This Emotion is a Chain Reaction

That first love did me wrong

I’m still reeling from it

Some say I can’t let go

And they aren’t wrong

Although I’m trying to

I’m filled with hatred and bitterness

And fantasies of what I do to you

If I ever saw you

It wouldn’t be pleasant for you 

But I shouldn’t feel this way at all

It’s been too long

I Need to let you go

But who are you really?

The first heart break

Or my substitute for you

Or that mans substitute?

This bitterness and hatred

Is stockpiling

Without healing. 

This emotion is a chain reaction

I linked you together 

All of you despite you

Having nothing to share

Except for me

What else can I do?

Besides therapy to heal emptiness

And then realizing that we’ve been through 

If I ever saw you

I should still try and forgive you

Despite it I’m still bitter and all

This is all wrong

I need to let go

But who are you really?

The first heart break

Or my substitute for you

Or that mans substitute?

This bitterness and hatred

Is stockpiling

Without healing. 

This emotion is a chain reaction

Now what is this feeling

A new mistake 

Or something new to do

A brand new resolute. 

This bitterness and hatred

Is stockpiling

Without healing. 

This emotion is a chain reaction

With feeling so belated 

I’ve be reeling 

Now I’m dealing

This emotion is a chain reaction.