"Catastrophe"

I find myself in this situation
It didn’t happen by mistake
I thought I was playing a game
And now I’m in too deep

I never meant to get involved
But sometimes my heart goes off alone
My brain can’t construct rhyme or reason
How unfortunate for you that now there’s two

This could all end in catastrophe
If you found out about us
This could all end in catastrophe
If you knew what we’re doing
This could all end in catastrophe
If you saw things through my eyes

I find myself talking to you late at night
Scream fighting over phone calls
I keep saying it’s not like that
Why can’t I let you go

I never meant to drag you in
Why am I so afraid of this change
I used to live spontaneously
I think that changed back when I first met you

This could all end in catastrophe
If you found out about us
This could all end in catastrophe
If you knew what we’re doing
This could all end in catastrophe
If you saw things through my eyes

This could all end in catastrophe
It would be okay if some things would…

"My Story"

Things started out happy
Moving quickly ever changing
I reached a point where I wish I could stop time
But no man ever can
As life kept on moving
It changed directions without me
The others then started to get in your way
Tarnishing everything

This is my story
My side of the story
Different to the one you’re telling everyone
Maybe the truth will meet somewhere in between
Each side of the story
This is my story

Completely unaware
We had set the end in motion
When one on one intimacy went away
Never to come again
The distance in my heart
Became distance across the land
The unwritten test you failed which crippled me
Leaving nothing the same

This is my story
My side of the story
Different to the one you’re telling everyone
Maybe the truth will meet somewhere in between
Each side of the story
This is my story

My heart was then alone
That’s when a stranger came to me
Unlocking everything I had kept inside
Releasing us from this
I must apologize
I forgot to communicate
We could have saved everything we had created
If I had learned to speak

This is my story
My side of the story
Different to the one you’re telling everyone
Maybe the truth will meet somewhere in between
Each side of the story
This is my story

"So Far..."

I’ve spent my life drifting aimlessly
I never had to worry about danger
I was always safe
I made sure there was a safety net
I would have never thought to fly without lines
I was never brave
I always kept someone close to me
I never ventured out in the darkness alone
Just one step behind
It was always easier this way
to go through my life always watching your back
So you could fall first

So far I’ve taken care of you
Seen you succeed instead of me
So far I’ve never been alone
Always had someone by my side
So far I’ve always had a hand
To make sure I never went wrong

Maybe I need to be alone

I have always taken your advice
Even if my mind told me that you were wrong
So you could be blamed
One day I thought I’d go on my own
But I only replaced you with some one else
I can’t be alone

So far I’ve taken care of you
Seen you succeed instead of me
So far I’ve never been alone
Always had someone by my side
So far I’ve always had a hand
To make sure I never went wrong

Maybe I need to be alone

"Hurts"

I never asked for this
I always thought I was happy
What started with a kiss
Has grown into a need
You’re all I’m thinking of
Every hour of every day
I have fallen in love
And I can’t get enough

The love I have for you
Hurts so bad
The ache I feel for you
Hurts so bad
The need I have for you
Hurts so bad
The pain I feel for you
Hurts so bad

You’ve broken down my wall
Leaving me vulnerable to you
All I can do is fall
For you more and more and
More I fall in this pain
I torture myself everyday
I’ll never feel the same
My hearts been ripped open

The love I have for you
Hurts so bad
The ache I feel for you
Hurts so bad
The need I have for you
Hurts so bad
The pain I feel for you
Hurts so bad

And in the wake of this emotional awakening
As Saturn returns for the first time
I step into eternity

The love I have for you
Hurts so bad
The ache I feel for you
Hurts so bad
The need I have for you
Hurts so bad
The pain I feel for you
Hurts so bad

"Rodney (Reality)"

Everyone thinks that I’m quiet

Inoffensive and naïve

But inside of me’s a riot

That you won’t believe

You thought I’d just play it safe

And coast along unnoticed

But inside of me’s a lion

Ready to be free

Rodney’s hiding in between the lines

Of my simple reality

You should have seen all the warning signs

In my simple reality

He’s a monster that’s fighting his cage

Of my simple reality

Now it’s time for him to take this stage

From my simple reality

Once you find him just beware

He will knock you off your feet

So just hold on to your prayer

You’ll need it in your defeat

I’m tired of holding myself back

It’s coming out hard and fast

You should have known there was more

Than little quiet Mitchell

Rodney’s hiding in between the lines

Of my simple reality

You should have seen all the warning signs

In my simple reality

He’s a monster that’s fighting his cage

Of my simple reality

Now it’s time for him to take this stage

From my simple reality

"Cut The Strings"

I’m ready to cut the strings

And be free

If you’re not sure you want to

Be with me

I won’t sit around and wait for you

To make up your mind

Don’t keep me hanging on to a hope

I don’t have the time

These eight years was fun but if you’re done

Let’s just walk away

Call it done and let the sun come up

On a brand new day

I’m ready to cut the strings

And be free

If you’re not sure you want to

Be with me

So I guess I’m just not fun enough

For you anymore

I gave you everything I have to give

And you still want more

But it’s clear you don’t want it from me

I won’t hold you up

Don’t let me be the one in your way

I’ll just give you up

I’m ready to cut the strings

And be free

If you’re not sure you want to

Be with me

I’ll take my freedom and enjoy it

One day you’ll miss me

I’ll be gone like you already are

One day you will see…

"Separation"

Here we are at a crossroads

We’ve grown apart

And numb to our feelings

We can’t admit where we stand

We’ve had our fun

But is this were we’re done

Take a break

Understand

Our feelings

Figure out

What I want

For myself

I’m tired of pretending

I’m tired of the in between

What’s beyond the separation?

I’m ready enough to move on

But I love you enough to hold on

I just won’t fear separation

You’re all that I’ve ever know

But I’m not scared

You taught me to be brave

Can you just make up your mind?

I’m still waiting

When will this waiting end

Take a break

Think it through

Don’t react

Figure out

What you want

For yourself

I’m tired of pretending

I’m tired of the in between

What’s beyond the separation?

I’m ready enough to move on

But I love you enough to hold on

I just won’t fear separation