I was Dreaming

 I was Dreaming

You don’t know what it’s like

To be a prisoner in your own mind

But dreaming, I was dreaming 

I’ll die and it will all end. 

That’s okay

I want to be empty

Free of myself

And my memories

But that won’t happen

We are stuck in ourselves 

All I can do is hide

Those darker parts of me

I want to cry

I want to die

It’s too hard to try

And escape my life

You don’t know what it’s like

To be a prisoner in your own mind

But dreaming, I was dreaming 

I’ll die and it will all end. 

Let it be

I want to feel nothing

Instead of this

Constant dread I feel 

That has singed soul 

We are bound to our path

No matter the bright end 

Darkness is behind me

Oh how I try

And question why

In the by and by 

Why is there this strife 

You don’t know what it’s like

To be a prisoner in your own mind

But dreaming, I was dreaming 

I’ll die and it will all end. 

So goodbye. 

I wake up and I cry

Surely that was just

A nightmare but I

Remember the past

My retched past

Let me dream and die 

It’s less painful than this. 

You don’t know what it’s like

To be a prisoner in your own mind

But dreaming, I was dreaming 

I’ll die and it will all end. 

So will I 

Paradigm

 Paradigm 

We were solid

Stoic in our way 

But here we are now 

In a new paradigm 

Don’t lie

Don’t try

Don’t cry

I never tried

To be the one

Who every one loved

And it shows

I’m not sane

And it’s okay

I see it now

It’s a new day

We were solid

Stoic in our way 

But here we are now 

In a new paradigm 

I was okay 

And the you came 

Like a thief my life

No one knows 

I’m not good 

And This so called 

Narrative is

Toxic and true

We were solid

Stoic in our way 

But here we are now 

In a new paradigm 

Fragmenting various points

Your option is like the light 

That is fractured

A multifaceted break up 

This isn’t 

Me or my lies 

This is the real tale 

So who are we?

We were solid

Stoic in our way 

But here we are now 

In a new paradigm 

Don’t lie

Don’t try

Don’t cry

Summerland

The Scimatar moon and the desert palm

Remind me of home

Although it’s far away

And no one can say 

When I’ll return again. 

How I long to be barely in the light

Dancing in the shadow of the moon

Just with a crescent of hope to guide my way. 

Summerland

Far from winter snow

A place you wouldn’t know

Unless you’re homesick for it. 

Summerland

Somewhere I should go

With or without you so

Unless you’re looking for it. 

The fields of indigo and empty space 

Take me back to when

Everything was okay 

Yet here today 

It’s all a lying dream

How I long to be a stance in a trance 

Lost in a moment of blue florals

Looking for landmarks I know can lead me home 

Summerland

Far from winter snow

A place you wouldn’t know

Unless you’re homesick for it. 

Summerland

Somewhere I should go

With or without you so

Unless you’re looking for it. 

Unless you know you don’t

The way the sun rides the ridge 

And the sights it gives 

Despite you

Despite love and hate

And truth and lies 

Thats where it is

The sunsets

In summerland. 

Summerland

Far from winter snow

A place you wouldn’t know

Unless you’re homesick for it. 

Summerland

Somewhere I should go

With or without you so

Unless you’re looking for it. 

Back At The Start

 Sometimes we find ourselves 

Back at the start 

I tried so long 

To escape you

Your snowy haze

Your crystal lies

I tried and tried

To be anything other than this

But I’m back on track

With the worst of me

Yet here I am

And I’m here with you 

Unexpectedly 

Sometimes we find ourselves 

Back at the start

Was I so wrong

Running from you

Your wicked ways 

Illicit tries

It’s you and me

Cursed with a very mistaken kiss 

I’m over my head 

Falling in a trap 

And here I am 

But I’m here with you

Inexplicably 

Sometimes we find ourselves 

Back at the start

The calendar changes

But do we

We hate each other

Exclusively 

But here we are

Just how we find ourselves 

Sometimes we find ourselves 

Back at the start

The Same Old Lies

 The Same Old Lies

Here we are once again

At the start or the finish line

Depending on your view.  

I’m tired of being poetic

I just want to be honest 

Because pretty words and these pleasantries 

Are all bull shit

They don’t make sense 

Analogies Masquerading as full proof lies. 

Im tired of it.   

The false lull of security

That there is a happy ever after

It’s fairy tale bullshit

We idiots believe in 

And you and I

Could have been something

But why

Is that a thing 

All this is

All these are

All that’s here

Are lies 

The same old lies

In the mirror I see 

What are Two real realities 

But what is really true. 

It’s stupid to be faithful now

When no one now even cares 

As we realize the beauty of all 

humanity 

Is all a lie

It always was

Sympathies pretending to be feelings I feel

It’s the last call

For the fakers and the bullshit 

The god damn lying story tellers too

It too good to be true 

No one can see it to be

And you and I

Could have been something

But why

Is that a thing 

All this is

All these are

All that’s here

Are lies 

The same old lies

愛 cosmic joke

 

Late nights together

No one knows

How much you’ve came in sight

I’m not even sure 

You know

Because I feel

You don’t know

And if you do

It’s a cosmic joke

What it means when I say 

I love you 

Have you a clue 

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

Despite the weather

A bloom shows

What was dead now is light

So is this thought true

And so 

Now what is real

I don’t know 

What if I do

It’s a cosmic joke 

What you did on that day

Was so cruel 

If I’m a fool. 

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

You teased me

Not to be right now 

But now be right 

Yet here we are

Right here in the now

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

空虚の歌

 Fade fade 立ち去る  (walk away)

Feeling nothing 

Craving something 

As much as I want to give you this is a

空虚の歌 

When the world fails us we have a

空虚の歌

これは一体どういう意味ですか?

What 

What does

What does all this

What does all this mean ?

Now now 〜は愛です (is love)

Finding myself 

In what is left 

Voices scream and silence says that this is a

空虚の歌 

At the end when no one cares a

空虚の歌 

気にする必要がありますか？

Why

Why should

Why should I evvvvvvvvvvvvvv...

Why should I even care

Craven broke emptiness

Vaguely masquerading. 

Vagrantly playing 

光 no love story

I fade into 

空虚の歌