"I Believed In..."

When will I start thinking with my head

Instead of what’s inside of my pants

I found myself in a strangers bed

I think the last time was my last chance

So what’s wrong with me

Why do I keep doing this

I believed in monogamy

But I make myself a liar

And nobody likes a liar

I guess they all hate me

I couldn’t help myself my mistake

But what’s a mistake with no regret

I will not love my life as a fake

So there it is I’ll have no regret

Do I make you see

I just can’t go on like this

I believed in monogamy

But I make myself a liar

And nobody likes a liar

I guess they all hate me

I believe in sacred things

But I’ve forsaken everything

I guess I’ll give up everything

I don’t understand me

So what’s wrong with me

Why do I keep doing this

I believed… I believed…

But I lost my faith

Do I make you see

I just can’t go on like this

I believed… I believed…

But I lost my faith

I believed in monogamy

But I make myself a liar

And nobody likes a liar

I guess they all hate me

I believe in sacred things

But I’ve forsaken everything

I guess I’ll give up everything

I don’t understand me

I believed in a forever

We were us in the here and now

But you couldn’t figure out how

To promise you to me

I believed… I believed

But I lost my faith

You couldn’t fulfill me

Make me feel like I was the one

I needed to be the one

I still need to be the one

"Sister"

You are all I’ve ever known

And I love you just the same

I don’t know If I’ve ever known

Anything greater anything better

I can’t think of a time

That I didn’t know you

You were my childhood

Every early memory

And now we’re grown we are

Growing further apart

Here in adulthood

I just don’t know who you are

Can we duplicate

That time

I still consider you

My best friend

You are all I’ve ever known

And I love you just the same

I don’t’ know if I’ve ever known

Anything greater anything better

Where did it all go wrong

When did we drift apart

You were the sister

I never had and now

I long to know you now

And we’ve missed so much time

Just to make it up

Would be gratifying

Can we return to

That time

I still consider you

My best friend

You are all I’ve ever known

And I love you just the same

I don’t’ know if I’ve ever known

Anything greater anything better

Please be mine, my sister

Please be mine, understand

I need you, my sister

I need you, understand…

"Sin"

Is there something wrong with me?

I should be happy… I know I’m happy

I don’t want for anything

But it’s not enough

I felt your touch and I want more

Why do I feel like this?

I love the thrill

I like the chase

But I hate feeling like this

It’s a sin to want you

I’ve been committed but I want more

He isn’t giving me what I need

Won’t you give me more?

I can’t escape the feeling

That I felt with you… when you touched me then

I just can’t help this feeling

It’s just human nature

To crave more after just one touch

So what’s wrong with me now?

I want a thrill

I need your chase

But I hate feeling like this

It’s a sin to want you

I’ve been committed but I want more

He isn’t giving me what I need

Won’t you give me more?

"Peep Hole"

I watch them kissing

Delicately sensually

He reaches into her blouse

Her head tilts in forced pleasure

Then something goes awry

Is that fear that’s in her eyes

Who is she, who is he?

I don’t know; should I care?

I keep watching through the peep hole

Watching a train wreck in slow motion

I watch him hit her

Brutally and senselessly

He strikes again and then

She reaches down for her bag

When he goes in again

Her bullet then finds his head

Who is she, who was he?

I don’t know; should I call?

I keep watching through the peep hole

Watching a train wreck in slow motion

As he falls she cries

Relentlessly with relief

Was he a John that went bad,

an abusive lover gone?

As she picks up her phone

Will there be guilt in her voice?

Why did she, who was he?

Should I care?  Watch the show!

I keep watching through the peep hole

Watching a train wreck in slow motion

"On The Dance Floor"

I met you somewhere else

You were cute but I wasn’t impressed

Even a few drinks couldn’t change

You were just okay

But then you started dancing

I found myself with you

Moving to the music

But then we started dancing

I felt your skin touch mine

Holding me too close

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Like a melody it felt like ecstasy

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Oh baby you had me wanting more

Now you’re stuck in my head

You won’t leave so now am I obsessed

I’m thinking what would have happened

If you didn’t leave

But you did get my number

You want to dance again

Moving to the music

And now we’ve started talking

I want your touch again

Holding me too close

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Like a melody it felt like ecstasy

On the dancefloor you got me hooked

Oh baby you had me wanting more

"Without Reciprocation"

I was the one that you turned to

When the world had you down

You needed a shoulder to cry on

And now that it’s all said and done

You abandoned me

I defended your case for days

When no one believed you

You took everything I gave to you

And when it came to helping me

You abandoned me

I should have known

I would give you everything

Without reciprocation

It was easy

To take everything I gave

Without reciprocation

It was when you were down and out

I was there with a hand

To help dig you out of depression

It was just the right thing to do

You don’t feel the same

I took a chance here helping you

I felt that it was right

I just knew you’d be there for me

But in hindsight I can now say

You don’t feel the same

I should have known

I would give you everything

Without reciprocation

It was easy

To take everything I gave

Without reciprocation

I guess I didn’t know you well enough

To believe you’d take and take

And not be there for me when I was down

I should have listened to someone who knew you

I was warned and now I’m scorned

So shame on me for being so naive

I should have known

I would give you everything

Without reciprocation

It was easy

To take everything I gave

Without reciprocation

"This House"

I came home

To an empty house

Without you here

It doesn’t feel the same

Here I am

In an empty space

All by myself

Why aren’t you here with me

I find myself looking for you

Reaching for your pillow

Looking for your face

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I need you

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I’m lonely

Lonely nights

Are all that I face

The silence grows

Without your TV shows

I try to

fill this empty void

here in my heart

that just won’t be the same

I find myself looking for love

Needing that emotion

It just won’t replace

I find myself looking for you

Reaching for your pillow

Looking for your face

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I need you

This house

Isn’t a home

Without you here

I’m lonely