Won’t Give Up

I’m here alone 

Trying to hold on

To a Chance I’ll be found

But I have lost every hope

It’s all but gone

My hope is just done

There is no common ground 

How does a romantic cope 

A chance a chance

Someone’s still out there 

In that darkness

I stumble 

Trying to find my way to you.  

The fantasy of true love

The hope of eternity

Keeps me trying 

I won’t give up

The chances of true love

The dream of eternity

Keeps me trying

I won’t give up. 

On you on me

I’d place bets on us

I am that confident 

That this is a guarantee. 

What a dream

Lovers and the lust

But what Is relevant 

It’s still just a fantasy

A dream a dream

That you would love me

In that darkness

I stumble 

Trying to find my way to you.

The fantasy of true love

The hope of eternity

Keeps me trying 

I won’t give up

The chances of true love

The dream of eternity

Keeps me trying

I won’t give up. 

I’m assigned for my self

To live alone

To die alone

No family or friend by my side

It’s a generation

It’s a culture

It’s what I was born into

I’ve got hope in my self 

To find someone

To be happy

Choices of family by my side 

It’s a generation

It’s a culture

It’s what I was born into

I’ve got hope in my self 

The fantasy of true love

The hope of eternity

Keeps me trying 

I won’t give up

The chances of true love

The dream of eternity

Keeps me trying

I won’t give up. 

Trying to Adjust

I’m twitchy

Like an addict

There’s so much I want to say

But I can’t find the damn words 

What can be said

About where we are

Who we are now

It’s a fools guess

In the here and now

We shift and shuffle

Trying to adjust 

To the here and now

I twist and tumble 

Trying to adjust 

It’s fuzzy

What is real

Who were we then on that day 

When we became these strangers 

You’re not so bad

And I’m not that kind

I can’t so sad

I wasn’t wrong 

In the here and now

We shift and shuffle

Trying to adjust 

To the here and now

I twist and tumble 

Trying to adjust 

To a new normal

Without your foolishness 

I’m better off single

I won’t be formal

Fuck off this ignorance 

These dreams can now crumble

In the here and now

We shift and shuffle

Trying to adjust 

To the here and now

I twist and tumble 

Trying to adjust 

Awaiting The Dawn

Flickering lights

A swollen face

No one knows

How he got here

Those secret fights

Just for a chase

With no shows

What is this fear

You look away but it’s okay

So do I

When I look in the mirror

It’s fine I’ll live another day 

So then why

Cry looking in the mirror 

Those times where hard but are gone

I’m not that man any more

I saw it throughout it all 

I’m here awaiting the dawn

Songs of the birds

Light is in view

Who is he

In my eyesight 

He says my words 

What do I do

Why is he

Filled with such might

He seems so familiar to see

Is he I?

If I do not look backwards

I want that future just for me 

No more lies.

If I do not look backwards

Those times where hard but are gone

I’m not that man any more

I saw it throughout it all 

I’m here awaiting the dawn

You found me in the sunlight

Betrayed me midday

And by dusk you ran off

I wandered time with no sight

With no voice to say

You don’t care about loss

Those times where hard but are gone

I’m not that man any more

I saw it throughout it all 

I’m here awaiting the dawn

元気ですか (How Are You)

Remember me?

Or can you not forget

For the right reasons

Or my mistakes

2010 isn’t 2020

Nor am I 

You don’t find me fondly

But you don’t know me

Stuck in a moment in time

Forged in stone illusions

I exist for you

But that was years ago

I’m no longer cast in that role

I lived through that

Just like you but

On the other side

I lived through that

Just like you but 

元気ですか

Thanks for asking 

Im still healing from you 

It is mutual. 

どこにいますか

In your recovery

Over me?

You don’t find me fondly

But what of it now

Does it matter who was wrong

Or was right nowadays 

A scapegoat we were

For each other back then

Out of the darkness now we’re here 

I lived through that

Just like you but

On the other side

I lived through that

Just like you but 

元気ですか

大丈夫ですか？ この治癒は容易ではありません。 私はそれを強く演奏しますが、私は優しいです。 これは意味がありますか？ 任意の言語で。

どこに立つ (Doko ni tatsu)

Foolish times and simple crimes 

Hopeful dreams and desired chances 

It always fails in the end

Because I shouldn’t be here

With you

Yet here we are 

I’m in handcuffs

Wondering how I’m going to call my mother

You’re talking fast

I fear the worst 

This moment could be my ever after forever 

Flippantly playing at life

Will slap you in the face

It hurts when it does

Doko ni tatsu.  (どこに立つ)

Foolish times and simple crimes 

Hopeful dreams and desired chances 

It always fails in the end

Because I shouldn’t be here

With you

Damn damn damn it

I’m living life 

Filled with regrets of 30 some odd years but still

I love you fool

Whoever now

Is the idiot who fits into that position. 

Flippantly playing at life

Will slap you in the face

It hurts when it does

Doko ni tatsu.  (どこに立つ)

Laughing while I just cry now

Because the future isn’t enough 

Here and now or without you. 

Since it does not make sense 

Without you. 

Foolish times and simple crimes 

Hopeful dreams and desired chances 

It always fails in the end

Because I shouldn’t be here

With you

(私と一緒でなければどこに立つの？)

Watashi to isshodenakereba doko ni tatsu no?

This Is Dumb/Cracker

You want a chance

Just a start

A moment on this 

Anything to be close

I reach closer to you

Yet you pull away

I try to extend again. 

And I excite

Foolish fools try to say

Just what lie we should be

Empty hearts tell the lies

That tell us where we went wrong 

Blah. 

This is dumb. 

Fuck this dumb bullshit

Your bigotry and ignorance

I played it nice 

But you won’t let me be so

Fuck this redneck shit

The hatred and foolishness 

I played it nice

But you won’t let me be so...

I’m going to be myself

A cracker bastard who won’t let go

Of all the bull shit everyone’s been through

I want a choice

In my star. 

A man that I could kiss. 

Anything to be close 

I’d do anything for you 

You don’t understand 

I try again just for you 

As I exit 

Ignorance lives till this day. 

What delusions should be

Vacant souls hear the cries

Of those of us who are gone 

Damn

This is dumb

Fuck this dumb bullshit

Your bigotry and ignorance

I played it nice 

But you won’t let me be so

Fuck this redneck shit

The hatred and foolishness 

I played it nice

But you won’t let me be so...

I’m going to be myself

A cracker bastard who won’t let go

Of all the bull shit everyone’s been through

I tried to be simple 

But In the background 

Behind a love story

Was racism so systematic 

I couldn’t handle it 

He was cute and he was dumb 

But I couldn’t join another racist

While giving myself away

And that’s how it ends

Fuck this dumb bullshit

Your bigotry and ignorance

I played it nice 

But you won’t let me be so

Fuck this redneck shit

The hatred and foolishness 

I played it nice

But you won’t let me be so...

I’m going to be myself

A cracker bastard who won’t let go

Of all the bull shit everyone’s been through

Despite Rhymes

It’s time

Despite rhymes 

To make you mine

It’s the time for many things.  

A long due revolution 

Righting wrongs 

Across all time 

I’m here for that 

Where do I begin 

But before that 

Imma be selfish

Let me find a partner 

Who will also fight this fight

It’s time

Despite rhymes 

To make you mine

That’s a dream in spite of things 

I’ll let go for a solution

Singing songs

That aren’t just mine 

Join me in that

Where do we begin?

But before this

I waza selfish 

Just wanting a cohort

 Who will also fight this fight. 

And in my mind 

It’s still time

To make you mine. 

But I don’t need him

I wanted my voice to be a chorus

But I don’t need him.