Finality

Yes I've essentially ignored your calls 

And the messages you leave 

When you said you didn't want to talk again 

This time I'm holding you to your own finality 

Did you think that behavior 

Had no consequence 

When you continue to break my heart 

Eventually there's nothing left to break

Somehow you heard me singing 

And assumed I must be happy

But the only reason I'm harmonizing

To other folks upbeat songs

Is I'm in a continuous state

Of trying to not fall apart 

You really haven't been paying attention

All this time and you don't know 

I don't write happy songs and when singing joy

I inject an undercurrent of melancholy 

Are you really cool like this 

With nothing stable 

And it continually gets worse 

Even if you are I'm not gonna be

Somehow you heard me singing 

And assumed I must be happy

But the only reason I'm harmonizing

To other folks upbeat songs

Is I'm in a continuous state

Of trying to not fall apart 

The irony in all of this unrequested change of course

You were the one who set that bridge on fire

Throwing any accelerant at it that you could find 

And you're still trying to submit your feelings for my consideration

When mine have always been an afterthought that finally came far too late