One Up My Father

 

My mom doesn’t hear me

Or read my words

If she did she’d know

I’d one up my father 

And actually kill my self

None of that passive bullshit. 

What a punch in the gut

To realize 

How insignificant I am 

It doesn’t matter 

No matter how hard you try

I’m not worthy

To breathe the same

Air as you. 

But I cry

So many times

I don’t know why

Why I cry

And I lie

Am I alive 

My mom doesn’t hear me

Or read my words

If she did she’d know

I’d one up my father 

And actually kill my self

None of that passive bullshit. 

Focus on what is real 

And what is not 

how do I fit in all of this 

It doesn’t matter 

No matter how hard you try

I’m not worthy

To breathe the same

Air as you. 

Lies cries tries

All that I’ve done

It’s in the past 

It doesn’t matter 

No matter how hard you try

I’m not worthy

To breathe the same

Air as you. 

My mom doesn’t hear me

Or read my words

If she did she’d know

I’d one up my father 

And actually kill my self

None of that passive bullshit.