Desiring

Despite the past

And In the here and now

I want you.  I need you. 

Forget your past

In the here and now

I crave you. Don’t you know. 

I want you more that I should 

No matter how perfect you are

I should be taking it slow

Thank god you are. 

You’re perfect

What’s your flaw

I’ll never know.  

I want you I need you

Desire you I want more.  

I want you. I need you

Desire you.  I want more.  

A simple crave 

Lusting what I don’t know. 

I want you.  I need you. 

I am a slave. 

To your happiness 

I want you. Don’t you know

I need your more than I should

Yes you are so perfect but I

Am taking it slow for us

Thank god for you

 I want you I need you

Desire you I want more.  

I want you. I need you

Desire you.  I want more. 

My Carnage wants to take you. 

But I’m staying calm

I want more.    Desire and lust. 

Prince Charming

No matter how good I’ll be to you

Somehow I’ll always be the enemy

In your narrative. 

That’s fair as  it’s your story to tell

But my side is built on a different tale

Here’s my narrative 

You cheated. You lied and

I’m just trying to not be bitter 

You abused.  You used me

I’m just trying to not be bitter

And hope, one day

Prince Charming will rescue me 

What if true love is a fairy tale. 

That’s a world that I don’t want to live in

Here’s my narrative 

I believe in happy endings and

Even if you could’t give them to me

In your narrative 

 You cheated. You lied and

I’m just trying to not be bitter 

You abused.  You used me

I’m just trying to not be bitter

And hope, one day

Prince Charming will rescue me 

Despite you, you lied and 

I’m just trying to just be better

Beyond you, it’s accepted 

I’m just trying to be better. 

You cheated. You lied and

I’m just trying to not be bitter 

You abused.  You used me

I’m just trying to not be bitter

Hit The Target

Let me take a moment

A breath. 

I just allow one shot

You miss

And so I’m done with you 

Goodbye 

Make sure when you aim at me you never miss

A fatal shot or a loving kiss 

I’m here for a complete connection

And nothing else 

Hit the target 

Hit the target

Hit the target

With no regret

Make sure what you pursue you want

Don’t chase me and then waste our time

Maybe you should relax

Focus

You only have one chance 

To win

And if you were to lose

I’m gone

Make sure when you aim at me you never miss

A fatal shot or a loving kiss 

I’m here for a complete connection

And nothing else 

Hit the target 

Hit the target

Hit the target

With no regret

Take me down or lift me up but

Don’t hit me in the in between. 

Make sure when you aim at me you never miss

A fatal shot or a loving kiss 

I’m here for a complete connection

And nothing else 

Hit the target 

Hit the target

Hit the target

With no regret

Be honest and true with your goal

Come correct or don’t come at all

The End of that Lonely Road

Growing up in solitude

The art of connection is lost

Although I try

I feel I’m messing it up

Am I coming off as rude

But I’m questioning your cost 

And should I try

I’ve thought about giving up 

Imagine driving down a road you don’t know

The road grows narrower

As the woods grow thicker

And the houses become fewer

That’s where I come from

No matter where I go

I still live at the end of that lonely road

Without a soul to engage me

Yet I’m no longer there

I still live at the end of that lonely road

Once a place now a state of mind

That loneliness still haunts me

Socially awkward at the best 

But here I am

Trying to be better yet

The past fear won’t let me be

Paranoia wont let me rest

So here I am

Not willing to give up yet 

Imagine walking in a door you don’t know

The room empty and dark

Everything is so stark 

And There’s no sign of any spark 

That’s where I am now. 

No matter where I go

I still live at the end of that lonely road

Without a soul to engage me

Yet I’m no longer there

I still live at the end of that lonely road

Once a place now a state of mind

Out in the middle of no where

I tried to figure out who I was

And here I stand in the populous

Just as confused as from then til now 

No matter where I go

I still live at the end of that lonely road

Without a soul to engage me

Yet I’m no longer there

I still live at the end of that lonely road

Once a place now a state of mind

Drowned

I’ll drink this red wine

Till my lips are purple

I don’t care anymore

Let the little people talk. 

Here I am

In my fortress of solitude 

Questioning everything

You ever said or did

It doesn’t matter now

I’ve drowned all my sorrows

Our past no longer a consequence. 

I’ll accept my fate 

I’m better off right now

Despite you and our past

It could have never happened 

Let me say

Once you were here but now you’re gone 

Like a thief in the night

Lost with no consequence . 

It doesn’t matter now

I’ve drowned all my sorrows

Our past no longer a consequence. 

Booze and consequence 

And my youth is jumbled

Liquor was how I coped. 

Now I’m sober of that shit

Stronger Than You

I don’t understand what it means

What do you mean when you say

I need to be a man

The last time I checked

My parts fit the role

What lie have you been told

I’m firm with my masculinity 

I’m stronger than you

You couldn’t live my life

You’re full of foolish anger 

And not much else

Try walking in my shoes

You bigot fool

It didn’t hurt to disown you 

You’re half my blood but not quite 

Oh snap with those damn facts 

You tried to fool me 

That you accept me

I won’t forget it but

I don’t need you to validate me

I’m stronger than you

You couldn’t live my life

You’re full of foolish anger 

And not much else

Try walking in my shoes

You bigot fool

I’m done with bullshit

The fake exchanges 

Should my mom, your aunt die

She would say she doesn’t want you there

I’m stronger than you

You couldn’t live my life

You’re full of foolish anger 

And not much else

Try walking in my shoes

You bigot fool

The Time Changed

The moment you thought we were okay

The time changed

Everything evolved

A moment is precious

Frozen in time

No one can touch it

It’s yours and mine

But all of a sudden

The seconds tic 

Days go by

And the distance grows 

You’re not to blame

It is what it is 

The moment you thought we were okay

The time changed

Everything evolved

So my dreams about us

And a dumb rhyme 

No one can touch it

Was i so blind 

To what had just happened

And still time tics

You were once 

A great possible 

Now you’re not but

It is what it is. 

The moment you thought we were okay

The time changed

Everything evolved

The minutes the hours the days

The time changed

The weeks the months the years

The time changed

The moment you thought we were okay

The time changed

Everything evolved

Sometimes the second half makes no sense

Despite it all

The time changed 

With Myself At Ease

I travel an urban wasteland

Looking for a little serenity 

In the calming sound of wind

Blowing through the trees

In the middle of nowhere

Where I can be truly alone

I want peace

I want love

I want happiness

I just want to be

At ease with myself

With myself at ease

At ease with myself

With myself at ease

I live in a world of a few

Controlling the many with no reason

It’s not fair but so I voice 

Things to make it right 

All we want is happiness

And just a chance before we’re gone 

I want truth

I want life

I want everything 

I just want to be 

At ease with myself

With myself at ease

At ease with myself

With myself at ease

To be more than I am

And be a champion

Despite my short givings 

To be remembered for

All the thing I could do 

For all the downtrodden

I want...

Peace love and happiness 

I want...

Truth life and everything 

I just want to seem

At ease with myself

With myself at ease

At ease with myself

With myself at ease