Alabaster

 

There was a moment in time

I believed in fairy tales

The lies we tell ourselves

That true loves ever meant for us

Innocent and doey eyed

And unable to believe 

In true love crimes

I was

Alabaster

Porcelain 

Unblemished 

And breakable

Was who I was

Before life tarnished me

And now

I’m fragmented. 

I stand a victim, the crime 

Believing in love always fails

It’s a crime for the shelves

That matrimony is a must 

Now I’m bitter and jaded 

I can no longer receive 

Love in these times 

I was

Alabaster

Porcelain 

Unblemished 

And breakable

That’s now the past

Now ruined I can see 

Just how

Badly dreams have lied

I could sit and wait and cry it out

While I’m waiting for someone to figure it out

That’s not my place not my game 

As of now I’ll never be the same 

I’ve waited forever for the one 

But I see that hope is gone

I remember a time when because 

I was. 

Alabaster

Porcelain 

Unblemished 

And breakable

Was who I was

Before life tarnished me

And now

I’m fragmented. 

That’s now the past

Now ruined I can see 

Just how

Badly dreams have lied

Like Love

 Like Love

Do you know the meaning of love

Neither do I but I try to understand 

What it means to me for you and us

Do you comprehend what is above 

Neither can I not inside your fragment Neverland

In the nonsense madness is a plus 

Running circles running blind

Holding on to things 

That we want that don’t exist

Like love

It’s foolish

Ignorant 

What’s the truth 

Where the lie. 

But why why why 

Do you understand honest feeling

Like the basics love care and pure compassion. 

I feel it In my heart,  soul and bones 

I stand tall with all of my being 

I’ll be one who can stare at my reflection. 

Despite the past I can see out thrones 

I’m the architect right now 

Building everything 

That we want that don’t exist 

Like love

It’s foolish

Ignorant 

What’s the truth 

Where the lie. 

But why why why 

Do we lie

Do we try

To be something 

That we aren’t

Do we cry

Do we pry

In hatefulness 

When we aren’t 

Like love

It’s foolish

Ignorant 

What’s the truth 

Where the lie. 

But why why why 

Taurus

 

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

I’m trying damnit I’m trying 

To be the best lover you ever had

But do you see me, do you hear me

Can you feel me, no, you ignore me. 

I’m trying to be a lover 

Better than you’d ever know

But I’m hitting a wall. 

At this point I’m over it.    

You’re the foolish tool

You could make me happy

I’m a hopeless romantic after all 

But you’re dumb…. Dumb dumb

And I’m…. 

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

It doesn’t matter what I say 

Nothing exists now but that pinnacle. 

It’s lustful for me,  come into me

Do you see me, yet, you ignore me 

In the moments that are forever

I still love you despite 

You and your lies I try 

Right now I would give you more 

Than you’d give me so

I’m okay with myself 

I’m blind with loving that I want to share 

But it’s done… gone gone… 

And I’m…

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

Damn it 

Force it

It’s mine

So have it

Damn it

Love it

It’s mine 

So live it 

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

ミッチェル

 ミッチェル

Who is like God

We are created

Who is this

I see in the mirror

I hate it

This bullshit

If I were designed like the divine 

Wouldn’t I shape up better

That this

A drunken fool addicted to you 

But here I am as are we

Taking chances 

Finding ground

Realizations 

No one knows 

Who is like God

We are created

Who is this

I see in the mirror

I hate it

This bullshit

Loves a foolish tool to lead you In

To lies that last forever

And what 

If I can see truth, lies, and thorough you. 

There’s nothing else except this. 

Loving fools

Hating friends

Twisted mental 

These optics 

Who is like God

We are created

Who is this

I see in the mirror

I hate it

This bullshit

The illusions

Bated by faith 

If “gods” a lie

What am I.

(It wasn’t a question)

Who is… who is…

Who is like God

We are created

Who is this

I see in the mirror

I hate it

This bullshit

***footnote.   ミッチェル    Is katakana for Mitchell.   As a name for a male it derives from Hebrew “who is like god”. Or a “gift from god”

I am THE BEST

 I am The Best 

I wanna be something

Better than my past

It’s foolish to crave it 

But nothing ever lasts 

Without trying to be

Greater than this

Better than your words

You’d belittle me

But I’m better than you. 

Flippant 

Ignorant 

Extravagant 

And illuminate 

Because

I am the best

It’s right 

I am the best

What’s that 

I am the best

Don’t you know

I am the best

You try to see me and 

psychoanalysis 

It’s okay I see it 

But what do you want of

Me, that I cannot see 

So sight unseen 

Actions being verbs

Now seen in action

The truth is to behold 

Honest

Blindly so 

Where is the lie

When the truth does shine. 

Because

I am the best

It’s right 

I am the best

What’s that 

I am the best

Don’t you know

I am the best

But the rest

They don’t know 

I can try

I can’t lie

It’s alright 

Right now 

Because

I am the best

It’s right 

I am the best

What’s that 

I am the best

Don’t you know

I am the best

The Tale of Daymeon

 The Tale Of Daymeon

Part One - Prologue

Backed in a corner 

Trying to react 

Like myself and not 

The Liar that survives. 

I’m not a snitch 

I’m a realist 

I won’t let my life

Come before what is right.  

Self consciousness 

Is bitter to taste

And is suicide 

But I’m okay

Just to say 

Night. 

Part 2 - right now 

Right.  

Here we are 

Trying to understand 

Ourselves.  

Fantastic wolves

Living our best lives

All of the best tries

Can be lies. 

What’s innocence 

Or a guilty conscious. 

It’s a blur

I’m not right

Nor wrong

Now

Part 3 - fester poison 

Prow 

Stalk our best self 

And cut off

The wasted 

And now

I try to shine how

Without you

So festered

Find the poison and

Suck it out

All of it. 

Or I die

It isn’t right 

Say. 

Part 4 - despite 

Hey

I own my losses 

We live in our houses

Structures of our being

Out truths and lies 

What do you know of yours 

The burdens that are your chores

Does anyone know anything 

That is anymore 

Seek it out

Find it out

And move on. 

Live life

Despite 

Strife. 

Part 5 - epilogue 

Isn’t right 

No one knows me

Nor can they see

It’s hidden 

I share it all

But you’re blind

It’s not your fault

As I don’t exist 

Say my name

Give me life

The illusion

Daymeon

Anthony 

Is…

WOULD YOU forget

 WOULD YOU forget

Here I am

Screaming out loud

How much I need you 

But you’re deaf to me

You will not hear me say

I love you. 

What’s your next move

My cards are shown

What would you do. 

If I walked away

And never returned 

Would you wonder where I went

Would you miss my voice or

Forget me in my silence. 

What are we

I have been proud 

Despite what you do. 

We’re liars so see

At the end of the day 

We are through 

What can you prove 

With love that’s gone

With what is true 

If I walked away

And never returned 

Would you wonder where I went

Would you miss my voice or

Forget me in my silence. 

Would you love me

Would you miss me

Would you forget 

Would you hear me 

Would you trust me 

Would you forget. 

If I walked away

And never returned 

Would you wonder where I went

Would you miss my voice or

Forget me in my silence. 

Would you 

Love… miss… hear… trust…

Need me forget me. 

It’s Never Right (goodbye)

 It’s Never Right (goodbye)

I never knew love

Or peace or happiness

Until I found tranquility 

With you  

And you shine

Should you be mine. 

That my faith be alight 

 Ow here we are 

Pretending we aren’t special. 

I try and try and get.  

Love 

What a lie

Although you try 

It’s never right. 

Goodbye. 

I try and rise above 

Despite the emptiness 

I still face down reality 

I do

Now it’s time 

To become fine

Should I love you on sight. 

Our fate should dare 

Make this seem questionable 

I try and try and get.  

Love 

What a lie

Although you try 

It’s never right. 

Goodbye. 

By and by I try

Why oh why do I

Cry and cry for lies

I just cry goodbye. 

I try and try and get.  

Love 

What a lie

Although you try 

It’s never right. 

Goodbye. 

We Were Perfect

 We Were Perfect

This dreamscape

I’ve met the man of my dreams

Perfect in every way

What’s the catch. 

Why would my subconscious lie to myself

Giving me everything as I slumber

It’s unfair

How could I end up playing myself. 

It all seemed so realistic 

Damn it 

I loved you once in my dreams

Now awake I want to sleep

As we were perfect. 

The truth isn’t what it seems

But this feeling runs so deep

Like we were perfect 

In this haze

Truth and hope have intertwined 

But dreams are lies we try 

To make true

Fairy tales and happy endings are dumb

Foolish hopes of false opportunities . 

Just a dream

Like the hopes of love of one like me 

How would that be fantastic 

Damn it 

I loved you once in my dreams

Now awake I want to sleep

As we were perfect. 

The truth isn’t what it seems

But this feeling runs so deep

Like we were perfect 

Dreams, hopes, and fantasies

Love like this only exists

In manuscripts of lies

No matter all my tries

The idea of this resists 

Dreams, hopes, and fantasies

I loved you once in my dreams

Now awake I want to sleep

As we were perfect. 

The truth isn’t what it seems

But this feeling runs so deep

Like we were perfect