To Know You Sober

 To Know You Sober

I wish I had a chance to know you sober

To understand someone I’ll never know

Although I know the husk and ghost intimately 

The meaty, juicy bits have all withered away

I wish I had a chance to know you sober

Maybe save you from pain that drug you here

Or maybe you could be the one that saves me yet

We’ll never know as they are thing that won’t happen

I wish I had a chance to know you sober

See someone with seemingly everything 

And witness them throw all that away and for what

To know what caused the pain that left those scare you hide 

I wish I had a chance to know you sober

To see those beautiful eyes full of life

And not hollowed out from not believing in hope

I shudder and try to understand my misery

I wish I had a chance to know you sober

And as I reminisce about the past

I wish we had a chance to meet back then but why

Bother fantasizing about things that won’t be 

I wish I had a chance to know you sober

Before this began with feelings over

Back when I cared and gave out empathy freely 

Before I knew you and thought about what I missed.