Leela

Leela

Let me tell you about Leela

She is super friendly

Liberal with the kisses 

Loves cuddles and one on one time

She has one eye and is the love of my life 

My child my responsibility 

My cat.   A soul in my care. 

Let me tell you about Leela

She’s a little crazy 

Full of herself when I’m home. 

Hates being ignored and the dog. 

With her one eye she’s judging everyone  here

My child my responsibility. 

My cat. A soul in my care. 

Cute and silly

With no depth perception 

She’s mine until her end of time

Forever Eternal

Words are hard to put together 

To express what I really mean

I don’t even know what to say. 

I hate I’ll love forever. 

A feeling that makes me want scream 

Who are you to me on this day. 

Missed opportunities 

Lost chances at this love

Pursuits that were foolish 

Missed chances at the love

Now

Just now

We will be

Forever eternal

So

I live

In my dreams

Forever eternal. 

What happened to us forever

A lie how ever could you be so mean

You played it true until this day. 

Missed opportunities 

Lost chances at this love

Pursuits that were foolish 

Missed chances at the love

Now

Just now

We will be

Forever eternal

So

I live

In my dreams

Forever eternal. 

Greetings To The Past

Hey 8 years 

I know you lied

Cheated and stole

My innocence. 

I can’t forgive you 

The Lies stack up 

And they grow 

Greetings to the past 

I’m smarter now

I’m not to blame

Are you ashamed. 

Hey 3 years

You were damage

I can’t handle 

Your psychosis 

The life we lived but

I can’t forgive you 

Insanity

Is your truth

Greetings to the past 

I’m smarter now

I’m not to blame

Are you ashamed. 

Hello you

A moment in time 

I question why

You’re even here 

You saw me in light

And all the darkness

I regret it

But do you

Greetings to the past 

I’m smarter now

I’m not to blame

Are you ashamed. 

Dark Days... Better Days

The TV is fake news

And the internet is scary

Who’s to believe anything anymore

Trust your gut and a scientist.

What do you have to lose 

A future that can be merry?

And as we question what’s worth living for

Just do you with your best interest 

These are dark days

Pandemics and uncertainty

Don’t ignore what they say

But despite the darkness there is eternity 

Better days will come

We just have to wait it out

Fear can’t make us run 

We just have to wait it out. 

The devils a liar

And your god just doesn’t exist 

Where should I be placing my faith right now?

Besides me nothing else matters

I’ve been called a crier 

But even now I still persist.  

When I question the burdens I’ll allow 

And minds internal chatters 

These are dark days

Questioning life and eternity 

Don’t ignore what they say 

In the shadows of this I see reality 

Better days will come

We just have to wait it out

Fear can’t make us run 

We just have to wait it out. 

Buy the lies, does it make you a liar

Buy the lies, does it make you a liar

Buy the lies, does it make you a liar

Tell me now

These are dark days

Living here and now intricately

Don’t ignore what they say

It all sounds difficult but hear simplicity 

Better days will come

We just have to wait it out

Fear can’t make us run 

We just have to wait it out. 

Beyond My Finger Tips

I’m itching for something else

Something greater

It’s just beyond my finger tips

I’m itching to see another

That is better 

Yet is beyond my finger tips. 

I don’t need your bullshit

That your about to dump in my ear

I’m full of it already

And I don’t need your lies.  

These signs that I should quit 

I saw them all and they fueled my fear

That this life isn’t steady. 

Despite all of  our tries. 

We’re better off with facts

That I’m about to launch in this fight 

These are things I have to say 

So shut up and listen 

Every man has take me for a fool

And now I’m done with all of you

Sleeping with my best friend

Fooling around when I’m out of town

For every man I’ve ever called mine

I know all your crimes against me

It’s a shame I loved some of you

You’re the ones who made me a fool

If any one asks I’ll be petty 

And call you out in every detail. 

I’m itching for something else

Something greater

It’s just beyond my finger tips

I’m itching to see another

That is better 

Yet is beyond my finger tips. 

Let it go

These fingers are growing tired 

Ready to touch another 

I’m itching for something else

Something greater

It’s just beyond my finger tips

I’m itching to see another

That is better 

Yet is beyond my finger tips. 

Here We Are

Clap clap 

I’m still here 

Craving your attention. 

Snap snap

Here I fear

I won’t get understanding 

Fuck all this. 

The whole world is on its knees 

Waiting for execution

Bang bang pow

We’re all dead now so

Regret this 

Ignoring each of your pleas 

Wanting an explanation. 

Who what how 

I’m still alive to say

We could be friends

We could be enemies

We could be nothing at all 

But here we are. 

Were we lovers

Were we just opposites

We could be nothing at all 

But here we are. 

Click clack 

A horse step

Something ordinary 

Tick toc

The time says. 

Someday you’ll be extraordinary 

Let this pass

Despite desperate pleas 

For this all to end  right now

Bang bang pow. 

Forget this

And move on 

Say your words I will be free 

Needing an explanation 

Who what how. 

I’m still alive. 

Who what when and where

Who am I to you

Lover or friend or foe

I don’t know anymore. 

We could be friends

We could be enemies

We could be nothing at all 

But here we are. 

Were we lovers

Were we just opposites

We could be nothing at all 

But here we are. 

Hashtag Facts

I’m better than you

Hashtag facts

 I let you deflate me

But here I am full blown

You tried to decimate me

Yet here I am

Despite you

And your idiocy.  

You led everyone to believe 

I was a scam

You’re the fool. 

With your idiocy. 

Foolish fools never see

The truth that is told

In respite 

Is peace. 

I’m better than you

Hashtag facts

 I let you deflate me

But here I am full blown

Dispute your truth I still have

Mine in my life 

Regardless 

Of all the lies you tell 

How does it feel to live a lie. 

You are a scam

Still a fool

With your idiocy. 

Blessed souls can be blind

To lies that are sold 

Despite it

Regret it.  

I’m running out of words to say

I’m bruised and broken and

I’m forever changed by you 

I’m just trying to let all that go. 

I’m better than you 

Hashtag facts 

I let you deflate me

But here I am full blown. 

Hashtag boom and illuminate 

Thanks, But No Thanks

Erasing the past

I should be better off

But the dust remains

No Matter how much I want to be rid of you

You still survive in my memories

I’m sick of your negative influence

I’m going to be happy

Despite your negative energy

I just have to hash this out

You ignored me and you abused me

It takes a man to admit that

You were selfish and self absorbed 

And unaware of what you did to me

I hate you.   You ruined a part of me

I’ll never recover thank you but no thanks

Some things will not last

But some foolish things do

What do hearts contain

Regrets and mistakes and wishful retakes that 

I still deal with in my memories 

You were a monster that was in my bed 

I was a fool to let you stay 

But I was dumb and not aware 

I still remember what you did to me

I hate you.  You ruined a part of me. 

I’ll never recover thank you but no thanks

Oh

So

You’re at my threshold

Begging forgiveness 

You should not be here so 

Go

Anything you hold

Should be lost in this

Despite the past I say no 

Oh I missed you

Oh I wanted that

Oh you failed me

Oh I loved you

Oh but still I craved that. 

Oh you betrayed me

No

I won’t let you in

Don’t even say it

All I have to say is no

Low

How deep is your sin

I try to forget 

Why can’t I just let this go 

Oh I missed you

Oh I wanted that

Oh you failed me

Oh I loved you

Oh but still I craved that. 

Oh you betrayed me

Oh so no go low

I won’t go there

Oh no go low so

That isn’t fair

Oh go so low no

I won’t strip bare

Oh low so no go

I won’t go there. 

Oh I missed you

Oh I wanted that

Oh you failed me

Oh I loved you

Oh but still I craved that. 

Oh you betrayed me

Once

I’m here seeking something more

Than myself

A reason to live 

A person to love

And I’m in the dark

My pleas have become a bore 

So what’s left?

A job successful 

A life eventful 

So where do I start

Once just once

All I want is the chance

Once just once

All I want is romance

Once just once

Just once 

I don’t see any option 

Here and now

I live here jaded

I stand here faded

With no option left

I don’t hear an objection 

What a wow

There no rescue here

That’s all that I fear

A life without depth 

Once just once

All I want is the chance

Once just once

All I want is romance

Once just once

Just once 

I just want everything and nothing 

A partner to share the extremes

Yet your existence still avoids me

I crave love happiness and something 

That is beyond my wildest dreams

A character not in my story 

Once just once

All I want is the chance

Once just once

All I want is romance

Once just once

Just once 

What is......

Pretending I’m in love

Summer picnics 

Late night and the fireworks 

In the Sky

And in my bed. 

Who’s fooling who

My imagination is wild

And your a master at deception

Despite it all maybe we’re right for each other. 

What is love 

What is true

What is peace

And release

What is love

What is hate

What is this

Final kiss?

Why am I faking love

I could do this

Without fooling someone else 

Just like you 

Inside my head 

What do you want

I still ask myself every day

As I can bring a man to his knees 

So maybe I’ve learned a lesson or two from you.  

What is love 

What is true

What is peace

And release

What is love

What is hate

What is this

Final kiss?

I vilified you for so long

I became you. 

I want to say goodbye

But you’re imbedded 

In who I am

Even if I don’t want it

You’re there

Taunting me 

What is love 

What is true

What is peace

And release

What is love

What is hate

What is this

Final kiss?

Pay Attention

Pay attention 

To my misery 

I’ve laid it out for you.  

You ignorant fool

You’ve missed every clue

As to why we are here

And I won’t be much longer

Here we are

And here we were

Once in love

And then each other dead

What is fair

What’s the score 

Out of love

And dealing with that dread

Pay attention 

To my misery 

I’ve laid it out for you.  

You waste of a tool

You’ve missed every due

That leads to my fear 

That I won’t be much longer

Check my face

Do I still care

About you 

When I’m better off alone 

In this race

Love is a dare

Who’s a fool

When I want you to be gone. 

Life with you

Almost killed me

And it still could

Life with you

It blinded me

And it still could

Pay attention 

To my misery 

I’ve laid it out for you.  

Pay attention.

Letting It All Go

I’m better than this

The fueled hatred

I carry 

Towards you 

I should let it go 

All that hatred 

I harbor

Towards you. 

You weren’t the only one

Who ever broke my heart 

And I’ve called you many spited things 

Devil? Liar? Cheater?

You committed your crimes 

And I committed mine

No ones innocent 

We are all guilty 

Im letting it all go 

It doesn’t matter

It’s in the past

I want

Peace

I’m done with chatter

It’s been so crass

Grant re-

Lease

We could compare our crimes

But it’s a waste of time. 

No ones innocent

We’re all guilty. 

I’m letting it all go

I’m sorry

For the things I’ve said

For private things I let out in the open

I regret

Allowing myself 

To become that person who was a victim 

Since we didn’t let go

There bruises that still show 

No ones innocent

We’re all guilty. 

I’m letting it all go