The Same Old Lies

 The Same Old Lies

Here we are once again

At the start or the finish line

Depending on your view.  

I’m tired of being poetic

I just want to be honest 

Because pretty words and these pleasantries 

Are all bull shit

They don’t make sense 

Analogies Masquerading as full proof lies. 

Im tired of it.   

The false lull of security

That there is a happy ever after

It’s fairy tale bullshit

We idiots believe in 

And you and I

Could have been something

But why

Is that a thing 

All this is

All these are

All that’s here

Are lies 

The same old lies

In the mirror I see 

What are Two real realities 

But what is really true. 

It’s stupid to be faithful now

When no one now even cares 

As we realize the beauty of all 

humanity 

Is all a lie

It always was

Sympathies pretending to be feelings I feel

It’s the last call

For the fakers and the bullshit 

The god damn lying story tellers too

It too good to be true 

No one can see it to be

And you and I

Could have been something

But why

Is that a thing 

All this is

All these are

All that’s here

Are lies 

The same old lies

愛 cosmic joke

 

Late nights together

No one knows

How much you’ve came in sight

I’m not even sure 

You know

Because I feel

You don’t know

And if you do

It’s a cosmic joke

What it means when I say 

I love you 

Have you a clue 

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

Despite the weather

A bloom shows

What was dead now is light

So is this thought true

And so 

Now what is real

I don’t know 

What if I do

It’s a cosmic joke 

What you did on that day

Was so cruel 

If I’m a fool. 

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

You teased me

Not to be right now 

But now be right 

Yet here we are

Right here in the now

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

愛愛愛

It’s a cosmic joke

空虚の歌

 Fade fade 立ち去る  (walk away)

Feeling nothing 

Craving something 

As much as I want to give you this is a

空虚の歌 

When the world fails us we have a

空虚の歌

これは一体どういう意味ですか?

What 

What does

What does all this

What does all this mean ?

Now now 〜は愛です (is love)

Finding myself 

In what is left 

Voices scream and silence says that this is a

空虚の歌 

At the end when no one cares a

空虚の歌 

気にする必要がありますか？

Why

Why should

Why should I evvvvvvvvvvvvvv...

Why should I even care

Craven broke emptiness

Vaguely masquerading. 

Vagrantly playing 

光 no love story

I fade into 

空虚の歌 

Collection of Heartbreaks

 

The early ones

The cheater

The young Latin one

The one with drugs

The relationship phobe 

The damaged one

The one who lurked in the shadows 

The one who ghosted

The ones I won’t let in

Because of all of you

I’m damaged 

But none of you deserve to exist in my present.  

You all did your damage and I’m done with you. 

I’m letting you all go one by one. 

Do you know which One is you?

Are you wise or are you blind

Unaware of your damage

It doesn’t matter I’m kissing you all goodbye 

Where do I find my self now

In and out of love

Left broken hearted 

Shall we take inventory

Of collection of heartbreaks 

The early ones

The cheater

The young Latin one

The one with drugs

The relationship phobe 

The damaged one

The one who lurked in the shadows 

The one who ghosted

The ones I won’t let in

Because of all of you

I’m afraid

I’ll just find another one of you to join y’all’s list 

And I don’t know if I can take more heartbreak 

Yet I keep trying to break my heart 

Do you know where you fit in

This tragedy here

That I call my sad love life

Maybe the last try at love was my final try 

Where do I find my self now

In and out of love

Left broken hearted 

Shall we take inventory

Of collection of heartbreaks 

The early ones

The cheater

The young Latin one

The one with drugs

The relationship phobe 

The damaged one

The one who lurked in the shadows 

The one who ghosted

The ones I won’t let in

Help me, Damn it, Help me

 

We pretend we love ourselves 

When we live in internal conflicts

It’s not you it’s me not us

Or is all that backwards

Help me, damn it, help me

You don’t know

What the sun looks like in your eyes

That’s personal privilege 

A moment of joy 

When I loved you so

But right now

I see it’s means nothing

On my behalf as I

Never loved myself 

So here I begin to face the truth 

We pretend we love ourselves 

When we live in internal conflicts

It’s not you it’s me not us

Or is all that backwards

Help me, damn it, help me

In this show

I excuse myself many times 

I’ve no clue how to bridge 

Your basic toy

To your basic bro 

God damn wow

It doesn’t mean a thing 

In this moment I  try 

To prove I’m enough 

So here I begin to face the truth

We pretend we love ourselves 

When we live in internal conflicts

It’s not you it’s me not us

Or is all that backwards

Help me, damn it, help me

This is better a prologue 

Than a story

As we are scratching the surface 

Of a darkness

Only I understand 

Yet I aspire

To communicate

And illustrate

This... this... this

We pretend we love ourselves 

When we live in internal conflicts

It’s not you it’s me not us

Or is all that backwards

Help me, damn it, help me

Illogical Love

 

82 hours and half past 62

The things I would do to you

This isn’t how we speak

Gibberish

I could be a fool 

Maybe even for you 

Does that explain that nonsense?

I loved you once

I’m bitter now

I could shoot you dead with a glance 

Who was the dunce

Oh it’s me wow

I’d erase you given the chance 

41 minutes and 31 seconds 

The things I once did for you 

Looking back I was weak 

Foolishness

I was a damn tool

A pawn in what you do

I was blind with ignorance 

I loved you once

I’m bitter now

I could shoot you dead with a glance 

Who was the dunce

Oh it’s me wow

I’d erase you given the chance 

Illogic, Illogic 

Illogical Love

Illogic, Illogic

Illogical Love

A flash of day 146 weeks 

The things I regret with you 

In this moment to speak 

Ignorance. 

Trying to be cool 

While in search of what’s true 

Finding ground for this new stance 

I loved you once

I’m bitter now

I could shoot you dead with a glance 

Who was the dunce

Oh it’s me wow

I’d erase you given the chance 

Illogic, Illogic 

Illogical Love

Illogic, Illogic

Illogical Love

Not anymore

I will rise above 

Not anymore

Illogical love

Not anymore 

With push come to shove

Not anymore

Illogical love

Dirt and Mud

 

How soon am I an asshole

In the dirt and mud

The drugs in the sun

When do I become one

With myself. 

That trip to Baton Rouge

Jacking me off

On I-10

We loved an audience. 

It doesn’t matter

Despite what we know 

Intertwined and unwinding

Hand me a glass of wine

I’ll tell you about a time

When I was wild

Weren’t we all

I thought my life fine 

Fighting throughout the damn trine

I was a child 

And we fall

How soon am I an asshole

In the dirt and mud

The drugs in the sun

When do I become one

With myself.

All at once ignoring you

Blowing you off. 

If I could

I’d love to show off again 

It doesn’t matter

Despite what we know 

Intertwined and unwinding

And In this world of rhyme

We think we hear a full chime 

When I was pure

Innocent 

Give me a hand not mine

I’ll ignore it the dirty grime. 

This much is true

My event 

How soon am I an asshole

In the dirt and mud

The drugs in the sun

When do I become one

With myself.

A moment

A chance

Shot in the dark

We don’t talk about that

A desire

A stance 

Yes it is stark 

We don’t talk about that. 

How soon am I an asshole

In the dirt and mud

The drugs in the sun

When do I become one

With myself.