Faith/Love/Trust

 Faith/Love/Trust

Can you give me hope

Faith (in your self)

Love (that I need)

Trust (that you’re pure)

If you can’t, I need to move on

There was a time I was so insecure 

Questions every emotion I felt

With every wall up I was defensive 

I found myself over the years 

The many trials and the tears

I became bitter and hard 

Emerging brighter with this spark

Can you give me hope

Faith (in your self)

Love (that I need)

Trust (that you’re pure)

If you can’t, I need to move on

Now I understand the need for self love 

Despite the past saying I’m the problem

With open eyes I can see the truth 

For what it is your love was lies

Yet despite all of my tries 

I rose out of the darkness 

Shining brighter now than I have 

Can you give me hope

Faith (in your self)

Love (that I need)

Trust (that you’re pure)

If you can’t, I need to move on

One last chance

You won’t act on

It’s time to let you go

The last chance

You can’t become

Someone that I won’t know 

Can you give me hope

Faith (in your self)

Love (that I need)

Trust (that you’re pure)

If you can’t, I need to move on

We Say Goodbye

 

I’m a man of flesh and blood

Someone who simply is

I know you as well as you know me

Strangers in the daylight. 

You don’t know me

In my dark

In my light

I’m just a question why 

So we say goodbye

By the light 

What is right 

Into the night

Verbal trite

So we say goodbye 

I’m bitter and full of mood

A man who deals with this 

Why does this quest now fall upon me 

Why is this bullshit right 

Here are the lies

That you told

In my arms

I’m reaping in the lies 

So we say goodbye

By the light 

What is right 

Into the night

Verbal trite

So we say goodbye 

Lies goodbyes

No one tries 

We say what we say

And the world is silent.  

So we say goodbye

By the light 

What is right 

Into the night

Verbal trite

So we say goodbye I

Fuck It All

 Fuck It All

Realistic dreams

Fanatical realities

Nothing makes sense

Everything is clear

Some Idiotic comprehension 

Logical misunderstandings 

God damn

I’m trying 

To understand 

What is wrong what is right

You slam

While dying

In your last stand 

What is gone in the light 

Fuck it all

My addiction to you 

Is a danger

I can no longer crave 

Fuck it all

My enabling what you do 

Caution stranger 

Do not become a slave 

To this bullshit 

Despite right now all the honesties 

They make no sense 

This can’t be right 

In my eyes I can only see lies

Honest fact based realizations

Right now 

I’m trying 

To blend in

What is true what is wrong

Damn wow

I’m lying

To start again  

What was proof what is gone 

Fuck it all

My addiction to you 

Is a danger

I can no longer crave 

Fuck it all

My enabling what you do 

Caution stranger 

Do not become a slave 

You don’t know

The journey I’ll never share

It’s not just my story to tell

Cryptic basic bullshit

Is the best

You’ll ever

Get from

Me 

Fuck it all

My addiction to you 

Is a danger

I can no longer crave 

Fuck it all

My enabling what you do 

Caution stranger 

Do not become a slave 

But why

It’s my right 

I’ll plea the 5th

With poetic license 

Every day

Until the end of time 

Say good night bye luck and

Fuck it all

9/1 THE BEAUTY IN THE NOISE

 

We try to struggle to understand 

What is love what is hate

What is compassion and understanding

Im just a fool trying to comprehend 

The beauty In the noise 

I need to try and understand you

Even when you’re belligerent 

I’m trying to find you love you

Even if I don’t know you yet

It’s the first of September 

And I’m looking to you

To see feel and comprehend. 

It’s the first time

The last try

But why. 

Do we pretend this is our last stand 

What is chance what is fate. 

What is the truth and why do pretend 

The beauty in the noise 

I should try and forget what you do 

And forsake my blind ignorance 

I’m letting go what isn’t true. 

It’s a search for innocence 

It’s the first of September 

And I’m looking to you

To see feel and comprehend.

And here we are

Once again

My friend. 

Foolishly 

I want to hear 

The beauty in the noise 

Alabaster

 

There was a moment in time

I believed in fairy tales

The lies we tell ourselves

That true loves ever meant for us

Innocent and doey eyed

And unable to believe 

In true love crimes

I was

Alabaster

Porcelain 

Unblemished 

And breakable

Was who I was

Before life tarnished me

And now

I’m fragmented. 

I stand a victim, the crime 

Believing in love always fails

It’s a crime for the shelves

That matrimony is a must 

Now I’m bitter and jaded 

I can no longer receive 

Love in these times 

I was

Alabaster

Porcelain 

Unblemished 

And breakable

That’s now the past

Now ruined I can see 

Just how

Badly dreams have lied

I could sit and wait and cry it out

While I’m waiting for someone to figure it out

That’s not my place not my game 

As of now I’ll never be the same 

I’ve waited forever for the one 

But I see that hope is gone

I remember a time when because 

I was. 

Alabaster

Porcelain 

Unblemished 

And breakable

Was who I was

Before life tarnished me

And now

I’m fragmented. 

That’s now the past

Now ruined I can see 

Just how

Badly dreams have lied

Like Love

 Like Love

Do you know the meaning of love

Neither do I but I try to understand 

What it means to me for you and us

Do you comprehend what is above 

Neither can I not inside your fragment Neverland

In the nonsense madness is a plus 

Running circles running blind

Holding on to things 

That we want that don’t exist

Like love

It’s foolish

Ignorant 

What’s the truth 

Where the lie. 

But why why why 

Do you understand honest feeling

Like the basics love care and pure compassion. 

I feel it In my heart,  soul and bones 

I stand tall with all of my being 

I’ll be one who can stare at my reflection. 

Despite the past I can see out thrones 

I’m the architect right now 

Building everything 

That we want that don’t exist 

Like love

It’s foolish

Ignorant 

What’s the truth 

Where the lie. 

But why why why 

Do we lie

Do we try

To be something 

That we aren’t

Do we cry

Do we pry

In hatefulness 

When we aren’t 

Like love

It’s foolish

Ignorant 

What’s the truth 

Where the lie. 

But why why why 

Taurus

 

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

I’m trying damnit I’m trying 

To be the best lover you ever had

But do you see me, do you hear me

Can you feel me, no, you ignore me. 

I’m trying to be a lover 

Better than you’d ever know

But I’m hitting a wall. 

At this point I’m over it.    

You’re the foolish tool

You could make me happy

I’m a hopeless romantic after all 

But you’re dumb…. Dumb dumb

And I’m…. 

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

It doesn’t matter what I say 

Nothing exists now but that pinnacle. 

It’s lustful for me,  come into me

Do you see me, yet, you ignore me 

In the moments that are forever

I still love you despite 

You and your lies I try 

Right now I would give you more 

Than you’d give me so

I’m okay with myself 

I’m blind with loving that I want to share 

But it’s done… gone gone… 

And I’m…

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)

Damn it 

Force it

It’s mine

So have it

Damn it

Love it

It’s mine 

So live it 

Bullheaded 

Coming at you 

Filled with nothing but

Love and honest 

(Taurus)