Dark Winter

 Dark Winter

Let me in this moment 

Let me live this life

We could have been something special

We could have been. 

But here we are

Damn dumb fools

All around. 

I lived a life 

Despite you. 

Here we are 

Finding warmth

In a dark winter 

The world in a moment. 

Dies with a few words 

All that could have been so special 

It could have been 

Love seems so far 

What are the rules 

What is bound 

To the ether 

What to do

Here we are 

Finding warmth

In a dark winter 

Hold me close and don’t let go

I never knew how much I missed

This and your basic kiss

So here we are

In the dark silence 

Of this winter

Here we are 

Finding warmth

In a dark winter 

Although

 Although

I want you

Crave you 

Lust you 

Although 

I don’t know you. 

Just touch me in the wrong way

And make me feel alright 

Let me crave you after all

Your body is all I’m after. 

Let’s not ignore

How my body rises

For the body

Of a man

I haven’t had. 

I want you

Crave you 

Lust you 

Although 

I don’t know you. 

All you have to do is say 

I love you without fright 

Give me a moment so small. 

I’m Lusting your hood but what for 

Let’s recognize 

How I adore you more 

In the true light

Of someone 

Who ain’t so bad 

I want you

Crave you 

Lust you 

Although 

I don’t know you. 

You could make me alright 

This feeling isn’t good

It isn’t bad

At the end of the day. 

I want you

Crave you 

Lust you 

Although 

I don’t know you. 

What’s the New Year to Bring

Holidays ring in bitter things 

Like how you left me 

Mid December 

Now I’m better off 

Living my life 

Enjoying whatever it brings 

I once was a wantless tool

You could take advantage of

The chimes of December 

Sounded like love 

Then were the tones of death 

Of you and I a goodbye

That was then and then it was now

What’s the new year to bring 

I was innocent and naive 

What’s the new year to bring

Now I’m jaded from the lies told

What’s the new year to bring 

You proposed to me twice then

You left me three times 

Like I meant nought 

I had to find my

Way by myself 

Learning you were just a chapter

Not a book that I’m defined by 

Or anything that describes 

In winter remember 

The words of love 

Aren’t so joyous, precious 

The lies of it I cry why 

That was then and then it was now

What’s the new year to bring 

I was innocent and naive 

What’s the new year to bring

Now I’m jaded from the lies told

What’s the new year to bring 

I’m too bitter to be sweet

But I’m fine like a great wine 

I’m to be enjoyed 

In my way.  

That was then and then it was now

What’s the new year to bring 

I was innocent and naive 

What’s the new year to bring

Now I’m jaded from the lies told

What’s the new year to bring 

Like a Beat In Time

I’ve wanted so much from this

But like a beat in time 

It’s over

If we believed in true love

Really

We would have made it work 

Somehow 

But here we are now unlike before

Strangers

Or maybe that’s all we ever were

Separate entities 

Oil and water 

Fire and ice 

They say opposites attract

But do they need to repel 

Or destroy each other.  

I’ve wanted so much from this

But like a beat in time 

It’s over

The noise we made for us was

Foolish 

How we tried to make ‘em 

Believe 

The lies we told to comfort ourselves

Are out 

And let’s face facts we wasted time so 

It is what it is. 

Light and darkness

Pure and raw

They say opposites attract 

But do they need to blur out 

Or contradict theirselves 

I’ve wanted so much from this

But like a beat in time 

It’s over

Shhh, Say Nothing

 

I hate being alone with my thoughts

Especially when I’m not by myself

So I break the emptiness

With the vacant noise

I just need to be stimulated 

All the time or I feel incomplete 

That’s why I can’t stop myself 

seeking attention 

I fear the void and all it traps

So I want to avoid it wholly 

But I need to learn it’s all good

When there’s nothing else to say

Don’t try and communicate 

Shhhh.  Say nothing. 

When we’re alone in silence 

Enjoy the peace don’t interrupt.  

Shhhh.  Say nothing.  

Easy said but easier to say

Something else now to break the silence 

But if I only listened 

To these two heartbeats 

Maybe if I could shut up and be 

Just be in a moment in a space

A place of real ecstasy 

Outside all the noise 

But I still struggle without it

A needless narrative to hide that 

I’m unsure of things like myself. 

When there’s nothing else to say

Don’t try and communicate 

Shhhh.  Say nothing. 

When we’re alone in silence 

Enjoy the peace don’t interrupt.  

Shhhh.  Say nothing.  

Seal my lips 

With a kiss 

And shut them

Until when

It’s that time 

It’s okay 

Hold me tight 

Keep me safe

And alright 

Kill a fear

In my mind

Still my heart. 

When there’s nothing else to say

Don’t try and communicate 

Shhhh.  Say nothing. 

When we’re alone in silence 

Enjoy the peace don’t interrupt.  

Shhhh.  Say nothing.  

Dawn Of The Hour

 Dawn of The Hour

You don’t know me

I’m just a coincidence 

In your life

It’s just that fate

Drew us together then

Said alright 

What do we do with these fools

Who had a moment

When it wasn’t right 

Where no one belongs

Why oh why is this

The Dawn of the Hour

When all is wrong

Becomes right 

Hold my hand 

Believe in the

Dawn of the Hour 

I’m trying to

Understand who you are dear

What is right 

Just a mistake.

I’m wounded in my soul 

Where’s the light

What do I do with my thoughts 

Who am I right now

When can I love right 

Where is my ending 

Why oh why is this 

The Dawn of the Hour

When all is wrong

Becomes right 

Hold my hand 

Believe in the

Dawn of the Hour 

Hands meet on the hour

I wish for the same 

But maybe one day 

When my eyes won’t cry 

It will be

The Dawn of the Hour

When all is wrong

Becomes right 

Hold my hand 

Believe in the

Dawn of the Hour 

Above All, Nothing

A long time ago was a man child

Flittering his way through life 

He made mistakes and fell in love. 

All wrong now looking back

I wanted to be something more 

Than a footnote. 

A hero or legend

A god among men

But here I am

Basically living barely thriving 

I need you to hear me

I need you to want me

I need you to feel me

Above all.  I want your forgiveness

In the past I loved blindly and now

What was unconditional now

Is wrong and leaves a bitter taste 

And alone if its true 

 I demand I’m better than this

A last kiss miss 

The best worst chance at bliss 

An angelic chance

To have it all 

Right now I’m living barely thriving. 

I need you to hear me

I need you to want me

I need you to feel me

Above all.  I want your forgiveness

At the end of this

I need you for nothing. 

Hear me? Nothing 

Want me?  Nothing 

Feel me? Nothing 

Above all, Nothing 

I demand I’m better than this

A last kiss miss 

The best worst chance at bliss 

An angelic chance

To have it all 

Right now I’m living barely thriving.