Gone & Done

Despite the solitude 

The emptiness

I want to see you again

Whoever you are. 

I’m seeking peace

With or without you 

I’m scratching an itch I can’t reach

And craving someone i won’t meet

I’m learning things you will never know

I want you but you’re gone

I need you but you’re done 

You’ve made it very clear. 

I don’t exist

No more of the fairy tales. 

You made it so clear. 

I sought relief 

With or without you. 

I’m looking for someone who I need

Who may or not have past me by

I’m aware of everything right now. 

I love you but you’re gone

I crave you but you’re done. 

Say goodbye

All this has been great

But it’s time

Say goodbye 

The future a threat. 

Now it’s time

Say goodbye

It’s gone and done 

I want you but you’re gone

I need you but you’re done 

I love you but you’re gone

I crave you but you’re done. 

Human

I ache for approval

If you aren’t going to

Then disappear 

I don’t need your negativity. 

I seek some approval

But if you said you do. 

I would still fear. 

You crave my negative energy. 

Somewhere in the middle

We find each other.  

The devil inside

The angel that’s on your shoulder 

What makes us...

Human at the most

This and that, now and again

Human at the best

Good and bad, truth and the lies 

Human at the worst

Sad and mad, questioning why 

I need you to see me 

For better or worst 

This is my self 

And you can not save me I’m okay. 

There’s nothing wrong with me

No blessing or curse 

I am my self

I just struggle with me day to day 

Devil with your fiddle 

We find each other

A truth that’s a lie

An eternity to ponder. 

What makes us...

Human at the most

This and that, now and again

Human at the best

Good and bad, truth and the lies 

Human at the worst

Sad and mad, questioning why 

Finite and flawed

Believing in a higher power

Where’s the line

What’s the lie

 Human at the most

This and that, now and again

Human at the best

Good and bad, truth and the lies 

Human at the worst

Sad and mad, questioning why 

Pure

Home alone 

I don’t know who you are

It’s been so long 

Fear isn’t gone

We should talk from afar

The past is done

Stop please...

Explain yourself to me

What do you want with me now

I’m trying to take care of myself.  

Tell me...

Confess your intent to me

Or is just your psyche now 

I’m still focusing on myself. 

Pure

Trying to find it

Pure 

I’m looking for it

Pure

It’s everything now

Pure

And it’s all on you. 

Here I am

I’ve knows you from afar

All that is wrong 

I won’t be done

We shouldn’t move further 

Our past is done. 

Let go...

I should understand this

But I can’t without your advice. 

What is this and who are we  now 

Pure?

Are we?

True?

Are we?

Sure?

Are we?

True?

Are we?

Pure

Trying to find it

Pure 

I’m looking for it

Pure

It’s everything now

Pure

And it’s all on you. 

The Best

I try to be many things

And end up nothing.  

Yet here I am

Still Trying. 

Until it hurts

Now I’m crying

Because I’m weak

Everything I want to be

Everything I seek 

I’ll never be.  

The best,

Adventurous,

Respected,

Worthy,

I could be yours

And honored

Do you know how much I give

To be denied all

But I won’t run

From all this

And now it burns

This fever I feel

Because I want 

Everything I’ve been denied 

Everything I crave 

I’ll never get 

The best,

Adventurous,

Respected,

Worthy,

I could be yours

And honored

I won’t settle

If that’s my option

I’ll be alone. 

Everything I’ve dreamed of gone

Everything I could 

Be just a dream. 

The best,

Adventurous,

Respected,

Worthy,

I could be yours

And honored

My Freedom

Fuck life 

Fuck a virgin 

Fuck a saint 

Fuck a whore. 

And fuck you

Despite you and your torture 

I’m better off without you

So fuck you 

Despite you and misfortune. 

I’m better off without you. 

Freedom

My freedom

You wish I miss you

But I don’t care. 

This life

New beginnin’

What you ain’t

I want more 

So fuck you

You don’t matter any more 

I’m escaping your touch 

And fuck you 

You aren’t what I’m living for 

I see you never meant much 

Freedom

My freedom

You wish I missed you

But I don’t care. 

I don’t want him

He’s a tombstone

In my memory

He could show up tomorrow

And I’d see a specter

A reflection 

Of a former life. 

Freedom

My freedom

You wish I missed you

But I don’t care. 

Freedom

My freedom

You wish I missed you

Freedom

My freedom. 

Freedom

I’m free

Free of you

You can’t take me back

Say goodbye

Feel The Tremor

Feel the ache

Quiver and shake. 

When you see my face

Smell my scent

Anytime I can come close to you

My lips to your ear

My hand on your waist

Feel the tremor

My hand on your back

My bare skin on yours

Feel the tremor. 

You’re pulling me in

But do

you know just what you’re doing

I’m addictive

Give in to a sin 

Even if 

You don’t know what you are feeling. 

I’m refreshing 

For my sake

Do not mistake

When you see my face

I won’t relent

Anytime someone comes close to you. 

My thoughts on your thoughts

My tongue past your lips

Feel the tremor 

My mouth against your neck 

My skin inside of yours 

Feel the tremor 

You’re pulling me in

But do

you know just what you’re doing

I’m addictive

Give in to a sin 

Even if 

You don’t know what you are feeling. 

I’m refreshing 

You should be compelled.  

To enjoy this moment 

Feel the tremor.  

You’re pulling me in

But do

you know just what you’re doing

I’m addictive

Give in to a sin 

Even if 

You don’t know what you are feeling. 

I’m refreshing 

1984 - Become Sunshine

I was born sometime in 1984

As an uncle a brother of my father

Was dying

Johnny died October 1984 

Six months since my birthday the twenty ninth day

They’re crying

As an infant I was joyous

A bright spot in a sad moment

A spot of sunshine my aunt recognized. 

Keep smiling

Despite the darkness

Become sunshine

And let the light illuminate. 

April the twenty ninety 1984

Something that should have never happened did, now 

Here I am

So later on in 1984

This forbidden child made things a lesser blow 

Here I am. 

As a person I am joyous

A bright point in a sad moment 

A spot of sunshine my aunt recognized 

Keep smiling

Despite the darkness

Become sunshine

And let the light illuminate. 

It’s easy to fall In the darkness

Find your joy in a child

Who knows nothing of pain

And only knows joy...

I was that child

I would be that man

But I’ve known the pain

I do all I can

If I fail I’ll try again. 

Keep smiling

Despite the darkness

Become sunshine

And let the light illuminate.