"STAND UP!"

Everything in you reaches out for hope

As you run away for the unexpected

You’re on your own you have to find your way

Nothing will be like it is today

You can’t fade into obscurity

As life forces you out into the spotlight

So now it’s your chance to prove to us all

You have what it takes to be a man

Don’t think of looking back now

What you saw then won’t be there now

These are times when we need to rise

Feelings of fear are running high

The whole world seems out to get you

So just stand up, stand up, stand up

I once felt like I could never cope

All things coming at me from all directions

Forcing me to make choices I’d run from

No one gave me any other way

I took a chance and I pushed ahead

Leaving behind every comfort in my mind

Standing up to all the fears that hold me

And now I know that I can make it

Won’t think of looking back now

What I had then won’t be there now

There are times when we feel alone

Empty feelings creating voids

The whole world seems so unwelcoming

So I stand up, stand up, stand up

You can’t hide from it

It will come for you

You can’t suppress it

It will overwhelm you

These are times when we need to rise

Feelings of fear are running high

The whole world seems out to get you

So just stand up, stand up, stand up

There are times when we feel alone

Empty feelings creating voids

The whole world seems so unwelcoming

So I stand up, stand up, stand up

"Last On The List"

You did more that day than break my face

You snapped my life into view

A broken bone may hurt but I feel no pain

You’re crime helped me to understand

I’ve always chased the wrong guy

None have been worth my time

Although I’ve wasted too much

You took the last of my innocence

You’re the last on the list

Of the men who were not true

You’re the last on the list

My next will be better than you

You’re the last on the list

You fit in well with the rest

You’re the last on the list

The next one will pass the test

Up until you snapped and flipped on me

I wasn’t sure of my choice

It was when my blood pooled on your hardwood floors

That my every doubt left my brain

You’re not breaking the cycle

You just made it go round

I’ve spun out and now I see

Your ride was dangerous to my health

You’re the last on the list

Of the men who will hurt me

You’re the last on the list

I always knew but now I see

You’re the last on the list

And just like rest of them

You’re the last on the list

I’ve put you where you belong

I prayed that you would be last

I should have been careful what I wished for

Instead of my forever

You were just an ending

To a chapter, a turning point

Not a book, not my life

"Manipulator"

You’re smart, a little sly

And you know you’re good looking

You’re sweet, a little shy

What are your true intentions

You slide on in unexpectedly

Just ready for the thrill

But what no one ever sees is

You’re ready for the kill

You’re a manipulator

Say what you need to

Do what you have to

Just to win a heart

You’re a manipulator

Living a lie now

Sewing the seed now

Waiting for your prize

You blame the alcohol

Or your pain you hide so well

That time you cried in the hall

An act or real I can’t tell

And you still act so unaware

It’s just a little game

But the stakes here are much higher

Only you can take blame

You’re a manipulator

Say what you need to

Do what you have to

Just to win a heart

You’re a manipulator

Living a lie now

Sewing the seed now

Waiting for your prize

I’m looking at you

Brown eyed with a fair face

I’m looking at you

Staring back from the mirror

You’re a manipulator

Say what you need to

Do what you have to

Just to win a heart

You’re a manipulator

Living a lie now

Sewing the seed now

Waiting for your prize

"A Lilly"

Trading one addiction for another

Love for alcohol for methamphetamine

Filling a void long since forgotten

What will be the next exchange?

If I don’t get the help I need

One day a Lilly fell across my path

Was she a premonition or something fleeting?

She was beat down from the crowd

Drained of substance

Would I look the same?

Holding a Lilly

In a grave alone one day

Her story had similar exchanges

Just switching heroin for another high

Is her unknown void the same as mine?

Where will her exchanges lead?

Or could we both end up the same

One day a Lilly fell across my path

Was she a premonition or something fleeting?

She was beat down from the crowd

Drained of substance

Would I look the same?

Holding a Lilly

In a grave alone one day

"Why Keep On"

I’ve been giving you your space

Hoping you would say what’s on your chest

You’ve come close a time or two

But I feel you’re coming up short

I keep having premonitions

Visions of what you’ve locked inside

But I’m not sure what’s real anymore

Including the relationship I’m lead to believe in

I’m over being used

Taken for everything I have

And when the fun is gone

My heart is disregarded

Why keep on

When my heart will break

So is this my own damn fault

Thinking you could be exclusive

When that’s something out of reach

You can’t keep your hands to yourself

What goodness you have inside you

Fooled me into seeing much more

My heart wants to keep trusting in you

But my head tells me that I’m a fool and I know the truth

I’m over being used

Being made to look like a fool

Like I’m the last to know

When I knew it all along

Why keep on

When my heart will break

So if we say goodbye

To a whirlwind romance

Never fully consummated

You said that level of intimacy was precious and sacred

I guess you thought I wasn’t good enough

Why keep on

When my heart will break

"N2U"

I will break into your heart

just to find my heart you stole... 

But all I want to take away is, 

your heart to beat as mine

I'm not going to lie and say I've never felt like this before

But you're giving me this and so much more

I don't know what hold you have over me

But I'm eager to see what we can be

Cause I'm in to you

I'm waiting for you to let

Me inside your heart and mind

I want to ease your hurt and your pain

Just like you're easing mine

What is it that I have to say or do to be the one for you

Just how much time do I have to endure

You say you're such a mess but so am I

Filled with happiness so much that I cry

Cause I'm in to you

Listen to the words I say

No matter how much I want

This will happen when it's suppose to

Ill be here until then

Cause I'm in to you

Complicated (Easy For Me)

I shouldn’t feel like this about you

When you’re my best friend’s fantasy

And I’m still spending too much time with my ex

Maybe that’s the reason why I crave you

Something I shouldn’t want to hold

Or my last exposed me to severe neglect

We were never supposed to intersect

Just come into view and stay on course

Why is always complicated?

When it seems so easy for me

You offer rescue from destruction

But just for me and no one else

Everyone else cries as it all falls apart now

Call me selfish but what about me

All I did then was give my self

While I was left needing more than they gave me

We were never supposed to become what

I can see growing in my sweetest dreams

Why is it always complicated?

When it seems so easy for me

Why is it always complicated?

When it seems so easy for me

Why is it that you have what I want

When you shouldn’t be here with me