Feelings

 Feelings

I wanted something special

You showed up 

Even if you don’t stand out 

You do something for me

You do something I don’t know 

Is this love

Is this lust

Or just an attempt to understand 

Who are you

What is this 

Feelings

Under the sheets

Between us 

Feelings

We don’t deny

A real deal. 

I love the idea of you 

It’s simple

You’re my hero I hope

We can connect cosmically. 

I want to connect with you 

Is this real

Or surreal 

Who are we but opportunities 

Just to love

And be real 

Feelings

Under the sheets

Between us 

Feelings

We don’t deny

A real deal. 

On the bright side

I don’t know you 

But I feel you

And when I flip

Just who are you 

You just feel true 

Feelings

Under the sheets

Between us 

Feelings

We don’t deny

A real deal.

Do you or did you ever 

Have feelings for me

Could you have ever 

Loved me

I want it raw

 I Want It Raw

The games we play 

Love and romance 

Are vailed substitutes

For what we want to do

I could continue to project

Naivety but let’s be real 

I’m a kinky mother fucker

But what about us

Lay one of us down

Chain is up

And let the other have his way 

In the dawn

In the dark 

I want it raw

I want it right 

And right now

All I want

Is what is real 

I want it right 

The tales we tell

Love and the lies 

Hide the truth somewhere 

It doesn’t matter cause 

I’m owning myself aight 

I’m no Angel in this life

Just a deviant bringing shame 

Let’s be clear here love

I might bottom but

Im on top

And let’s someone say something 

In the dawn

In the dark 

I want it raw

I want it right 

And right now

All I want

Is what is real 

I want it right 

If you don’t hold me down

I’ll lit you up

Ignore the stereotypical 

Bullshit alright 

In the dawn

In the dark 

I want it raw

I want it right 

And right now

All I want

Is what is real 

I want it right 

Maybe One Day Baby

Who are you mister stranger 

Working your way into my life 

Tell me more about yourself 

And why I should acknowledge you

Say you’ll make love to and flip me over

Say you’ll protect me in the dark

That sounds amazing but Is it real

I don’t think so but it sound amazing 

It’s it wrong I’m dreaming of you

You’re a call away but I’m apprehensive 

I don’t want to ruin things 

So I’m all but digging my heels in. 

Maybe one day baby 

Everything will be everything

Maybe one day baby

Trust and lust will be love and more

Why do I feel like this sir

Like I need you in me… my life 

Serve it raw in your own words

Why you should be here with me love

Promise ecstasy like a deviant 

And I’ll just  follow you around 

Because compassion sounds amazing 

Especially from you.  I want to touch. 

Is it wrong when I service myself 

You’re a fantasy I don’t know but you’re welcome 

I don’t want to be the one that

Ruins so much shit for showing heart

Maybe one day baby 

Everything will be everything

Maybe one day baby

Trust and lust will be love and more

The dream 

The facts 

The fantasy

Is one in the same 

若い愛の歌 (Song of Young Love)

 若い愛の歌

(Wakai Ai no Uta)

What is clarity

And understanding. 

Without saying 

I want you here 

Not just any one 

But you fool 

Damn you 

Is it wrong to say 

I love you. 

At first light 

The animals go wild

And so do I for you

Despite it all 

I want you 

Need you crave you 

Damn you. 

*primal scream*

Why should I trust you 

Words are just some lies 

I ignore dear 

And what of it 

I won’t be alone 

Despite you 

Crave it

And my soul wants it

Everyday. 

In the interim 

I’m wide open

The second ish

Its bullshit . 

As cute as you are

So you know your place

In this Allegory

Just fuck it up dear

The echo in the noise 

and right now

The sun shines 

On a victory

Or a fairytale

But what do you know. 

What can I say

Beating around a bush

Gets us no where 

Forever 

Eye Colour

 Eye Colour 

What colour were her eyes

She came and went like a song

That I wish I could get to know

But I’ll never know it’s far too gone 

Were they brown

Deep with the idea

Of understanding 

Or just green

Brilliance unseen

And the question is 

Why can’t I see it clearer

I stared in her eyes

It felt like an eternity

But I don’t know can’t say 

What colour were her eyes

She came and went like a song

That I wish I could get to know

But I’ll never know it’s far too gone 

If they’re blue

I must have forgot

Like my daddy’s eyes

I see gray

In my memories 

Foggy times in life 

Why can’t I see it clearer

I stared in her eyes

It felt like an eternity

But I don’t know can’t say 

What colour were her eyes

She came and went like a song

That I wish I could get to know

But I’ll never know it’s far too gone 

In the sun

They shined just like gold 

Simmering for you 

They were clear

My dear who are you

At the end what is true 

Why can’t I see it clearer

I stared in her eyes

It felt like an eternity

But I don’t know can’t say 

What colour were her eyes

She came and went like a song

That I wish I could get to know

But I’ll never know it’s far too gone 

I wish I wish I wish

I knew her

More about her

But to see her face

Look in her eyes

And know 

It’s That

 It’s That 

Dusty and thirsty

I’m crawling in your DMs

Way after hours

Because of some other shit

I smoke or drank

It doesn’t matter what 

Here I am 

Gimme gimme gimme

Attention and some stimulation 

Hold me have me love me 

Despite me I want adoration 

(Let me tell you what I know 

About addiction

Once it holds you 

It never lets go)

It’s a mistress 

That never seems to leave

It’s a secret

That everyone believes 

It’s a phantom

That lives on forever 

Like an anime 

It’s brilliant and clever 

Trying to dust off

I’m ashamed of that fool

After all this time 

I was a tool of that what 

I smoke or drank

But those are excuses 

Here I am

Love me love me love me

Despite my flaws they are many 

Respect comfort and be

Enough for me just be lovely 

(Let me tell you what I know 

About addiction

Once it holds you 

It never lets go)

It’s a mistress 

That never seems to leave

It’s a secret

That everyone believes 

It’s a phantom

That lives on forever 

Like an anime 

It’s brilliant and clever 

Gimme gimme gimme

It’s never enough 

Hold me have me love me 

It’s that constant need

Love me love me love me

I can’t get enough 

Respect comfort and be

What I’ll always need 

It’s a mistress 

That never seems to leave

It’s a secret

That everyone believes 

It’s a phantom

That lives on forever 

Like an anime 

It’s brilliant and clever 

Let me tell you what I know 

About addiction

Once it holds you 

It never lets go

Within The Hour

 

I just craved you once 

and here you are still In my heart

In my mind wrecking havoc 

I don’t know anything beyond us

What is that feeling I felt 

When you betrayed me. 

Beyond the noise 

I want to be heard 

I need some one to love me

Or I’m gone within the hour 

Give me something 

Worthy of love I’m not enough. 

It’s Destroying my existence 

What is this feeling that you’re giving 

And why should I care my dear 

You’re so out of frame 

Beyond the noise 

I want to be heard 

I need some one to love me

Or I’m gone within the hour 

In the minutes

I’m minuscule

In the seconds

I’m beyond reprehend

The Last One

 The Last One 

Save me I’m drowning. 

Can you see me

Hear me

Or am I just noise 

After all this time. 

My actions are reactions 

From foolish antics 

But no one knows

The start but

I know how it ends 

I was abused and ignored

Assaulted and forgotten

Loved and abandoned 

Taken advantage of

Like someone who doesn’t matter

And to the last one

Who will read this

Hear this feel this

You were too late. 

Help my I’m trying 

Do you feel me 

Love me

Like one of your toys 

It’s past your bedtime 

What Twisted perceptions 

Are our reactions

But know one cares

The source but 

I know how it ends. 

I was abused and ignored

Assaulted and forgotten

Loved and abandoned 

Taken advantage of

Like someone who doesn’t matter

And to the last one

Who will read this

Hear this feel this

You were too late. 

Are you okay

Seeing this

Hearing this

Presented this 

Being complacent

With suicide 

The end of things 

You don’t know ever began 

Or came to end

When it was laid down before you.  

I was abused and ignored

Assaulted and forgotten

Loved and abandoned 

Taken advantage of

Like someone who doesn’t matter

And to the last one

Who will read this

Hear this feel this

You were too late. 

Too late too late 

Off a balcony 

Too late too late

A gun to the head

Too late too late

You don’t know

Too late too late 

Too many pills 

Too late too late 

A knife a vein

Too late too late

You don’t even know