The Last One Left Standing

 

A mysterious heir carrying out their fate

A fairy tale forsaken for a stories sake

But what if it’s real

And it can be true

Am I accepting the truth of this too late 

Has everything done in life just been a mistake 

If so can I deal

Then what do I do

Run stranger 

From the danger

(The mistakes the mistakes the mistakes)

Find your place

Be free

A legend

A hero

An inspiration 

The last one left standing

A force to

Understand 

An aspiration

The last one left standing

Someone who never dreamt of this which is a miss

A self proclaimed hero just looking for a kiss. 

So is this a dream

What if it is real

Can I face myself if I accept everything 

Demeaning things like being I was your plaything 

Is this what it seams 

It’s a final deal?

Be better 

Than that lover

(The mistakes the mistakes the mistakes)

Own the past 

And see

A legend

A hero

An inspiration 

The last one left standing

A force to

Understand 

An aspiration

The last one left standing

Run stranger/be better

From the danger/than that lover 

(The mistakes the mistakes the mistakes)

Find your place/Own the past 

Be free/and see

A legend

A hero

An inspiration 

The last one left standing

A force to

Understand 

An aspiration

The last one left standing

Future Ex-husband

 Future Ex-Husband (electric charge)

You've got that electric charge

Setting my mind on overdrive

Making my heart skip a beat

Filling my stomach with butterflies

And making me tremble with excitement

Could you be

The one

Destine to be

My future ex-husband 

I pretend 

I’m okay with this

But I’m not yet I’m gleeful

You remind

Me love is a bliss 

That later I’ll be resentful 

I want to feel a certain way

With this I should be dumbly giddy 

But something tells me it’s all wrong

If I ignore all that I’m feeling a charge

You've got that electric charge

Setting my mind on overdrive

Making my heart skip a beat

Filling my stomach with butterflies

And making me tremble with excitement

But you are

So wrong

I guess you are

My future ex-husband 

I try to

Understand what you 

Need to rip out of my soul 

Imma fool

Trying to be true

But blind of the final goal. 

I know you lie but please say 

The things that make me tremble weakly 

Even if my hope for is long gone 

Do something that makes all this feel less strange 

You've got that electric charge

Setting my mind on overdrive

Making my heart skip a beat

Filling my stomach with butterflies

And making me tremble with excitement

Could you be

The one

Destine to be

My future ex-husband 

I’m not yours

You aren’t mine 

But this electric charge

Overdrive, skip a beat, 

Butterflies, excitement 

My future ex-husband 

 

You've got that electric charge

Setting my mind on overdrive

Making my heart skip a beat

Filling my stomach with butterflies

And making me tremble with excitement

But you are

So wrong

I guess you are

My future ex-husband 

You've got that electric charge

Setting my mind on overdrive

Making my heart skip a beat

Filling my stomach with butterflies

And making me tremble with excitement

Could you be

The one

Destine to be

My future ex-husband 

I’m Still #1

Who am I 

The one you wannabe

Flex

It’s aight 

Self confidence is sexy

I’ll lay it on you hard

But can you raise the game 

I’m putting myself down

Laying it out

Mother fucker 

It’s now or never 

Find me with yourself 

Or find your way out

I look in the mirror

I’m not where I want to be

But I’m still #1

You dumb tricks wanna be me. 

What is this

How do you now crave me 

Fuck

That’s aight 

Your confidence has me ready 

To allow you to bombard 

I’m raw are you the same. 

I’m feeling myself up 

Pleasing myself

Holy mother 

It’s feeling inside

What’s ecstasy worth 

You can come find out. 

I look in the mirror

I’m not where I want to be

But I’m still #1

You dumb tricks wanna be me. 

I’m trying to toe the line between

Simple and complicated 

Fuck you I don’t care about you

I’m trying to find words 

To make it alright.  

You don’t have a single clue about me

You should just check out and leave 

You have no reason to be here 

So long Au revoir peace out cunt 

Whats foretold in the cards

What future is right 

God damn god damn god damn. 

I look in the mirror

I’m not where I want to be

But I’m still #1

You dumb tricks wanna be me. 

About Them

 About Them

I can’t see

My eyes are cloudy

With tears and mucus

What am I looking for anyway. 

I can’t say

My voice is scratchy 

From screaming justice 

When there is nothing else left to say 

I I I

Don’t have much to do

But try and live in the lies

It’s not about you, me, or us

Despite my tragedies 

That don’t matter

It’s about them

I can’t hear 

My ears are stuffy 

With trash and disgust 

Why am I trying to comprehend 

I can’t feel

I’m numb and empty

With no one to trust 

Who’s left right now with the final hand 

Try try try 

To do what I do 

And rise above all the lies 

It’s not about you, me, or us

Despite my tragedies 

That don’t matter

It’s about them

Self absorbed 

Superficial 

Manipulating bullshit

(It’s them not you)

Ego centric

Beneficial 

Manifesting this shit

(It’s them not you)

It’s not about you, me, or us

Despite my tragedies 

That don’t matter

It’s about them

This, The Pain

 This, The Pain

Wipe my face

Tell me lies

I’d rip your heart out

To understand 

This, the pain

You put me through. 

Your embrace 

And my cries

You’re laughing, I’d doubt

You’d understand 

This, the pain

Knowing the truth. 

Remember that first date

Being too childish for adults

That night at the playground

You hooked a catch that you’d release

Meeting you was like fate

The future bore different results 

That gave a different sound

Loves a puzzle missing a piece 

You shouldn’t let go of things you don’t understand 

Even if they don’t make sense right now 

One day it could all come together 

If you wouldn’t reject possibility. 

Wipe my face

Tell me lies

I’d rip your heart out

To understand 

This, the pain

You put me through. 

Your embrace 

And my cries

You’re laughing, I’d doubt

You’d understand 

This, the pain

Knowing the truth. 

Why lead someone on so long 

When you don’t have true intentions 

To not be a fuckboi 

Regardless of the pain you bring 

I’ll admit I was dumb, wrong 

For not seeing your pretensions 

To have a naive toy

At home when you’re bored of your fling

I shouldn’t ignore that feeling about the one

Even if they tell you that you should 

I wouldn’t be so damaged right now 

If I’d open my eyes and trusted myself 

Wipe my face

Tell me lies

I’d rip your heart out

To understand 

This, the pain

You put me through. 

Your embrace 

And my cries

You’re laughing, I’d doubt

You’d understand 

This, the pain

Knowing the truth. 

Pain, the gain

Is this why I do it

Pain, insane

Is that why I do it

Wipe my face

Tell me lies

I’d rip your heart out

To understand 

This, the pain

You put me through. 

Your embrace 

And my cries

You’re laughing, I’d doubt

You’d understand 

This, the pain

Knowing the truth. 

God Damn

 God Damn

For so long I was this shrunken

Identity of myself 

But now I begin to grow

I crawl, I stand. I run wild. 

What’s this now

Hope to cope 

In my own eyes 

Don’t expect anyone else to owe you a damn thing

They don’t know how much the universe owes them 

They’re simple

Bitter 

Confused 

Misunderstood 

God damn, forget them. 

I tried and was forsaken

Disrespecting myself 

But now that my feelings show 

What’s love, what’s hate, what’s ignorance 

I’m my mind

How I try 

In my own right 

Don’t expect anyone else to owe you a damn thing

They don’t know how much the universe owes them 

They’re simple

Bitter 

Confused 

Misunderstood 

God damn, forget them. 

Those people 

Who for years tried to define me

The bullies, fools, jocks and tools

All unworthy 

Of my time 

Don’t expect anyone else to owe you a damn thing

They don’t know how much the universe owes them 

They’re simple

Bitter 

Confused 

Misunderstood 

God damn, forget them. 

Eulogy

 

A word

Or two for you

I spoke of a wave

You were a tsunami 

Eulogy. 

Again

A word 

To the dead. 

Milton

The Son of a working man

And I am the same

It’s a shame I came too late 

Myal

I wish that I understood 

What my all could mean 

I’m living choking on fate 

It’s late 

I’m here again

Trying to explain 

In prose it can’t expose 

Eulogy. 

Again

A word 

To the dead. 

Mitchell

Name given by a dead man 

you can’t understand 

Nor can rhymes articulate 

Rodney 

Similar of my mother 

Yet I need her hand 

F you if you can’t relate 

It’s late 

I’m here again

Trying to explain 

In prose it can’t expose 

Eulogy. 

Again

A word 

To the dead. 

Death is pain

Pain it truth

Truth is Freedom

And here we are

Free…

It’s late 

I’m here again

Trying to explain 

In prose it can’t expose 

Eulogy. 

Again

A word 

To the dead. 

Psht. (You Love Fantasy)

 Psht.  (You Love Fantasy)

You should have an award

For a fiction writer 

What I thought was love

Was a tale you told 

I’d sing this in a chord 

My throat now gets tighter 

Make the false myths move 

I just want to hold. 

Keep playing it cute 

Like I don’t know 

You.  The foolishness 

Psht…

You act dumb but you

Can’t act for your

Life.   The ignorance 

Now what can I afford 

For love or something like 

That I can just adore 

In that tale I’m bold 

Now we are all aboard. 

We can turn on the light 

And we will find the shore. 

Despite us it’s gold

Keep playing it cute 

Like I don’t know 

You.  The foolishness 

Psht…

You act dumb but you

Can’t act for your

Life.   The ignorance 

You

Love

Fantasy

A chance at reality

(Ain’t it though loves believability)

I don’t know life

Beyond myself 

I don’t know love

More than myself

You

Love

Fantasy

A chance at reality

(Ain’t it though loves believability)

Keep playing it cute 

Like I don’t know 

You.  The foolishness 

Psht…

You act dumb but you

Can’t act for your

Life.   The ignorance 

I xx YOU

 I xx you

What is this I’m feeling

Emotional attachment. 

It burns it hurts give me more

Of the sweet pain I’m reeling 

Now just an honest statement. 

It’s raw it’s pure give me more 

I need you to understand

I love you despite myself 

I crave you unhealthy 

I want you although I don’t 

Where are we

Who are we

When how and why

Are we 

What is this I’m trying 

To detach myself from now

You, love, and the bitterness 

If you saw me crying 

Would you walk by or prow 

Me, fate, and the emptiness 

I hate you were the same

I miss you seeing myself

I lust you only for me

I’ll have you although I don’t but

Where are we

Who are we

When how and why

Are we 

What is love and need

Just a different level of insanity 

The truth is 

I’m walking way

But the stage needs a story

Although a lie. 

I need you to understand

I love you despite myself 

I crave you unhealthy 

I want you although I don’t 

I hate you were the same

I miss you seeing myself

I lust you only for me

I’ll have you although I don’t but

I….. you

I….. you 

I….. you

Dumb fool