love in a perfect light 

We shall see shouldn’t we 

Who are you and I

A one night stand that lingers

Inside of me deep inside

Ready to burst

We aren’t right for each other in this life

But here you are with...

Lips to kiss

Lips to feel

Lips that want to explore you. 

A simple man once said simply

I know what I want

And what I want is you

But I’m not simple or that man

But here you are with...

Lips to kiss

Lips to feel

Lips that want to explore you. 

A Single Voice

You were the one

A foolish fairy tale

But you’re not here

I can’t tell you 

How you screwed my life up 

But you can’t hear

What I’d tell you 

Between the left and right 

I’m here despite of it

I’m fighting

I’m willing 

To fuck it all up. 

A single voice

Can ruin everything

Everything you

Still hold true

A single voice

Can ruin everything 

That you can do

And we’re through. 

In solitude 

Our lives were to just be

Factually pure 

But it was wrong. 

Words that good enough. 

What’s left to fear 

Just what is true 

Between the right and wrong

I’m here despite it

I’m ready 

I am able

To fuck it all up. 

Inside the in between 

I can see it clearly 

I’m wounded 

I’m wanting

To fuck it all up

A single voice

Can ruin everything

Everything you

Still hold true

A single voice

Can ruin everything 

That you can do

And we’re through. 

Despite you

In spite of me

I will vocalize 

The rights and wrong

And truth and lies

I will vocalize

A single voice

Can ruin everything

Everything you

Still hold true

A single voice

Can ruin everything 

That you can do

And we’re through. 

Won’t Give Up

I’m here alone 

Trying to hold on

To a Chance I’ll be found

But I have lost every hope

It’s all but gone

My hope is just done

There is no common ground 

How does a romantic cope 

A chance a chance

Someone’s still out there 

In that darkness

I stumble 

Trying to find my way to you.  

The fantasy of true love

The hope of eternity

Keeps me trying 

I won’t give up

The chances of true love

The dream of eternity

Keeps me trying

I won’t give up. 

On you on me

I’d place bets on us

I am that confident 

That this is a guarantee. 

What a dream

Lovers and the lust

But what Is relevant 

It’s still just a fantasy

A dream a dream

That you would love me

In that darkness

I stumble 

Trying to find my way to you.

The fantasy of true love

The hope of eternity

Keeps me trying 

I won’t give up

The chances of true love

The dream of eternity

Keeps me trying

I won’t give up. 

I’m assigned for my self

To live alone

To die alone

No family or friend by my side

It’s a generation

It’s a culture

It’s what I was born into

I’ve got hope in my self 

To find someone

To be happy

Choices of family by my side 

It’s a generation

It’s a culture

It’s what I was born into

I’ve got hope in my self 

The fantasy of true love

The hope of eternity

Keeps me trying 

I won’t give up

The chances of true love

The dream of eternity

Keeps me trying

I won’t give up. 

Trying to Adjust

I’m twitchy

Like an addict

There’s so much I want to say

But I can’t find the damn words 

What can be said

About where we are

Who we are now

It’s a fools guess

In the here and now

We shift and shuffle

Trying to adjust 

To the here and now

I twist and tumble 

Trying to adjust 

It’s fuzzy

What is real

Who were we then on that day 

When we became these strangers 

You’re not so bad

And I’m not that kind

I can’t so sad

I wasn’t wrong 

In the here and now

We shift and shuffle

Trying to adjust 

To the here and now

I twist and tumble 

Trying to adjust 

To a new normal

Without your foolishness 

I’m better off single

I won’t be formal

Fuck off this ignorance 

These dreams can now crumble

In the here and now

We shift and shuffle

Trying to adjust 

To the here and now

I twist and tumble 

Trying to adjust 

Awaiting The Dawn

Flickering lights

A swollen face

No one knows

How he got here

Those secret fights

Just for a chase

With no shows

What is this fear

You look away but it’s okay

So do I

When I look in the mirror

It’s fine I’ll live another day 

So then why

Cry looking in the mirror 

Those times where hard but are gone

I’m not that man any more

I saw it throughout it all 

I’m here awaiting the dawn

Songs of the birds

Light is in view

Who is he

In my eyesight 

He says my words 

What do I do

Why is he

Filled with such might

He seems so familiar to see

Is he I?

If I do not look backwards

I want that future just for me 

No more lies.

If I do not look backwards

Those times where hard but are gone

I’m not that man any more

I saw it throughout it all 

I’m here awaiting the dawn

You found me in the sunlight

Betrayed me midday

And by dusk you ran off

I wandered time with no sight

With no voice to say

You don’t care about loss

Those times where hard but are gone

I’m not that man any more

I saw it throughout it all 

I’m here awaiting the dawn

元気ですか (How Are You)

Remember me?

Or can you not forget

For the right reasons

Or my mistakes

2010 isn’t 2020

Nor am I 

You don’t find me fondly

But you don’t know me

Stuck in a moment in time

Forged in stone illusions

I exist for you

But that was years ago

I’m no longer cast in that role

I lived through that

Just like you but

On the other side

I lived through that

Just like you but 

元気ですか

Thanks for asking 

Im still healing from you 

It is mutual. 

どこにいますか

In your recovery

Over me?

You don’t find me fondly

But what of it now

Does it matter who was wrong

Or was right nowadays 

A scapegoat we were

For each other back then

Out of the darkness now we’re here 

I lived through that

Just like you but

On the other side

I lived through that

Just like you but 

元気ですか

大丈夫ですか？ この治癒は容易ではありません。 私はそれを強く演奏しますが、私は優しいです。 これは意味がありますか？ 任意の言語で。

どこに立つ (Doko ni tatsu)

Foolish times and simple crimes 

Hopeful dreams and desired chances 

It always fails in the end

Because I shouldn’t be here

With you

Yet here we are 

I’m in handcuffs

Wondering how I’m going to call my mother

You’re talking fast

I fear the worst 

This moment could be my ever after forever 

Flippantly playing at life

Will slap you in the face

It hurts when it does

Doko ni tatsu.  (どこに立つ)

Foolish times and simple crimes 

Hopeful dreams and desired chances 

It always fails in the end

Because I shouldn’t be here

With you

Damn damn damn it

I’m living life 

Filled with regrets of 30 some odd years but still

I love you fool

Whoever now

Is the idiot who fits into that position. 

Flippantly playing at life

Will slap you in the face

It hurts when it does

Doko ni tatsu.  (どこに立つ)

Laughing while I just cry now

Because the future isn’t enough 

Here and now or without you. 

Since it does not make sense 

Without you. 

Foolish times and simple crimes 

Hopeful dreams and desired chances 

It always fails in the end

Because I shouldn’t be here

With you

(私と一緒でなければどこに立つの？)

Watashi to isshodenakereba doko ni tatsu no?

This Is Dumb/Cracker

You want a chance

Just a start

A moment on this 

Anything to be close

I reach closer to you

Yet you pull away

I try to extend again. 

And I excite

Foolish fools try to say

Just what lie we should be

Empty hearts tell the lies

That tell us where we went wrong 

Blah. 

This is dumb. 

Fuck this dumb bullshit

Your bigotry and ignorance

I played it nice 

But you won’t let me be so

Fuck this redneck shit

The hatred and foolishness 

I played it nice

But you won’t let me be so...

I’m going to be myself

A cracker bastard who won’t let go

Of all the bull shit everyone’s been through

I want a choice

In my star. 

A man that I could kiss. 

Anything to be close 

I’d do anything for you 

You don’t understand 

I try again just for you 

As I exit 

Ignorance lives till this day. 

What delusions should be

Vacant souls hear the cries

Of those of us who are gone 

Damn

This is dumb

Fuck this dumb bullshit

Your bigotry and ignorance

I played it nice 

But you won’t let me be so

Fuck this redneck shit

The hatred and foolishness 

I played it nice

But you won’t let me be so...

I’m going to be myself

A cracker bastard who won’t let go

Of all the bull shit everyone’s been through

I tried to be simple 

But In the background 

Behind a love story

Was racism so systematic 

I couldn’t handle it 

He was cute and he was dumb 

But I couldn’t join another racist

While giving myself away

And that’s how it ends

Fuck this dumb bullshit

Your bigotry and ignorance

I played it nice 

But you won’t let me be so

Fuck this redneck shit

The hatred and foolishness 

I played it nice

But you won’t let me be so...

I’m going to be myself

A cracker bastard who won’t let go

Of all the bull shit everyone’s been through