I Can’t (just don’t hurt me)

 

I’m just trying to be

The best version of me. 

Here I am

Incomplete 

But worthy of…

Your love, your trust 

I can’t get enough 

Your time, your lust 

I can’t get enough 

I don’t care what you do

Just don’t hurt me

I don’t mind anything 

Just don’t hurt me

Don’t 

Just don’t 

Don’t hurt me

Just don’t hurt me. 

I just want to be seen

Despite the in between 

That they talk

About me

Not knowing I 

Want love, want trust

I can’t get enough 

Want time, your lust

I can’t get enough. 

I don’t care what you do

Just don’t hurt me

I don’t mind anything 

Just don’t hurt me

Don’t 

Just don’t 

Don’t hurt me

Just don’t hurt me. 

Fairy tales and bitter lies have groomed me

To not expect anything but heart ache

Can you do it differently 

And give me a happy ending 

I don’t care what you do

Just don’t hurt me

I don’t mind anything 

Just don’t hurt me

Don’t 

Just don’t 

Don’t hurt me

Just don’t hurt me. 

Air 2022

 

I can’t breathe 

I’m suffocating 

I can’t escape 

You or any anything 

I’m trying to find my way

Free of my past 

And anything 

That lingers on

And maybe  one day soon 

I can breathe

Open up and breathe 

I’ll just breathe 

Despite everything 

I’m alone. 

Don’t know what to do. 

Right now I pray

For a damn sign 

Oh hey by the way I’m gay. 

True to myself 

And everything 

That’s not enough. 

And maybe  one day soon 

I can breathe

Open up and breathe 

I’ll just breathe 

Despite everything 

But inhale

One two three 

Release 

And just breathe 

One two three 

Release. 

And maybe  one day soon 

I can breathe

Open up and breathe 

I’ll just breathe 

Despite everything 

Freedom

 Freedom

Please give me a sign

Any of this makes sense 

I’m going crazy 

In the world today 

I can’t breathe right now

Because of everything

I’m still dealing with

That I try to hide

I’m cold… and alone

What does anything mean

I just want to be me

Be free and release 

Myself into the universe. 

Freedom

(Scream it out)

Freedom

(Live it out)

Freedom

Freedom

Why do I trouble 

Myself with my past then

I’m better off now

Than I’ve ever been

I’m chained to the past

And I want to be free

But I don’t know how

It still lingers on

It’s old, and I’m done

Happiness is a dream 

I just want to be me

Be free and release 

Myself into the universe. 

Freedom

(Scream it out)

Freedom

(Live it out)

Freedom

Freedom

Despite who I’ve ever been

Can the universe release me

From my past atrocities 

Let me be 

I just want to be me

Be free and release 

Myself into the universe. 

Freedom

(Scream it out)

Freedom

(Live it out)

Freedom

Freedom

Empty Soul

 Empty soul

I tried to find my peace

And found an emptiness 

I’ve never explored 

Despite my desire

My tension will not ease 

Nothing can manifest 

A feeling like this 

Even if I want 

More

Let it burn 

Fire wasting

Everything 

And here I am

Vacant 

With an empty soul. 

But I want so much more. 

 

I tried to find my peace

And found an emptiness 

I’ve never explored 

Despite my desire

My tension will not ease 

Nothing can manifest 

A feeling like this 

Even if I want 

Love

Give it up

It’s wasting 

Everything 

I’ve ever know 

Is gone

Just an empty soul 

Despite it all encore 

I tried to find my peace

And found an emptiness 

I’ve never explored 

Despite my desire

My tension will not ease 

Nothing can manifest 

A feeling like this 

Even if I want 

But am I enough

Oh baby

Although I’m rough 

Who are you

Despite the one I’m taking to 

Just an empty soul. 

I tried to find my peace

And found an emptiness 

I’ve never explored 

Despite my desire

My tension will not ease 

Nothing can manifest 

A feeling like this 

Even if I want … 

Reality

 

Let’s talk about bitches 

Like one with the candy 

Machine on her desk

No wonder why your child

Is as random as it dispenses 

I ain’t hating I’m calling parallels 

It’s random

Just like your love

It’s nothing more than

Reality.  

No disrespect 

So called love and light

Let’s talk about a sister 

Who’s too head strong right now 

Yet she still ignored 

A wannabe leader 

Who can’t make this happen now or then

I ain’t hating I’m calling parallels 

It’s random

Just like your love

It’s nothing more than

Reality.  

No disrespect 

So called love and light

You’ll want to come back straight 

But I’m gay as fuck 

And spilling tea

What about old boss

Ran away to another city

With your tragic husband

Half your age get that citizenship

I ain’t hating I’m calling parallels 

It’s random

Just like your love

It’s nothing more than

Reality.  

No disrespect 

So called love and light

Let’s Be Right

 

What is this

Who are we

And why am I pulling away

You don’t know I feel

Despite how many times 

I try to make it plain. 

I hate love

I hate peace

I want something no one’s giving 

Let’s be right 

You and I

All night 

Alright?

What kind of love is this. 

Who are you 

And am I 

Able to be the one… baby

Why should I

Live a dream

That wasn’t ever mine I tried 

To be perfect for you. 

Despite my love for you

I’d give myself again. 

What I want

What I need

I wish I’ll be your Everything

Let’s be right 

You and I

All night 

Alright?

What kind of love is this. 

Who are you 

And am I 

Able to be the one… baby

I’m connected 

Intertwining 

Spiritually. 

God damn it 

Let’s be right 

You and I

All night 

Alright?

What kind of love is this. 

Who are you 

And am I 

Able to be the one… baby

Yes Sir

  “Yes Sir”

You said you’d always be true 

I’d love you until the end 

But you lied

I’m here picking up the pieces

It’s time to pay

Deep down inside I’m still a nice guy

But just what are you 

A Tool 

All you seem to do is bounce

I don’t know how to feel about you now

Where are you going

Another liars journey 

Liar liar

I can see the truth now

Despite the shit 

Milk and honey 

Sweet fairy tales dissolving more

Deeper deeper 

I just don’t want this anymore

-break-

I don’t want to walk away but I will if I must 

Don’t deny it’s a lie I already know

I don’t want to take this pain any more

Yes sir, yes sir, one day I swear I will

What’s it all about

I done being jerked all around 

What’s it all about

I’m not your puppet boy anymore. 

I wanted to believe in you but you’re fake

I’m letting go and moving on I’m on my way 

Keep this in mind I’m still a nice guy

No matter how you wrecked me baby 

I’m working on healing the pain 

I loved you but It’s time to say goodbye

Where are you going

Hopefully very far away from me 

Liar liar

Wrecking my life with your lies

Milk and honey 

A dream of sweeter better days 

Deeper deeper 

All I want now is to find someone to love

I don’t want to walk away but I will if I must 

Don’t deny it’s a lie I already know

I don’t want to take this pain any more

Yes sir, yes sir, one day I swear I will

What’s it all about

I done being jerked all around 

What’s it all about

I’m not your puppet boy anymore. 

-break-

I don’t want to walk away but I will if I must 

Don’t deny it’s a lie I already know

I don’t want to take this pain any more

Yes sir, yes sir, one day I swear I will

What’s it all about

I done being jerked all around 

What’s it all about

I’m not your puppet boy anymore