Enigma to Myself

 Enigma to Myself

Who is that I see 

When I look In the mirror

It’s not someone I know

But a lie I’ve sold myself

That isn’t me and I’m not him

But where did it come from 

I’m not sure 

So who are we anyway

In our self conscious 

Maybe more fallacies 

I want to know who we are 

But especially me

I want to feel what’s real

And believe it

Why can’t I understand myself

Anymore 

Although I try 

I’m an enigma to myself 

And what do I know 

When it comes to things like this 

I’m not so self aware 

Yet I try to understand 

Myself and what I see in my soul 

I’m trying to just find

Me maybe 

So what is this experience 

A course in insight 

And some understanding 

So right now are we alright 

But especially me

I want to feel what’s real

And believe it

Why can’t I understand myself

Anymore 

Although I try 

I’m an enigma to myself 

I’m seeking answers 

With more and more questions 

Am I alright

Am I fine

Am I sober 

Am I sane 

I’m an enigma to myself 

I want to feel what’s real

And believe it

Why can’t I understand myself

Anymore 

Although I try 

I’m an enigma to myself