Should I ____

 Should I ____

How long have we known each other

It’s been so long I don’t know

Now here we are 

Opening doors

I never knew that were there

But were always waiting

To be explored 

What’s wrong with me

I’m feeling things

I haven’t in years

I’m confused 

Should I bother with you

Should I cut you off

I’m just scared of this 

But not of you. 

I’m afraid of love and the hurt 

It brings, retched feelings

All from my past 

Erupting now 

Reminding me I’m damaged

Yet I’m always healing 

For a moment

That I can be

Happy in trust

In someone to love

But I ask

Should I push this forward 

Should I just go ghost 

I’m just scared of this

But not you 

Should I bother with you

Should I cut you off

I’m just scared of this 

But not of you. 

It’s intoxicating 

The fear and hope 

In the unknown

Of the future

That could be 

With you.  Am I

Just a damn fool. 

Should I just open up 

Should I run away

I’m just scared of this

But not you

Should I push this forward 

Should I just go ghost 

I’m just scared of this

But not you 

Should I bother with you

Should I cut you off

I’m just scared of this 

But not of you.