What’s It About

 What’s It About

Trigger trigger 

Make me figure 

It out.   What’s it about. 

Foolish games

And a lot of wasted time 

I’m not to hear to spill tea

But if I drop the pot it’s piping hot. 

Wanna know about him 

He’s the devil in moonlight

He’ll lure you in and then

Ruin all that’s good in you. 

I was left in his trash

I built myself up and now

I’m better than ever but 

Bang  bang bang bang

And Still I sang 

My tale.  What’s it about

Trigger trigger 

Make me figure 

It out.   What’s it about. 

Foolish games 

And a lot of wasted time 

I’m not to hear to spill tea

But if I drop the pot it’s piping hot.

What about my past yes

Let’s get all in that my friends

I did drugs, fucked a town

And walked away from it all

I was sin but I’m try

To rise above my mistakes 

I’m better than that but...

Uno dos tres

Despite his lies

I’m true    What’s it about

Bang  bang bang bang

And Still I sang 

My tale.  What’s it about

Trigger trigger 

Make me figure 

It out.   What’s it about. 

Foolish games 

And a lot of wasted time 

I’m not to hear to spill tea

But if I drop the pot it’s piping hot.

Can U Manage?

 Can U Manage?

The night is dark

The sun is warm 

These are simple things 

Your vacant head can’t comprehend 

I need you to know

You aren’t the first 

You won’t be the last 

But right now.   Here and now

You’re what matters

I don’t think to the future 

I don’t dream of the past.  

All I want is right now 

Get it through your thick head. 

Is right now. 

Keeping it simple. 

Can you manage?

The light is bright 

And ice is cold 

These are basic things 

You’d lie and say do not exist 

I need to just say 

You were the worst

Thank god you’re the past 

But that time, you were mine

You’re what matters 

I wish that you had listened 

Dreams that will never last 

All I want is for us 

To be ourselves and what  ...

Is right now. 

Keeping it simple. 

Can you manage?

Kind is blind

Intertwined

No one knows

Ourselves 

 

I wanted to be your only

A fantasy we hide 

Despite us all I want 

Is what we don’t know and 

Is right now. 

Keeping it simple. 

Can you manage?

Doesn’t Matter

 Doesn’t Matter

I don’t know what’s true or what’s real

The lies they testify they swear

It’s all lies nothing but despair. 

I need your touch 

And your love 

Am i a fool 

To believe. 

There aren’t enough hours in the day

And not enough to testify  

About the lies 

I cry 

I try and try 

To be better

But this doesn’t matter

None of it does. 

At times I don’t know how to feel 

And how much of myself I dare

To bare in this life that not fair 

I need your trust

With your lust 

Am I your tool

Should I leave

There aren’t enough words that I could say 

And None of them could rectify 

All my lies

I cry

I try and try 

To be better

But this doesn’t matter

None of it does. 

There is nothing left (I’m out here alone)

It doesn’t matter (anyway)

Despite me

I die

I try and try 

To be better

But this doesn’t matter

None of it does. 

Time (is slippery), All I Know

Remember having aspirations 

Of the future

Childish dreams of who we could be

Well we are here now and 

Where do we stand. 

I reach for the future

Angrily

It should be mine 

Damn it

I don’t know what tomorrow means

Or what it has in store for me 

I’m living in the moment 

With baited breath. 

All I know for sure is the past

And maybe today

Tomorrow isn’t clear

And forever is more vague

It thought so much of my forever

When I had no clue 

Realistic dreams were unfulfilled  

Not without effort and 

Talent to stand 

The disappointment now

Is okay 

It should be fine 

But wait 

I can’t see how my story reads

Or how they feel about me

A story not fair 

But it’s okay. 

All I know for sure is the past

And maybe today

Tomorrow isn’t clear

And forever is more vague

The time is slippery

I can’t hold on to a moment

Without it slipping away.

I try and I try but... but... but...  

All I know for sure is the past

And maybe today

Tomorrow isn’t clear

And forever is more vague

Fraud

 Fraud

See my face

Tell me you love me

Even if it’s a lie

What’s wrong with that 

I’m becoming better 

In the bitter and ether 

And I see...  

You claim to be the one and only

Yet you are anything but worthy

I tried to believe in your story 

But I was left in the cold only 

To say...

You’re a fraud 

Fraud fraud fraud 

You’re a fraud. 

Save myself 

From eternity 

We can try to cry 

Without the facts 

I’m seeing it clearer now

What was passive is the wow 

And I feel...

This is a moment that we can share 

But it’s true nothing is ever fair 

I tried to believe in love should I dare 

The human in me was so scared 

To say...  

You’re a fraud 

Fraud fraud fraud 

You’re a fraud. 

You don’t know

Your ego is abound 

I sing this song for you 

Who are you

Beyond your self is nil 

I sing this song for you. 

You’re a fraud 

Fraud fraud fraud 

You’re a fraud. 

混乱

I don’t know

I’ve never seen

What is this

I can’t say 

Who is this person in the mirror

What are these lies I’m hearing 

Why are they saying such things 

When will anything make sense 

混乱

I can’t tell

I can’t see

混乱

I can’t know

I can’t say 

知りません

I’ve never seen

What is this now 

言えます

Why am I a finger to a trigger 

And why do you subject feelings 

I’ve yet to comprehend things 

These feelings are all amiss. 

混乱

I can’t tell

I can’t see

混乱

I can’t know

I can’t say 

Disorder, chaos

混乱

Confusion, mayhem

混乱

知りません

見たことない

今

言えます

混乱

I can’t tell

I can’t see

混乱

I can’t know

I can’t say 

Jane Hall

 Jane Hall

Where do you come from 

Who were you 

How’s your mom and them

I’d never know 

Because you’re an enigma 

Do you know your children 

Rhoda yes 

Cora maybe

William no?

And who am I?

The child of Rhoda Faye

And of Viola

And the child of Rhoda

The children of Jane Hall

What is your story 

What’s your tale

What’s your history 

That’s to be told

Because the dead say nothing 

What could be your dreams 

Clarence?

Or Dover Jack

Jewel eh?

And who am I?

maternal patriarch 

The wrong chromosome. 

The right spirit in this 

But just what can Jane tell. 

What is your story 

What’s your tale

What’s your history 

That’s to be told

Because the dead say nothing 

Jane.  Janet?  Jamesha? 

Mama

The enigma 

Why won’t you tell me 

What is your story 

What’s your tale

What’s your history 

That’s to be told

Because the dead say nothing 

The

 The

The point of being

The love of the self

The truth in the lie

The fact it just is

The feeling

The reflection

The moment when it means nothing 

The explanation could be simple or complicated

I’m searching in the between what it means  for me 

The dead air 

The empty space

The clouded vision that is life 

The true honesty

The reality

The pain it causes

The tears I could cry 

The peace the fight the war in my mind

Is the challenge every day to my life

The love the loss the sadness I bare 

Is the struggle I face and they’re my strife 

The feeling/The dead air

The reflection/The empty space 

The moment when it means nothing/The clouded vision that is life

The explanation could be simple or complicated

I’m searching in the between what it means  for me 

Harbinger

 Harbinger 

Here I am mortal tools

The harbinger 

Of the end. 

I’m a being of lust and desire 

A creature of carnal things

You will desire me when 

You should tremble before me. 

If you’re are earth I’ll scorch you with fire 

The emptiness that still stings 

You admit we were a sin 

We aren’t that different you see 

I never claimed to be holy

Or righteous

I never did hide in light

I’ve always known I’m wicked

Here I am mortal tools

The harbinger 

Of the end. 

I’m the one everyone warned you about 

Because people talk too much

And not know me just fear this

Gossip of how I’m rotten 

I’m not the end but I’ll make you shout 

Flicking my tongue and a touch

Under my spell with a kiss 

Wakening thoughts forgotten

Is it so bad that I want to 

Corrupt you. 

Awaken a part that was 

Hiding from the truth in you

Here I am mortal tools

The harbinger 

Of the end. 

Of suppression 

Of persecution

Of hatred 

We are better than

The moralist 

The blinded bigots 

The liars 

I welcome their end 

Here I am mortal tools

The harbinger 

Of the end. 

BLESSED By You (right?)

 BLESSED By You (right?)

At the end of the day you’re by my side

Fuck everyone else you're down for the ride

They can say what they want or do what they do

All I know is that I am blessed by you 

I’m tired of the disillusion

There’s nothing wrong with our choice. 

In the noise around us 

You’re all I hear 

I’m trying so hard to be on track

With them calling out what I lack

They say a lot of nothing but smack 

You and I know the facts, right?

At the end of the day you’re by my side

Fuck everyone else you're down for the ride

They can say what they want or do what they do

All I know is that I am blessed by you 

Their narrative is more bullshit

I’m armed to take it all down 

Despite the world we know 

I just have this 

And that comfort is all that I want 

They try to make me what I won’t 

Do no matter how much they still taunt 

In us I’m confidant, right?

At the end of the day you’re by my side

Fuck everyone else you're down for the ride

They can say what they want or do what they do

All I know is that I am blessed by you 

Our choice, right?

All down, right?

Blessed

By you, right?

On track, right?

I want, right?

Blessed

By you, right?

At the end of the day you’re by my side

Fuck everyone else you're down for the ride

They can say what they want or do what they do

All I know is that I am blessed by you 

SCHISM -you & i-

Schism -you & i-

Forget

Regret

I missed 

I’m not pure 

I’m not clean 

I’m not anything you say 

Despite all that 

Tell your mom and them 

I said hey 

I’m not okay right now 

I feel eternally bound 

To you 

And that’s the bullshit I’m talking about 

I... Am...   Me.  

And who are you

Beyond me

Because

All I see is me. 

Death.  That schism 

And realism

Here we are 

Despite it all

You and I

You and I

Mistake

Forsake

This chance 

I won’t say 

If I’m gay

I am your fairy tale right now 

Yet here we are 

And despite it all. 

I said hey. 

What is this all about 

I’m questioning everything 

That is the sound I call your bullshit on. 

Here... I....  am

And who is this 

In bliss 

Hear this 

All I know is this 

  

Death.  That schism 

And realism

Here we are 

Despite it all

You and I

You and I 

Regret is a second hand excuse. 

Your mourning is nothing without the dead 

But here I stand 

In the light 

It’s alright. 

Who... is.... this 

Realist

Honest  

I try