Crashing Down

 I’ve tried… that’s all, I tried

To be some kind of  super  human
Who  loves too much with skin of  steel
But now I feel drained and worn out

I let everyone take from me
A  little or a lot
Only once or all the time
And I spared feelings while feeling everything

When everything comes crashing down
its usually just me in my head
but not now, you’ll get hurt as I watch the world burn

Crashing down…
…the world burns

The problem is … it’s you
That  made me not care by just caring
Without being accounted for
Now I’m without a fuck for you

When I scorch your earth and your soul
Don’t give me any blame
When your name  bares all the shame
I’m as good as dead  before it even starts

When everything comes crashing down
its usually just me in my head
but not now, you’ll get hurt as I watch the world burn

Today will be the last day, of the last year
The last time I hold my tongue to save your feelings
…Despite my mental health

Momma Please

 

"Momma Please"

I find myself, alone and bruised
Like we’ve been abandoned and betrayed by trust
And without trust what good can you share with someone?
Anyone?

The only fix that I know never works
We fight the hurt until its done

As your last words lash against my back
All I can remember is the pain
From every time I took abuse
It's unbearable
Momma, please help me find my serenity

Momma, Momma please,
Help me find peace

Years ago, now, or this morning
I attract this treatment like a magnet can pull
But how can I block out the only thing I know
That I don’t know

From lovers to strangers it’s all the same
With old roots  older than  my years

As your last words lash against my back
All I can remember is the pain
From every time I took abuse
It's unbearable
Momma please help me find my serenity

Momma, Momma please,
Help me find peace

Free - Love

   

Don’t fuck this up

It’s simply uncomplicated

Everyone is happy with everything

It would be a shame if fairy tale lies ruined all that’s –

 

Free – Love – free – love

Just enjoying

Free – Love – free – love

I’m salivating

Free – Love – free – love

 

I don’t want that love that hurts

It’s nothing but an emotional distraction

I don’t want that love that  hates

Just a waste of time that’s full of complications

 

Don’t hold onto

The lies of love that we’ve been sold

No one’s happy, truly, living like that

So why don’t you surrender to what this is and enjoy

 

Free – Love – free – love

Just enjoying

Free – Love – free – love

I’m here and I’m thriving

Free – Love – free – love

 

I don’t want that love that lies

It’s nothing but an emotional distraction

I don’t want that love that  bleeds

Just a waste of time that’s full of complications

 

I don’t want to be in love

If a heart can break by the  time that it’s done

I don’t want a love that binds

All I want is

 

Free – Love – free – love

Just enjoying

Free – Love – free – love

I’m salivating

Free – Love – free – love

Just enjoying

Free – Love – free – love

I’m here and I’m thriving

Free – Love – free – love