Escape

 

I’m done with this 

Nine to five

Required Overtime 

Burnt out living to die

All I want

Is to escape

With no regrets 

Just to escape 

Day after day

It’s the same old thing

Do your best

Try and be strong 

But here comes life

A commercial enterprise 

Just To beat you down

Until you don’t want to

Exist 

Resist 

Don’t be a fool

A tool of an enterprise 

You don’t accept

Yet it pays your bills

Find a way to rise above it

But… wait… what?

I’m done with this 

Nine to five

Required Overtime 

Burnt out living to die

All I want

Is to escape

With no regrets 

Just to escape 

What did I say

And what made me sing 

I need rest 

Long gone and wrong 

Dealing with strife 

Being strong but having cries 

I deserve a crown

For living how I do 

Survive 

Persist 

Dive in the pool 

And someday we all will rise 

Do you love me

Or just a cheap thrill. 

Find a way to take advantage 

But… wait… what?

I’m done with this 

Nine to five

Required Overtime 

Burnt out living to die

All I want

Is to escape

With no regrets 

Just to escape 

May it be the work frustration

Or my life’s aggregations. 

I’m done

I need an escape. 

I’m done with this 

Nine to five

Required Overtime 

Burnt out living to die

All I want

Is to escape

With no regrets 

Just to escape 

Square Dance

 

Let me take a moment 

To stop

Reflect

And grow

I’ve spent so much bad time 

But why

Did I

Waste it

Playing the victim card

I’m weak

And then

Blamed you

That’s dumb, I was young and irresponsible 

I couldn’t own my mistakes in our romance

You were no hero but not the one villain. 

A relationship takes two to tango 

A failed one is a square dance 

Throwing each one off to another

In an endless dance we’ve danced 

Now that I am older

I see

And know

It’s wrong

That I blamed you alone

No one

We knew

Was safe

Everyone was involved 

That saw

Or said

A thing 

They did too much or they did nothing at all 

Complicit bystanders but back to us please

We need to face it that we both fucked it up 

A relationship takes two to tango 

A failed one is a square dance 

Throwing each one off to another

In an endless dance we’ve danced 

5 6 7 8

Swing your allegations round and round 

Grab a lie that’s by your side 

Pass it off to the one that’s next

And let it rotate that mistake 

A relationship takes two to tango 

A failed one is a square dance 

Throwing each one off to another

In an endless dance we’ve danced 

Drown Out

 

Death, breath, death

The world comes at you fast

With no time to react 

But I’m trying

With all my might 

To keep my head above water

I’m trying to be a hero

But I’m sinking 

Into the darkness

The silent emptiness 

I sip and try and breathe

My drinks almost done

The liquor store closed

And the bar is too 

How am I suppose to drown out everything I’m feeling. 

The flood is long gone 

That ending is deposed 

So what can I do 

How am I suppose to drown out everything I’m feeling. 

Pain, scream, pain

Yes nothing ever lasts 

More of life’s  painful facts 

Where is the lie

Not in my sight 

Can I try to tread this falter 

I’m trying to move past zero 

But I can’t add

Anything to this

Every try is a miss 

I gasp and cry for me

My drinks almost done

The liquor store closed

And the bar is too 

How am I suppose to drown out everything I’m feeling. 

The flood is long gone 

That ending is deposed 

So what can I do 

How am I suppose to drown out everything I’m feeling. 

More and more and more

Until it’s all blurry and I don’t remember 

Anything and that’s okay 

Let me be numb rather than feel this pain 

My drinks almost done

The liquor store closed

And the bar is too 

How am I suppose to drown out everything I’m feeling. 

The flood is long gone 

That ending is deposed 

So what can I do 

How am I suppose to drown out everything I’m feeling. 

When the Future is Involved

 

I don’t feel I belong here anymore

With a culture shift and realignment 

I was the greatest but right now 

I’m insignificant with these changes

Should I check out 

Clock out 

Resign 

What’s this all about 

My doubt 

Realign. 

Yesterday way perfect 

Today has warning signs 

Tomorrow means nothing 

When the future is involved

Yessiree it’s perfect 

Lies told with perfect lines 

Words that don’t mean a thing 

When the future is involved. 

Checking with the boss I’m off right now so

I try To center my soul for what that means 

Fuck Bureaucracy I’m saying

They are irrelevant and I’m standing 

Should I give up

Let go

Resign

Is it a setup 

I know 

Realign 

Yesterday way perfect 

Today has warning signs 

Tomorrow means nothing 

When the future is involved

Yessiree it’s perfect 

Lies told with perfect lines 

Words that don’t mean a thing 

When the future is involved. 

You don’t know

If it’s time to resign

Or realign 

But should I

Give up or checks out 

What’s this about a set up 

Resign realign. 

Yesterday way perfect 

Today has warning signs 

Tomorrow means nothing 

When the future is involved

Yessiree it’s perfect 

Lies told with perfect lines 

Words that don’t mean a thing 

When the future is involved. 

Afterlife

 

Death isn’t fair

Each time a love one dies 

We slip further away and disconnect 

Why don’t we do better 

And try to stay combined

As a family. 

With Andrea gone

She joins Naomi

Athel, Brooks, Maurice, Milton (daddy)

Johnny and Atwood plus the ones

Who preceded them. 

What is right in the light 

The afterlife 

Why does “god” take the good ones 

I cry 

Away. 

I shouldn’t care

 I do with all my Cries 

We slip away but want to reconnect 

Who are we to be us

 And try to be honest 

Within love

With Andrea gone

She joins Naomi

Athel, Brooks, Maurice, Milton (daddy)

Johnny and Atwood plus the ones

Who preceded them. 

What is right in the light 

The afterlife 

Why does “god” take the good ones 

I cry 

Away. 

The baby of the family

I’ve seen so much death

Since October 1984

But this one

Another baby

Feels so wrong. 

What is right in the light 

The afterlife 

Why does “god” take the good ones 

I cry 

Away. 

In The Aftermath

 I have fallen in love again

But you stay in my mind

And I can't get my love to commit to me

When you still stay in my thoughts

One year later to the day

I celebrate my independence

And mourn the loss of material things

I'm happy where I am at now

But sad you couldn't be the one

 

Chad & Bryan

A duality in the aftermath

Both failed 

To give me what I was looking for 

Picture it the fall of 1 2 

I was ruined for love

Trying so hard to find a peace that would fit 

When every choice was so wrong 

And to this day I’m better

Than I was when under your shadow. 

I’ve morned my past without any regrets 

Content to the point of bliss 

But not foolish to what could be 

Chad & Bryan

A duality in the aftermath

Both failed 

To give me what I was looking for 

Then there’s Jason, always a Jason

The fucked up harmony 

I saw your flaws

Blinded by your lies

I forgave them

Like a fool

But then

At the end of the day

I ran away, as far as I dared

Chad & Bryan

A duality in the aftermath

Both failed 

To give me what I was looking for 

Each one worse than the last

One broke my heart

One broke my spirit

One broke a bone 

Goodbye. 

Living In The Dark

 

Most often words most flowery

The ones drenched in perfume

Hide the sharpest points

That we don’t want to share

But why do we care

To hide the true 

Yet complain 

Of living in the dark. 

Someone can speak a thousand words

Without saying anything

And they could age for many years

Without ever living

We hide our true selves

Behind our best selves

Knowing it’s a lie

Here my words are just purity 

So why do we resume 

This endless damn dance 

That we don’t want to bare

But why do we care

To hide the true 

Yet complain 

Of living in the dark. 

We are blind but claim that we see

As our words can give us eyes 

How much can you see with my words 

If you don’t find them true

Words can kill me right now

Or can free me somehow 

Knowing I can try 

Why do words carry such duty 

Why we do what we do

Lies to protect 

Feelings we ignore 

But why do we care

To hide the true 

Yet complain 

Of living in the dark.