Love/Truth

The idea of love is toxic

Gives you hope and dreams 

Then blows when it’s not it 

Makes you believe that it could last

Nothing’s what it seams 

Still haunted by the past

Love...

A fairy tale

An illusion 

Just let it go

Just let me go

It gives me nothing to hope for

Just give it up

I’m done, enough

It gives me nothing to hope for

Yet it still want to be hopeful 

Despite hopes wasted

Here I am resentful

I’m still young I tell myself 

I’ve not regretted 

The truth that I’ve left

Truth...

A fairy tale

An illusion 

Just let it go

Just let me go

It gives me nothing to hope for

Just give it up

I’m done, enough

It gives me nothing to hope for

Love and truth

What do you know of it

Just enough 

Just enough to be dangerous. 

Before I Die

I’ve always been good at stringing words together 

But words are silly things

What do they mean?

They could direct a symphony 

Of harmony

But words are silly things

Truth and lies

Words are both

And neither

It depends on the man

When will it all make sense 

Not right now, maybe never

Hopefully before I die

I’ve always been good at listening to another 

But not at reacting 

What could I do?

I’m just one man against the world

I could be bold

But not at reacting

Lies and truth

Words are either 

And neither

It depends on the man

When will it all make sense 

Not right now, maybe never

Hopefully before I die

Hopefully...

I find my truth

Whatever it is

The difference 

In the truth 

And a lie

Hopefully... I find it someday. 

When will it all make sense 

Not right now, maybe never

Hopefully before I die

Despite The Chaos

Here I stand bitter and conflicted

Angry at everything for no reason

Ready to take on the world

I don’t know why I’m fighting anymore 

Breathe

Release

Find peace

Center and ground me

Despite the chaos of the world

The pain and regret

Find a truth and hold on to it

I’m at the alter of truth

Hoping to find clarity

In my life, is this right?

I’m tired of being rejected 

All of my feelings guilty of treason 

Regrets of the  truths untold 

Still hoping that there is something in store 

Pause

What cause

Who’s loss

Hope in it I toss

Despite the chaos of the world

The pain and regret

Find a truth and hold on to it

I’m at the alter of truth

Hoping to find clarity

In my life, is this right?

Glee

Happy

I see

That I can find peace

Despite the chaos of the world

The pain and regret

Find a truth and hold on to it

I’m at the alter of truth

Hoping to find clarity

In my life, is this right?

Check

Maybe the problem isn’t me

It’s you, check

I gave it everything did you ?

Say no?  Check

You said that you’ve friend zoned before

You did, check

At your age now maybe it’s you 

Judged you, check. 

You could have had it all or nothing 

I was willing to invest

But you faded away

Like a rat running from the rain 

I kept beating at your door

Until you turned the light off

Okay, goodbye, I’ll walk away 

So I saw the signs weeks ago

You’re out, check

Are you a coward just to say

I’m out, check

Im not a fool despite of you 

I’m here, check

So how dare you not respect me 

You’re done, check 

I don’t do passive and with interest 

I don’t deal with dismissive 

Why are you still here now 

Stringing me along for a hope 

I kept beating at your door

Until you turned the light off

Okay, goodbye, I’ll walk away

Goodbye, check

Dumb ass, check

A fool, check

Wasted, check

Check off, say goodbye 

I kept beating at your door

Until you turned the light off

Okay, goodbye, I’ll walk away

Goodbye, check

So long, check 

Ignored, check...

You’re Always To Blame

Another drink 

Another sip

Where did I go wrong

I let the wine blind me

Inebriated mislead intentions. 

Is it my fault

My bad choices

That led me here

Or is it you

Your bad choices

That led us here 

At the end of the day

I’ll review everything 

And you’re always are to blame

Another truth

Another lie 

What did I do wrong

Did I let love blind me

Foolish delusions of what could be Love 

Is it my fault 

Our bad choices 

That left me here

 Or is it you

Your bad choices

That led us here. 

At the end of the day

I’ll review everything 

And you’re always are to blame

How does it feel

To be you.  

The inflictor of pain

You’ve hurt me more than you’ll ever know. 

It’s sad the one who inspired this will never know it

As he’s dead to me.  

Eight years of wasted time 

There are other things 

I could say but

Why beat you down

I’ve said enough 

You know that it’s

You, always you

At the end of the day

I’ll review everything 

And you’re always are to blame

Intended or

Not you tried to

Ruin me but

I still survive

Despite you and

Yet I still thrive. 

What Happened

I sit back and watch the news

I shouldn’t be surprised by any of this

But the alerts make me bristle

Is this chaos real life?

Why don’t you believe

An accuser

Do you relate with 

The one accused

Maybe you can’t see it in black and white

Because you only accept the white

Maybe you can’t understand right from wrong 

When did humanity go wrong 

What happened to compassion 

What happened to decorum 

What happened to so called peace

What happened to all of this

What point in this do we lose 

At what point did Hope take aim for us and miss

I tremble and fear a missile

Tweets that could end my life 

This is more than you

Are you’re blind

If you are wrong

You’re in a bind 

Maybe you can’t see it in black and white

Because you only accept the white

Maybe you can’t understand right from wrong 

When did humanity go wrong 

What happened to understanding 

What happened to being kind

What happened to peace and love 

What happened to happiness

Maybe you can’t see it in black and white

Because you only accept the white

Maybe you can’t understand right from wrong 

When did humanity go wrong 

Who? What? Why? How?

When did humanity go wrong?

Wasted Time

Shedding my skin

And every trace of you

If the scent of you lingered 

It has been discarded. 

I’m a bitter individual 

Because of you, all of you 

But I’m trying to be better

Yet I’m trying to be better

Collectively you haven’t a clue 

You just couldn’t have, could you

You are one of many mistakes 

And I’m done with all the regrets 

Finding myself despite of you

You are bringing nothing to me

Than wasted time

Stop wasting my time

No matter whatever you do 

Despite all of your lies I see

You wasted time

Stop that wasting my time. 

Stop stringing me along for nothing 

So just stop being selfish. 

What exactly are you getting 

From me and yet without giving 

This is all about you 

Do you know it?

Your aloofness annoys me

Finding myself despite of you

You are bringing nothing to me

Than wasted time

Stop wasting my time

No matter whatever you do 

Despite all of your lies I see

You wasted time

Stop that wasting my time