This Year Will Be The Year

I’m finding the peace inside me
To leave the past behind me
Lord help me
I’m not sure I’m ready 

As much as I want to be kind
I’m still bitter
And resentful. 

This year will be the year
I say goodbye to the hate

I hope I can look at your face 
And accept it’s in the past 
God let me
To forgive and forget 

You should deserve my forgiveness 
I still resist 
It’s on you now

This year will be the year
I say goodbye to the hate

As long as I wait for an apology 
You’ll never acknowledge me
As long as I find peace
It doesn’t matter what you think

I’m now at peace despite of you 
I let go of
Waiting on you

This year will be the year
I say goodbye to the hate

No more
No more will I
No more will I hate you
I have
I have to say
I have to say it’s over

This year will be the year
I say goodbye to the hate




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