This Year Will Be The Year

I’m finding the peace inside me

To leave the past behind me

Lord help me

I’m not sure I’m ready 

As much as I want to be kind

I’m still bitter

And resentful. 

This year will be the year

I say goodbye to the hate

I hope I can look at your face 

And accept it’s in the past 

God let me

To forgive and forget 

You should deserve my forgiveness 

I still resist 

It’s on you now

This year will be the year

I say goodbye to the hate

As long as I wait for an apology 

You’ll never acknowledge me

As long as I find peace

It doesn’t matter what you think

I’m now at peace despite of you 

I let go of

Waiting on you

This year will be the year

I say goodbye to the hate

No more

No more will I

No more will I hate you

I have

I have to say

I have to say it’s over

This year will be the year

I say goodbye to the hate

We Die

We live to work

We work to live 

So we survive

And then we die

It’s not a choice

Not an option

Yet we survive

So we can die 

I need a break

From the eternal back and forth

I’m worn out and want to breathe

Holding on to the dream of breaking free

Prosperity

All we put in what is the worth

Despite it I want to leave 

At the end of it all I can’t find me 

A day away, with no consequence

Where tomorrow has no regrets

I need a day where tomorrow doesn’t matter

We live to work

We work to live 

So we survive

And then we die

It’s not a choice

Not an option

Yet we survive

So we can die 

Are you awake

To the truth of our forward march

That only leads towards death

This tunnel we walk down hasn’t a light 

My past mistake

Was dressed up pretty with spray starch 

His path took me towards death 

I walked away I saw it wasn’t right 

Back to it, Commercialism 

Thirsty for the money and rest

I’ll get them both but won’t enjoy them when I die 

We live to work

We work to live 

So we survive

And then we die

It’s not a choice

Not an option

Yet we survive

So we can die 

We do it, the end is we die

We don’t think about it and then

There’s nothing but money, nothing, and wasted time 

We live to work

We work to live 

So we survive

And then we die

It’s not a choice

Not an option

Yet we survive

So we can die 

Future Awaits

Peace be with you, cause it’s not with me

Just find your calm, while I fight this storm

Maybe we will meet in the in between

While we’re both healing

And still growing.  

The future awaits us

Together or apart

Fate is inevitable 

You exude it, what I want to have 

I crave your calm, peace to keep me warm 

May I find my way to calm like you have 

And if you’re broken

I’ll comfort you

The future awaits us

Together or apart

Fate is inevitable 

I don’t know you yet but I put you on a pedestal.

Someone who is without my damage

Yet if you are wounded

We can heal together 

Because despite it all

I know that. 

The future awaits us

Together or apart

Fate is inevitable 

Won’t Chase A Ghost

A conversation with the past

I don’t want to stroke a fire that won’t last 

Yet you are poring on gasoline

Don’t you know that you won’t be mine

You only get one shot

One opportunity with me

You threw that away years ago

And I won’t chase a ghost

I know what you’re after

A thrown away opportunity 

But I don’t look back in time

For love I keep my eyes forward 

No one deserves a second chance 

Please back it up now and don’t dare advance 

Since you didn’t let me get a shot

Back then, now it’s not to be got

I’m sorry you’re lonely 

and horny, that not my problem now.

I’m all but sure what you’re craving 

But I won’t chase a ghost.

I know what you’re after

A thrown away opportunity 

But I don’t look back in time

For love I keep my eyes forward 

You could have been mine but you ran

To a world that makes you a lesser man

We could have been great back then

But I’m not who I was back then

Bless your heart rest your soul

But if it’s me you’re after go home

There’s no chance we will ever be

Since I won’t chance a ghost 

I know what you’re after

A thrown away opportunity 

But I don’t look back in time

For love I keep my eyes forward 

You’re a CANCER

I try not to be jaded

By the experiences

Time has given me

But as I “enjoy” the solitude

Bitterness crosses my tongue

I could tell the world how you did me wrong 

How you cheated, how you lied

How you left me destitute 

I won’t call you by name

But I want to. 

You were toxic, you’re a cancer

That left me changed forever 

Living life with my new normal

You’re deceitful, you’re a cancer

Despite the pain I’m better 

Living life with my new normal

It was you that I hated 

For so long I was wrong

I hated your lie

Don’t hate the player just hate his games 

Isn’t he part of the play?

You left me with your playbook of deceit 

Manipulate, drive him mad

Convince him it’s in his head 

The lies are all the same 

It’s what you do. 

You were toxic, you’re a cancer

That left me changed forever 

Living life with my new normal

You’re deceitful, you’re a cancer

Despite the pain I’m better 

Living life with my new normal

You gave me a mark on my body

That’s a reminder of your infidelity

No one knows the truth but you and I

Of how a cancer nearly ruined me

You were toxic, you’re a cancer

That left me changed forever 

Living life with my new normal

You’re deceitful, you’re a cancer

Despite the pain I’m better 

Living life with my new normal

If people only knew

Every thing I do.........

Sayonara.   Goodbye. 

Keep It A Little....

Keep it a little dirty

Keep it a little bit pure 

A little here and a little there

Get naked and give yourself to me 

I need you. 

Whoever you are

May I know you soon 

I feel what I feel

Call it horny

Or whatever

I need you, whoever you are 

It is what it is

I’m just a man

Or whatever 

I need it, you know what it is 

Keep it a little dirty

Keep it a little pure

Give me what ever I’m needing and then

Maybe we’ll both get what we’re after 

I need you

Whoever you are

May I know you soon

I’m tired of lust

I’m unfulfilled 

I’m left empty

What is Love, just a fantasy?

Is it a lie

We tell ourselves 

To feel better

In this life, I crave to believe 

Keep it a little dirty

Keep it a little pure

So just be yourself and then I can too 

I’ll give you all that you could want

I need you

Whoever you are

May I know you soon

Keep it like this 

Passion without a kiss

I’m scared of commitment

Yet I want to keep it pure

Get naked and give yourself to me

Maybe we’ll both get what we’re after 

I’ll give you all that you want ...

Keep it a little dirty

Keep it a little pure

I need you

Whoever you are

May I know you soon

The Absence (Contrail)

You set out in life 

Trying to find yourself

And you find yourself lonely

What’s missing?

You live though the strife

So you’ve gone through life without 

A real love

That moment you finally fall in love

Hold on to it, as it never lasts 

Remember how it feels 

Like a rocket in the sky thats gone

The contrail, also fades away 

Remember how it looks

The absence of it all

Makes me remember how much I miss it

That moment you finally fall in love

Just relish it, as it comes to pass 

Enjoy just how it feels

Eventually it ends and it’s done

A contrail, that has blown away

Another will come along 

The absence of it all

Makes me remember how much I miss it

Across a blue sky

A sliver of white

Disproving the absence 

There’s always one out there

A new contrail to appear and fade

Still proving the absence 

You came and went and faded away

My contrail,  that dissipated 

May I find love in your wake 

The absence of it all

Makes me remember how much I miss it

Mother (Bless You, I Love You)

The world isn’t worthy of you 

Rags to mediocrity to some

Yet you emerged from the ashes

Without a spec of the past

I want to be like you when I grow up

I hope my genes fit that wish

You taught me not to wallow in self misery

It doesn’t do us any good

I’m a romantic and imaginative 

Yet you kept one of my feet on the ground 

To some you are my mother

If they knew your story

You’d be an inspiration 

Bless you, I love you. 

My worlds better because of you

Without your guidance I would be done 

I know that you took your lashes 

You give me something to last 

I couldn’t ever repay you enough 

You should know that’s my wish 

You showed me that I could be myself despite the world 

And you’d love me no matter what 

Thank you for never giving up on me then

Even though I didn’t care you still did

To some you are my mother

If they knew your story

You’d be an inspiration 

Bless you, I love you. 

You’re my hero

My solid ground

When everything’s wrong

You’ll always be right. 

To some you are my mother

If they knew your story

You’d be an inspiration 

Bless you, I love you.